I have also thought about running away, leaving everything behind, giving up everything I have, and going to a place where no one can find me.

In front of others, Hidaka Rina is just a doll that caters to adults. She cannot reveal her own thoughts, smiles all the time, and deliberately shows poor acting skills from time to time to make adults think, "This kid is really interesting."

It's quite boring and tiring.

People like me who have no talent can only please the people who make the rules in this way. For children, it is the adults who make the rules.

So until I become an adult, I can only play the role of a good kid carefully.

But in fact, even if you become an adult, it is not that simple to become the one who makes the rules.

So after I became an adult, I still played the same role as before.

Everyone is like this, right? When dealing with bosses, relatives, and many people around you, no matter in life or in the workplace, no one can be who they want.

That's probably when I noticed it.

That person seems different.

He always has an attitude of having nothing to do with himself, and he has never been seen catering to anyone, as if he only lives in his own world.

I have seen several people who think they are the only ones who are special when I was a student, and without exception, they all turned into ordinary and boring adults in the end.

Same as me.

Why can Totsuka-kun do that? Just by looking at him, you can feel that he doesn't fit in with others. Even if someone takes the initiative to talk to him, he always ignores them.

If it were me, I would never be able to be like him.

I can't stand being excluded, I can't stand being alone.

It is absolutely impossible for me to take the initiative to distance myself from others.

Even to this day, I still can't figure it out. Even if I know the true face behind his unsociability, I still know nothing about him.

If this is the preferential treatment that comes with having talent, then this world would be too unfair.

People who are favored by God are really...

So cunning.

…

…

"Have you never been afraid, Totsuka-kun?"

"What?"

"I clearly think that I can't lose to it, but deep down I'm still afraid that I will be abandoned by society one day. This kind of thinking is strange, right? Even I don't understand what this is all about."

No matter what I say, people like him will not understand. In the final analysis, it is a waste of time to expect a public enemy of women to understand the psychology of girls.

I couldn't help but laugh at myself in my heart.

"Well, that's strange."

Look, that's what I said.

I didn't look at the expression on his face, I just stared blankly at the surrounding scenery. As the sun sank, the shadows of the trees shifted little by little, and eventually even my shadow was included in it.

"What's wrong with being weird? Aren't weird people more approachable than mediocre people?"

"…………"

"Ordinary girls can be found everywhere. I'm not saying those girls are bad. Every girl has a unique heart, but until I get to know them more deeply, it's hard to discern their essence.

However, Ms. Hidaka is very interesting. Just by looking at you, you can understand that you are different from those girls. Isn’t this a good thing?"

What, that's it, I really don't understand what he wants to say. When I put my eyes on his face, I saw clearly the strange expression on his face. I couldn't tell whether he was looking at me or looking past my cheek.

Look at what's behind me again.

Anyway...very strange.

"Totsuka-kun, you are a strange person."

"I've known this for a long time, and I still have this bit of self-knowledge."

The October wind carried a trace of laziness, stirring up his black and golden hair, and the golden-red sunset reflected in the depths of his pupils, reminding me of the scene on the train that day.

Judging from his appearance alone, he is indeed a good man who is one of the best in a hundred. I have never denied this. I just think that the core is more important than appearance.

Because I accidentally saw his dark and ugly core, and because many of his recent words were too frivolous, I found this face a bit annoying.

I am also a girl, so of course I long to meet a handsome and gentle person who can say something that makes my heart move in an extremely romantic situation.

But the person in front of me could calmly say embarrassing things, but he was just shy and couldn't make me feel any emotion.

Words like "like" and "special" come out of his mouth, which makes me feel that for him, saying these words is as easy as drinking water.

Because the thrill when you can't say "I like" is what I think is romance.

That's why everyone compares "The moonlight is so beautiful" to "I love you".

In my opinion, Totsuka-kun's "like" is too cheap.

Although this description is a bit exaggerated, I may not be convinced in my heart that he would say "I like" a beautiful girl.

Although I am not a very good girl, I still have the reserve and principles that a girl should have. I cannot really like a person who tramples on a girl's feelings.

Therefore, I really feel sorry for Totsuka-kun's behavior.

But at least he was willing to repent in the end. Sometimes, giving up requires far more courage than moving forward.

He is not hopeless.

I think it is precisely because I know this that I am willing to associate with him.

It's just about communication.

"Maybe Miss Hidaka can't see it, but from the bottom of my heart, I want to make friends with the people around me, and I want to work hard to integrate into this world and this society."

"I really didn't see it."

"Because I don't understand the method, I always unilaterally think that I am different from ordinary people, and I look out of place no matter where I am. Instead of affecting others because of my existence, it is better to stay in the corner and be more comfortable. For me, it is also for others. Too.

For now, I’m still thinking about this.”

"So...the way you integrate into society is to tread two boats?"

"…………"

He looked very embarrassed, and I felt a little proud.

If you think about it carefully, it's just because I treat him so friendly that he keeps pestering me so much. It's not a bad thing to take this opportunity to make him give up completely.

"Miss Hidaka is really merciless when she speaks."

"Because it's true."

"That's right." He sighed leisurely.

"Totsuka-kun, I still don't understand, why do you have to pester me?"

"If you have a preference for female voice actors, it might be faster to train one. Maybe you can even create a harem of voice actors there."

"Is this how you see me?"

"You just did something to make me see you like this."

"…………"
Chapter completed!