After I told everything I knew, I vaguely heard words like "I will never let her go" from the girl in front of me.

I'm sorry, Miss Ogura, I betrayed you accidentally. I'm really sorry.

"Really, that guy Yui-chan, you just say unnecessary things."

Miss Rigao's voice was soft, and there was a rare hint of embarrassment. She was probably regretting that she had fallen in love with a scumbag like me.

"Anyway, please don't take her words to heart, Totsuka-kun. It's been a long time since I liked Totsuka-kun."

"I know."

"Tsk! Why do you answer so relievedly?"

"Then I should cry and beg you to change back to Miss Hidaka?"

"Although that's quite interesting, I'm not interested in men's sad faces."

Miss Hidaka still used a relaxed tone, but when I stopped answering, the atmosphere around her became stiff again.

I know that Ms. Hidaka wants to be strong and wants to solve everything by herself, and she absolutely does not want to show her weakness in front of others.

Perhaps only in front of Miss Ogura, who is her best friend, will Miss Hidaka temporarily take off her disguise. People like me are absolutely unable to touch her heart.

Even so, I still want to do something for her.

"Hey, Totsuka-kun, can you answer a question for me? It's best to tell the truth."

"If it's a question I can't answer, I won't lie even if I remain silent."

"Although this sounds cool, if you think about it carefully, it means that you are not telling the truth. It is too bad."

I smiled slightly and remained silent.

"Well... Anyway, I don't expect everything Totsuka-kun said to me to be true, because Totsuka-kun has no credibility with me anymore."

"This is really sad."

Miss Hidaka took a sip of coffee, leaving a light pink mark on the ceramic cup. I couldn't help but wonder what her lips would taste like.

"Totsuka-kun, have you ever hated yourself?"

It was a puzzling question, but I came to a conclusion very decisively.

"I hate myself so much," she said.

"I have many shortcomings that I cannot tolerate myself, but in the eyes of others, these things seem to have a completely different perception from myself. This is the same for others. For example, I like petite and exquisite girls very much. Yuyi, she always complains that she doesn’t have a more mature body.”

"To put it simply, it means what you have and what others don't have." I answered.

"If it's a mature body, I don't have one, but what I want to say is not such superficial things. Well... I can't describe it well."

She seemed to be struggling with how to organize her words.

"It's okay, I can probably understand what Miss Hidaka wants to say."

"Well...that's it.

Totsuka-kun possesses everything that is outstanding. I really want to know what is the difference between a person like Totsuka-kun who lacks everything and me, and whether he will have the same thoughts as a mortal like me."

"I'm a mortal too, for the most part."

"Generally?"

"Ms. Hidaka, you know." I raised my finger and tapped my temple: "I don't seem to be normal here, so I'm probably a little different from Miss Hidaka."

She is different from me. Miss Hidaka hates herself because she wants to become better, hopes to achieve better things than she is now through her own efforts, and pursues a more perfect self.

And it was just out of disgust for myself that I felt from the bottom of my heart that a guy like me shouldn't be born. What was even more unacceptable to me was that while I was tired of myself, I couldn't stop doing things that were even more annoying.

thing.

"I can't tell clearly, maybe I don't care about my own affairs at all.

Terms like "like it" or "hate it" have absolutely no meaning when applied to me.

And I think this is a personal subjective consciousness. The parts of herself that Ms. Hidaka hates are exactly what I like. And I don’t have any qualities worthy of anyone’s liking.

And Ms. Hidaka hates the fact that she is just an excellent person who belittles herself, and my shortcomings are what everyone agrees on."

"What an unpleasant statement."

"Because I am an unpleasant person, and there is nothing wrong with that."

"Furthermore, I don't have everything as Ms. Hidaka said. On the contrary, it is precisely because I have nothing that I am sitting opposite Ms. Hidaka like I am now, constantly chasing after you, which makes me feel

Something dazzling.”

"This is a really stupid idea."

I chuckled and shook my head: "Yes, I think so too. Even if I catch you, those things will not belong to me."

"Is it possible that Totsuka-kun has this mentality towards all girls?"

"Who knows, even I can't figure myself out."

"Well... I'm a little curious about Totsuka-kun's twisted psychology. If Totsuka-kun finds this answer in the future, please be sure to tell me."

I smiled bitterly: "Your character is also very twisted."

"That's my business, I don't have to worry about it, Totsuka-kun. Compared to this, didn't Totsuka-kun say you want to help me? I'll accept your help with good intentions."

"Why the condescending tone?"

"This is an opportunity to improve my favorability. Doesn't Totsuka-kun want to pursue me?"

"Starting from the time you tell me about the favorability level, it means that no matter what I do, I can't improve it. This is the fixed limit."

Miss Hidaka in front of me giggled happily and shouted that it was reasonable.

Unknowingly, the sun sets in the west, and this bustling city is dyed with a fantasy color, which makes people feel a sense of unreal beauty no matter how many times they see it.

Underneath the glamorous appearance, there are ugly people and ugly things, and I am one of them.

Miss Hidaka seems to be particularly fascinated by watching sunsets. Ever since that train journey, she seems to have become fond of watching sunsets. This subtle change somehow makes me calm.

After leaving the cafe, Ms. Hidaka next to her stretched greatly. Her small and exquisite body had unexpectedly curvy curves. I really underestimated her.

Although he is still wearing a mask, his headscarf and sunglasses have been taken off.

"Hey, Totsuka-kun, are you free tonight?" She suddenly looked at me.

"Yes, yes, what?"

"What? Didn't you say that you want to help me? How can I do it without discussing it? I just want to treat you to a drink. We agreed last time."

"Oh, there is indeed such a thing."
Chapter completed!