Li Yanan's story was widely publicized through the small speaker Jin Yu, and the whole class knew about it. No one asked Li Yanan, but many people looked at her secretly. Fang Jia looked at Li Yanan with some pain, she didn't know how to talk to Li Yanan

She said, but it could be seen from her eyes that she felt unworthy of Li Yanan.

Li Yanan was on pins and needles during class. Later, when she was in the big class, she saw that even the students from foreign classes started to point fingers at her. She gritted her teeth and thought of what Chen Xu said to her during the winter vacation: do everything

Before doing something, prepare for the worst first, see if you can bear the consequences, and whether you will regret it in the future!

Li Yanan felt that no matter what choice she made, she would have to bear the consequences. She had already made her choice, and there was no turning back. She was about to graduate, let’s wait until she gets her diploma! People in her dormitory no longer talked to Li Yanan.

She had no choice but to live in a rental house every day. But people are social animals, and only when their hearts are strong enough can they be alone without getting hurt.

One day, Chen Xu was studying in the library, and Li Yanan suddenly walked up to her and sat down next to her. Chen Xu glanced at her without saying anything and continued studying. A place like the library was indeed not suitable for conversation. By noon, Chen Xu was tired.

, when preparing to eat, Li Yanan packed up her books and walked out of the library with her. Chen Xu turned to look at her, "You have something to do with me?" Li Yanan looked at Chen Xu, "How should I say it? I want to apologize to you.

I have a misunderstanding, and I think you are pretending to be noble. Of course, you definitely don’t care what I think of you. But you are really a person with a very bottom line. If Jin Yu had found out about this, the whole city would have been in trouble.

Now, I don’t have the leisure time of more than half a year.”

Chen Xu looked at her, "We are all adults. What you choose is your business. I have no right to point fingers at you. If you take shortcuts, you will have to bear the consequences. There is no free lunch in the world, nor

Pies will fall out of thin air, just feel good about it. You don't need to thank me, because it has nothing to do with me, and I don't have that much time to care about other people's affairs."

Li Yanan still said sincerely, "You are really a good person. At least you don't do things that harm others and do not benefit yourself. I misunderstood you in the past and said things I shouldn't have said. I apologize to you today."

." Chen Xu didn't expect that when Li Yanan's incident came out, she would suddenly come over to apologize to him. Is it just because he didn't tell others about it?

Li Yanan said awkwardly: "Chen Xu, I know you have never regarded me as a friend, but we were roommates after all! Aren't we still classmates now? Do you have time? I'll treat you to dinner at noon!

There are some things I want to find someone to talk to, but I really can’t find anyone. I know there are some things that others can’t relate to, and others will be annoyed if I tell them, but I don’t think anyone will go crazy if I say it. Can you give me some advice?

Give me some time and listen to what I have to say."

Chen Xu looked at her and said, "Okay, I have to eat anyway, so there is no need to treat me to a meal. Let's go to the cafeteria to eat. If you can still eat the food in the cafeteria, we will finish in the cafeteria.

Let’s have dinner and then go for a walk by the lake! Fortunately, it’s not too cold today.”

The two of them had a meal in the cafeteria. Li Yanan said, "My story is a bit long. Can you go to the cafe outside with me and sit for a while? Although the weather is not too cold today, I still feel quite cold after being outside for a long time."

After the miscarriage, I didn't pay attention to keeping warm, and I became afraid of the cold, so I couldn't stay outside for too long." Chen Xu agreed. The two of them went to a small cafe on the corner outside the school and sat down. Li Yanan ordered two cups of coffee. Chen Xu agreed.

Xu was a little uncomfortable with drinking this stuff, and was struggling. Li Yanan stirred the coffee in the cup with one hand, and after a long time she raised her head and said: "Chen Xu, I really admire you. You can live so tenaciously by yourself, but I was so fast at that time."

I took this path because I couldn’t stand it anymore. My mother used to be a private primary school teacher. She only had a monthly salary of 80 yuan at that time, but my mother loved this job very much. She liked to be respected and respected by others.

I feel like I am an educated person. But when the last batch of private teachers became regular teachers, she was dismissed because she did not have a diploma. Therefore, my mother has always paid great attention to my studies and asked me to have a diploma that I can use.

My grades have been excellent since I was a child, and I have always been the pride of my mother. But later my father was injured while working outside and could no longer earn money. The family only had a few acres of thin farmland, and the income was not enough to support the family.

I can only apply for student loans when I go to college. People are very strange. The poorer they are, the more they are afraid of being looked down upon by others. Obviously I have done nothing wrong. I study hard and get good grades, but my low self-esteem has been with me since my sophomore year.

It's time to change dormitories. I know that when the six-person dormitory changes to the four-person dormitory, two people will definitely move out. But if I change to another four-person dormitory, I won't feel inferior. But just because I have a student loan, I have to

I also went to the six-person dormitory like everyone else. The day I left that dormitory, I felt that I had never been so ashamed. I only missed the accommodation fee by 400 yuan every year. It’s not that I couldn’t afford the 400 yuan, but I was required to be a poor person.

