"Mental illness?"

"To put it simply, that's pretty much what it means."

For some reason, I didn't fool her with other lies. Although I didn't specify the symptoms that happened to me, such as my inability to see women's faces clearly, she should have understood what I wanted to express.

"That is to say...due to excessive work pressure, Totsuka-kun's mental level is unstable, does that mean?"

"Whether it's due to high work pressure or something else, I can't figure out."

"For example, is it the retribution of having two boats?"

I smiled bitterly: "Maybe it's true."

"That's really a gratifying thing."

I wasn't dissatisfied with her gloating. She was talking to me in a relaxed tone, rather than treating me as a mental patient.

Although there is no basis for it, I can hear these things in her voice.

Is it because I can't see their expressions clearly? Now I am extremely sensitive to sounds. I may be able to figure out the emotions and mood of the speaker.

Isn't this often seen in TV dramas? The hearing or sense of smell of blind characters are always much more sensitive than that of ordinary people. Maybe it's the same reason as that.

"Miss Hidaka, are you willing to believe me?"

"It doesn't matter whether you believe it or not, anyone who has such a beautiful and excellent girlfriend and still cheats on her must have something wrong with his head no matter what he thinks."

Is it because of this reason?

Although it made me laugh or cry, I couldn't think of anything to say in reply.

"But does it really matter if you tell me such a thing? Maybe I will be exposed."

"If I thought Ms. Hidaka was that kind of person, I wouldn't tell you."

"Ugh, that's really boring."

I don't know if it's my imagination, but I always feel that Miss Hidaka's mouth should be slightly turned up at this moment. It's really incredible.

"Anone, Totsuka-kun."

"yes."

"Although this is a bit rude, I don't think mental illness can be used as an excuse to hurt women."

"Yeah, I know."

"Do you really know?"

Her distrustful tone revealed her strong suspicion of me.

"I know very well that my behavior is the result of my own will, and I have no intention of quibbling or escaping. To say the least, if the things I did were caused by mental illness, then I Can it still be considered me?

Is it the real me who is sitting in front of Miss Hidaka and having a conversation with you at this moment?"

This is a question I have always hidden in my heart, and I have never told anyone this. Ms. Hidaka was the first person I confided to.

I couldn't tell Ayin about my mental illness. Telling my girlfriends would have no effect except causing them sadness.

But Miss Hidaka is different.

I always feel that if it were the girl in front of me, she would neither sympathize with me nor treat me as an alien.

It was as if I just had a little cold and it wasn't a big deal at all.

"Don't make the topic so complicated! In short, what Totsuka-kun wants to say is that it is your own will to be in two boats. It is completely your own choice. Is that what it is?"

"That's right."

"Bah! Scumbag!"

Ah... I was scolded.

"In the same way, I like Miss Rigao now, and my desire to pursue you is also out of my own will."

"Ku——! Don't say such disgusting things openly! I will not fall in love with a man who has been divorced and cheated!"

"Hahaha."

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★Hikaru cuisine perspective★

The reason why I followed Totsuka-kun back to the store was actually quite simple. It was just that I had nothing to do. It was definitely not because I wanted to talk to him or something else that was all over my head.

Well, absolutely not.

After sitting down, Totsuka-kun kept staring at me, his eyes basically only circling below my neck. This made me a little wary, and I couldn't help but put my hands on the table to cover my chest.

I don't have a very exaggerated bust, nor do I wear highly revealing clothes, but I just don't like being looked at by him like that.

No, it's not so much that I don't like it, it's more that I'm a little angry.

Because no matter how much I glared at him, he seemed to be completely ignoring me. Logically speaking, shouldn't he be caught peeking and look embarrassed?

Being aggressive to this level actually makes me shy, which is really annoying.

After that, he actually claimed that he was deeply in love with those two people at the same time. Due to professional reasons, of course I know that this is something that many light novel protagonists would say, but this is the first time I have seen someone say this in real life. The person who talks.

I began to wonder if there was something wrong with this man's head, and finally he couldn't distinguish between reality and illusion.

Yeah, yeah, that's why everyone thinks light novel writers are disgusting.

However, my idea actually came true.

There is indeed something wrong with Totsuka-kun's head. If what he told me is true, then he is really suffering from a mental illness.

I'm a little curious about this, but even if he is a somewhat annoying guy, I shouldn't ask him face to face what the disease is. No one in the world will be happy about being sick, and I don't want to poke his scars.

Moreover, I might have been aware of it a long time ago.

That night in the hotel, Totsuka-kun showed a very unusual state, like a dying beast that had lost its temperature, trying hard to seek something from the outside world, as if conveying "save me", "I don't want to die", etc. signal.

Perhaps it was because I felt these things that I still held him in my arms that night and used my body temperature to comfort him.

After all, I did have a crush on him at that time and even wanted to develop a further relationship with him.

He probably doesn't remember that incident at all.

What a cunning guy, I was taken advantage of, but he acted like he didn't care at all, and even talked about how much he loved other girls in front of me.

Is this an attitude towards pursuing girls?

If it were any other girl, she would have thrown coffee all over his face and walked away.

The more he talked, the more angry he became.

Phew...a normal heart, a normal heart.

"Hey, have you told ayaneru and Inori-chan about Totsuka-kun's illness?"

"No."

"Oh...that's it."

After I replied calmly, I stopped talking.

Inexplicably, I felt a strange sense of joy in my heart, as if I was the only one who was special.

I don't like myself with this kind of mood.

Like an idiot.
Chapter completed!