January 1st.

New Year.

No one was doing radio gymnastics in the house, and there were no pictures of Amsterdam canals on the wall, but I still woke up at six o'clock.

I stared at the ceiling in the bedroom, dazed for a long time, and then went downstairs.

My mother was preparing breakfast, and then enjoyed breakfast with her parents. After talking to them, she went out alone.

Today I made an appointment with Nobunaga and others to pay homage to the New Year.

While walking on the road, I was still thinking about what happened not long ago, but I didn't dare to search too much online.

The Internet has memory, even if it is a rumor, it is like a label attached to an old desk in a primary school classroom that cannot be removed cleanly.

Those who are willing to understand and have a broad mind may say "the official clarification has been made" and defend Totsuka and I in places I don't know.

For those who don’t want to know more about it, when they hear the words “Totsuka Kazu”, they will probably say, “I know, I’m going to date Minase Prairie.”

Even if there is no stone hammer, the observing party is always willing to believe the statement that contains fun rather than the statement that is well-founded.

What's more, I think that official statement is not reasonable and well-founded.

If I were a member of the public, I wouldn't believe it either.

I have nothing to complain about. In the final analysis, it is my own negligence.

I just still don’t understand the thoughts of those people. I don’t know when I started to become the King of the Sea in others’ mouths.

Specializing in hooking up with female voice actors in the circle, there are seven or eight people who have gone on to have romantic relationships with each other.

There are obviously female voice actors among them who I can't name at all, but compared to them, my imagination is even poorer.

But people like to see this, so naturally they are willing to believe it. If the person involved was not me, maybe I would believe it too.

Just like before I dated that guy Sakura, there were many people on the Internet who tied me to her all day long.

The principles are the same and there is no essential difference.

It's just that I understand a truth.

In the island country, whether it is a myth or a confusing relationship between men and women that can be proven with convincing evidence, it cannot affect an artist's future.

Unless the artist is female.

This is not to set up something as mysterious as gender opposition, but it is a fact that I have learned.

Whether a male artist is excellent depends on whether his business ability is outstanding.

And those people judge whether a female artist is good or not based on whether she has slept with a man.

I think it's very funny and very sad.

As for why I felt such a sigh on the first day of the new year, it was because two days ago, Yousha’s office received hundreds of broken single CDs, with the words “go die” and “bitch” written all over them in marker. son.

I heard this from Miss Dai, and Sakura also knew about it.

As for where she learned about it, I didn't ask.

Since then, Yousha has never contacted me again, and I don’t know how to tell her.

Perhaps it was out of my hypocritical sense of guilt, but I can't say that I didn't have any doubts about her at that time.

Before long, I will still be the glamorous Kazuto Totsuka, and my novels, songs, and voice-over works will take me to a higher level.

No matter how long it takes, people will remember Inori Minase, an idol voice actress, as a disqualified female artist who would tryst with men on Christmas Eve, labeling her something she has never done.

Just like the abandoned desks in the old school building, anyone can have something stuck on them that cannot be scratched off.

Extremely unreasonable and helpless.

Sometimes I even want to go to the rooftop, drink whiskey alone, and figure out where I should go.

But after thinking about it for a long time, I finally gave up. I was so drunk that I fell drunk on the rooftop, which seemed pretentious.

The final victim of this incident is just Yousha.

Maybe that's not right, there's also Sakura.

She lost an important friend.

But I don't seem to have lost anything important.

If I have to say that I have suffered any loss, it is that I saw two girls who were depressed because of this incident.

Maybe there are very few things in my heart that I can call important, so I always look indifferent to everything.

Money, status, reputation, I seem to despise these things from the bottom of my heart, but if people listen to these words, someone will definitely say that I am hypocritical.

What does that sentence say? What are the benefits of being rich?

You can say that you have no money.

It's roughly the same reason.

In this way, I can only live step by step.

After meeting Nobunaga and the Kai people, we went to a nearby temple to pay homage.

I don't like such tedious things. Rather than these trivial things, I would rather stay at home and read a book.

It's just that they all have expressions of concern for me on their faces. Even a person like me can't squander the kindness of my friends. I can only pretend to smile and say that I'm fine.

After visiting the shrine, Nobunaga said that his New Year's wish was to make a single shipment every time, while Kaito hoped that this year's work would go smoothly.

When they asked me, I couldn't say that I didn't make a wish at all, because I didn't believe it at all. I was annoyed by the question, so I had to say "it won't work if I say it" to excuse it.

Instead, they laughed and said that I believed in gods too much.

After lunch, I said goodbye to them. The streets during the New Year looked the same as before. None of the shops lined up on both sides was a bustling scene.

I boarded the tram home out of boredom, looking at the regressing scenery outside the window, thinking it would be great if time could go back.

Retire to the wedding day, say no, and then embark on a lonely and leisurely journey alone.

Stay away from the things around you and the female voice actors around you.

But if that were the case, I imagine my parents would be sad and uncomfortable, and I wouldn't be able to interact with Sakura.

So I got into trouble and wondered how I could get the best of both worlds.

When the tram arrived, I couldn't think of a good idea.

Back on the ground, white snow suddenly fell from the sky, falling one by one, and got into the back of the neck. It was not as cold as the snow on Christmas Eve.

Inexplicably, I wanted to hear that guy's voice.

I called Sakura, and stood motionless at the station entrance like a statue, waiting until there was a voice message that was not answered, and then hung up the phone without saying a word.

He breathed into his hands, put it in his coat pocket and left.

Loneliness still pricks my heart from time to time, piercing through. When I think of someone and try to seek something from others, I always end up in vain.

Even so, I still try my best to show my gregarious side.
Chapter completed!