I was not allowed to live in a four-person dormitory. This naked contempt felt like an invisible whip hitting my face. That day was a day of great shame for me.

I originally thought that as long as I studied hard and graduated from a prestigious school, found a job, earned a high salary to supplement my family income, and paid off student loans, my future would have been bright. But then my father passed away, and only my mother, younger brother, and younger brother were left at home.

He is useless and doesn’t study well. He only went to a junior college, but it happened to cost a lot more money to go to junior college than me. The money from the student loan is simply not enough for him. I want to save part of my money to support him.

, this way my living expenses are not enough. I also tried to do part-time work like you, but because I have no experience, I am always bullied. Later, I met Wang Hao when I was handing out flyers. He felt that he was a good person.

Good. Because he thought I was pitiful, he gave me dozens of dollars more. I could have refused, but I couldn't bear to refuse. The dozens of dollars were enough for my living expenses for several days. After going back and forth, we became familiar with each other. Indeed,

I'm very grateful to him, but I can't say I like him. You've also seen the way he looks, so it's hard to sincerely like him.

Later, he confessed to me that he liked me, said that I was pure, and that I was strong. I knew that this was a common way to deceive girls, but what should I do? I couldn't resist his temptation. To be precise, I couldn't help it.

The temptation of money. He just has a big addiction and is not strong in that area at all. So I don’t have to wait on him a few times a month. He rented me a small one-bedroom house opposite the school. I have to say that he is a person.

It's quite disgusting. He thought he was very charming and thought I loved her, so he refused to give me money directly. He would just buy me some things. I could only shamelessly return some of the things quietly.

, get some money, give my mother some household income, and give some to my brother. I am not good-looking and cannot be sold at a high price. This way I am very satisfied, because this man is infertile, so he is unwilling to take measures.

I was pregnant during the summer vacation. I was going to school and had no intention of keeping the child. What’s more, the doctor said there were signs of threatened abortion. In order to get some nutrition and abortion expenses from him, I told him that I was pregnant. Unexpectedly

He actually asked me whose child it was and said that he had asthenozoospermia and that it was impossible for me to get pregnant. I felt sad and embarrassed at the time. I consulted the doctor and the doctor said that there is a certain relationship between asthenozoospermia and threatened abortion.

I lied to him about the money and said that I was too sad to be suspected, so I took the initiative to abort the child. He also secretly checked online and found out that asthenozoospermia can make women pregnant. He felt guilty, so he gave me 20,000 yuan.

piece.

This time, in order to stabilize me, he gave me a bank card. He said it was the company's dividend card, with more than 1 million in it. He also said that there would be hundreds of thousands of dividends at the end of the year. Although I didn't go to the bank to check, I

I also know that even if he has 1 million in it, I can't take it out. He should save it regularly. What you said before is right. I don't think what I am doing now is right. But things have changed.

At this point, I just want to graduate smoothly. Now I have earned almost hundreds of thousands from him. In addition to giving to my brother and my mother, there are still tens of thousands. After I graduate, if I can pass the system

If I go to work inside, I won't have to worry about food and clothing. It would be best if I can find the right person to get married by then. Even if no one marries me, at least I won't have a problem eating. I don't have the ability to get rid of him yet."

Chen Xu asked in confusion: "Why are you telling me this? I don't sympathize." Li Yanan smiled sadly, "I don't need sympathy. Sympathy will make me feel disgusting, and even I will look down on myself.

I feel sorry for myself and it doesn't make me feel comfortable. I just want to find someone to talk to. I can't talk to my mother or my brother. When I want to talk, I find that I don't even have a friend. Just uploaded

When we were in college, Fang Jia and I had a good relationship, but later I didn't want to be friends with her. We were almost the same at first, but then her family's conditions got better. People are really weird sometimes, looking at Jin Yu's family

We are rich, and Lin Zihan and Wang Yuqi's family conditions are not bad. I don't feel anything at all, but Fang Jia suddenly gets better, but I can't adapt to it. This is the bad part of human nature!"

Chen Xu did not try to persuade Li Yanan to leave that man. She just said softly, "Li Yanan, just do what you think is right. Don't care too much about what others say. People don't live for others to see. Some people

Taking shortcuts, some people choose the difficult path, no matter which path is taken, it is our own choice, there is no need to complain, and there is no need to explain to anyone, I still say the same thing, just be worthy of yourself, what do you want in the future?

Just don’t regret it. Human beings’ sorrows and joys are not the same, and it is difficult for people to empathize with them. So sympathy is really cheap and very valuable. Again, I don’t sympathize with you, but I have no grudge against you.

, I hope you will live better and better and live the life you really want."

A drop of Li Yanan's tear fell into the coffee cup, "Thank you Chen Xu. I admire you very much. You can firmly follow your own path and move forward according to your own established ideas. No matter how hard it is, you can persevere.
Chapter completed!