Chapter 174 The dark truth

She lowered her head so that no one could see the expression on her face clearly, and her voice was so calm that no emotion was revealed, but the words she spoke made everyone present feel as if they had been struck by a dull hammer.

"Instead of staying at home and counting the days until death, I would rather spend my last days living a good life for myself."

After that, Yu Xiaoxiao stood up slowly, leaving everyone with a lonely figure, but the expression on her face was very dull. Could she not have heard the irritability and incomprehension in her two sons' words?

Hey~

Life is always like this, nine out of ten times it is not what you want, of which fifty-six out of ten are reality and two-thirds of emotion. Realistic rumors will always influence emotions, and emotions are always mixed with rationality and sensibility.

Choice, to put it bluntly, is just selfishness and emotion.

They want her to stay at home safely like other elderly people, without causing them trouble or worrying, and they can take care of her while taking care of their own lives without worrying about what will happen to them.

Life has too much impact, and they feel that this kind of life makes them very comfortable.

But since they are not themselves, they cannot understand their own feelings, and they always want to make themselves compromise for them.

Although she knew this was human nature, she really couldn't be selfless enough to tolerate them and suppress herself for the sake of their stability and emotional selfishness.

She is still the Yu Xiaoxiao who came from modern times and has no worries. She is the Yu Xiaoxiao who came alone and will leave alone.

What she values ​​most will always be herself. She can be temporarily accommodating and tolerant for the sake of feelings, but she will never change herself for those feelings. Her upbringing has taught her to be selfish, not kind.

I and my brother have selfish motives, but they are also really worried about their mother, and they don't know what to do to get the best of both worlds.

Now that their mother specifically pointed them out, they felt that they were using their emotions to force their mother to compromise.

After a long while, Shen Ye finally said, "Maybe we should let my mother live a good life for herself, and not be so in control of everything."

Although I also know that it is difficult to have both ends of the world.

Their mother's words were also true. They knew that their mother was old and no one knew how long they would have to live. They were really just watching their friends die one by one, counting the days and waiting for death.

They don't understand this feeling, but it's not hard to imagine how painful it would be to live with this feeling all the time.

Shen Ye and Shen Qi suddenly felt very tired and had no intention of talking. They called their children and wife back to the house to sleep, and then they went to the study room. Shen Ye also brought a jar of wine.

Yu Xiaoxiao went back to the house, closed the door, and entered the space to work according to her past habits, without taking the unpleasantness into her heart at all.

There is no doubt that they are worried about their mother's life and safety when she goes out at such an old age. However, when their mother said she was going out for training, their first reaction was irritability mixed with worry, not pure worry.

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This kind of reaction is just because my mother has basically done everything for them over the years and never bothered them, so they got used to it.

As for the other people in the yard, everyone has their own thoughts and reactions.

The last words that their mother said also stung their hearts. She had worked hard for them for half her life, and there was never a day when she didn't care about them. She lived happily for herself and did everything she wanted to do. matter.

She has feelings and concerns for her two cheap sons, and there is also a feeling of being a baby in a strange world, but she does not feel that she needs to obey them for these reasons, and obey them for the sake of their feelings and selfishness.

Shen Ye drank the wine in the glass in one gulp, looking at the drunken eyes, and her voice could not detect any emotion or anger: "I don't know."

Shen Ye and Shen Qi felt somewhat guilty. They had always felt that it was natural for their mother to accommodate them. Although they would be grateful, they felt more that she was their mother and that she should be tolerant for them. Yes, accustomed to it.

After all, the old people in the village are like this. In order not to cause trouble to their sons and daughters, they will do their best to do what they can and stay in one place safely and let their children worry about them. As long as you can take care of your own life, you can have a little spare time to take care of them.

Shen Qi took another sip of wine and seemed to choke. He coughed for a long time before he recovered. He narrowed his eyes and said quietly: "Yes, mother has never been an ordinary person."

Shen Ye chuckled with some disdain: "This is just an excuse for us to cover up our selfishness. Apart from mother, in the whole family, we are the only two who know best how mother treats her body, right?"

Shen Ye nodded, and the two of them sat in silence, drinking in silence. Maybe because they were a little drunk, Shen Qi spoke.

The other children are more concerned and worried about their grandmother and elders. They are still young and have been exposed to relatively naive reality, so they are still very simple and do not have too much selfishness.

Zhiye was a young man after all, and he suddenly had an urge in his heart to ask his grandma to travel with him, but looking at the elder's face, he held back and did not say it out loud.

Shen Qi watched his elder brother come in, his eyes fell on the jar of wine, and he said in a deep voice: "Let's drink together?"

They subconsciously felt that it would be troublesome and inconvenient for their mother to go out for training. There is no doubt about this.

"Brother, do you think we should agree to Mom going out for training?"

Although Xu Wanrou and Yang Lian were also touched, they were used to everything in the feudal society because they had been educated like this since childhood, so they did not understand it very well. However, they also knew that their mother-in-law and the head of the family were in a bad mood. So there was worry in his eyes.

Shen Qi held his head, his eyes were drunk, but his mind was clear: "Mom is almost seventy."

Shen Qi smiled bitterly, filled himself and his eldest brother, picked up his own glass and drank it down in one gulp, and the two fell into silence again.

Shen Ye's eyes were dull and his mind went back to when he was eight years old.

They almost starved to death without eating or drinking. The mother had obviously died at that time, but later she woke up and was able to eat. He was very hungry at that time, but his brain was not damaged.

Moreover, his mother was so kind to them later on, without any of the coldness and alienation she had before. He still remembered that his mother looked at him and his brother with gloomy eyes several times while fleeing from famine. He even heard that his mother wanted to trade them for food. Although In the end, he couldn't do it cruelly, but those things were still firmly remembered in his heart.

Maybe at that time, he had a vague suspicion in his heart, but he was only eight years old and his younger brother was five years old. He couldn't support himself and his younger brother, so he simply told himself that he was overthinking, and he put all his thoughts into it.

I kept it in my heart and didn't let anyone find out.
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