I woke up very early today. I usually sleep until after nine o'clock, but I opened my eyes at eight o'clock.

I obviously didn’t go to bed until five o’clock.

It's really a strange thing.

After getting up, I could only pretend to put on an apron because I was worried about starting a fire in the kitchen again.

Spread jam on toast, pour a glass full of milk, and sigh in my heart that my girl power is incredible.

But recently, for some unknown reason, my appetite has become much smaller.

Originally, I should not be full after eating three pieces of toast in the morning, but now my appetite is surprisingly bad.

As for the reason, I actually know it very well. I just feel that if I admit this to myself, I would be very embarrassed.

After breakfast, I went to the office to show my face first. I had to rush to the recording studio for an audition in the morning, and since it was in Shinjuku, I had plenty of time.

In short, I try to focus my mind on my work so that I can force myself not to think about strange things.

As for the strange things, if I were to break them down and talk about them, they would sound a bit inexplicable, but I didn’t intend to lie to myself.

Anyway, I'm very concerned about what Saori and the others are doing.

Saori and Kazuto-san went on a trip. Although I am not sure, I must have contributed to this matter.

This is actually a normal thing. I cannot see my friends being depressed. I hope they can recognize each other's feelings. If they can renew their relationship, I will happily send my blessings and say congratulations.

...This is fake.

In the past, I may have sincerely held this idea, and even took the initiative to persuade Kazuto-san, hoping that he would think about it carefully. I also did a lot of homework for Saori, thinking that as long as they were honest with each other, things would go smoothly.

direction of development.

However, an accident happened.

An accident called "good impression".

But by the time I noticed something was wrong with me, it was too late.

Unknowingly, I fell into that person's gentle land.

Because he was so gentle, I didn't even notice the love trap he had set during this period.

Hmm... This statement is a bit unfair to him. Kazuto-san must really want to get along with me as a friend.

I had the same idea at first, but as I gradually got to know him, my feelings changed little by little, but when I noticed.

I seem to be... unable to escape from his tenderness.

There may be something wrong with this statement. Compared with his gentleness, I am more worried about his loneliness. Just looking at it makes me feel uncomfortable.

Want to do something for him, think about what you can do for him.

What words should be used to describe such feelings?

Like? Like? Love?

It all sounds a little different from what I imagined.

I just simply want to give something back to him.

Is it gratitude?

I like his cooking and his writing, and I often worry about his current situation, so I always show up at his house.

Calling it gratitude might be a bit too disgusting.

After all, he never expected my gratitude.

It’s so weird for me to have such feelings just because of a few meals.

But I knew that I was weird, but I allowed this feeling to grow, continued to interact with him, and continued to be entangled with him in the name of a "good friend".

What a cunning girl.

Qingshui Yousha is such a bad girl.

When my friend was feeling sad about this, I monopolized his cooking and his tenderness. I couldn't even find the words to defend myself.

I lack the language and cannot convince myself, so I can only stop thinking about it.

It doesn't matter, because we are good friends. As long as we are good friends, no matter what I do, it will be fine.

Even if I take him home to meet his parents, or if I say something to him without permission that will trouble him, he will respond to me in his gentle way.

I am drowning in such a gentle swamp. The more I struggle, the more I cannot escape.

...This sentence is actually a lie.

I never struggled at all, let alone struggled and resisted, I simply enjoyed it.

I think I must have been poisoned by the delicious poison called love.

Once you taste it once, no one can resist its temptation.

Like a giant bear suffering from abstinence symptoms, he couldn't put it down and licked the jar filled with honey.

But compared to ordinary men and women, there is a deeper barrier between me and that person.

Saori Konishi, my best friend.

I am wandering in the relationship between the two of them, and any communication between them will become a source of obstruction for me to speak out.

Before this, I never thought that I would have strange feelings for my best friend's ex-husband.

I dare not even think about it.

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After the dubbing ended this morning, I made an appointment with a friend to have lunch together at a nearby family restaurant.

Recently, I have gradually become unaccustomed to eating outside, but it is not to the point where I hate it. I just have a thought in my heart that any other choice will be a makeshift.

I have always thought of myself as a person who is willing to make do with things.

Turns out, it was just what I thought.

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"Qi, what's wrong? I eat so little. It doesn't look like you at all."

Ai Kakuma, who is also a fellow voice actor and a resident of lonelyhome, looked at me with some worry.

"Hey hehe~~ I've been losing weight recently."

"Huh?! No way, you are so thin, do you still need to lose weight?"

"Kuma, I'm a singer who is going on a live tour. If I don't manage my weight well, my manager will scold me."

"Hey... it's really hard for singers and voice actors."

"Who says it isn't?"

"Then you're welcome, I'm going to start."

Ai Kakuma smiles very happily. She is very gentle, has medium-long hair, and has a beautiful mole on the side of her nose. Her smile is quite contagious.

We all like to call her Kuma. I heard that her surname is quite rare, with only about 200 people in the country.

Seeing her eating so deliciously, for some reason, I felt a slight sense of superiority in my heart.

【If you have tasted Kazuto-san's cooking, you will definitely not be able to show such an expression now.】

This must be something abnormal. In the past, I would never have had such thoughts.

As expected, I am a somewhat strange bad girl.

Just the fact that you became good friends with your best friend's ex-husband is incredible enough.

As if to soothe the guilt in my heart, after saying those words to Rensang, I would persuade him, hoping that they could have a good talk.

...Actually, this is also a lie.

I realized that this was an opportunity, an opportunity to extinguish the guilt growing inside me.
Chapter completed!