Chapter 826 820. His fourth girlfriend, probably.

Haruki Murakami said that falling in love with someone is a rare good thing. If the love is sincere, no one will be thrown into the maze.

What my love lacks the most is sincerity. I treat Ayin like this, Yousha like that, and I treat everyone like that.

I don’t know when I started to realize that I couldn’t be a sincere man, so I embarked on a road that led to nowhere.

On this road, I met many people, people who have families to return to, people who are homeless, people who have purpose, people who have no purpose, people who try to block the pace of time, who aim to push forward the time.

People who do it.

I also met many girls, and each of them had a unique cuteness. I was attracted by this fatal cuteness, and had the desire to take it as my own, and then give them fatal pain.

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What is the meaning of my birth in this world, what am I pursuing, what do I get from them, and what do they want to draw from me.

I had no choice but to have such a desire to find out what girls think of me and what they really think in their hearts.

After I express my love extremely sincerely, will I be moved or shaken, happy or disgusted?

sincere……?

Well, my love is twisted, dirty, and cheap.

After all, I can say "I like you" to many girls, but I still unilaterally believe that my love is sincere. In this filthy love like a quagmire, the only word "true" is

It is absolutely true and cannot be faked.

But if the word "love" is added with the condition of "loyalty", then there is no doubt that I will not love anyone.

A guy who doesn't love anyone is talking about sincerity here, which is really something that makes people despair of this world.

Even so, I still said it with a clear conscience and said that sentence.

"I like you, can you please date me?"

So, my memory was lost again.

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When I came back to my senses, I was standing on the platform with Miss Hidaka, waiting for the arrival of the tram. It should have been an extremely ordinary scene, but I had a subtle feeling of unreality.

This subtle feeling comes from my right hand. I actually held Miss Hidaka's left hand in my palm. It was soft and small, and I never got tired of it no matter how much I played with it.

I wanted to take a look at her expression, to see what a girl in love looks like, but all that fell into my eyes was the unchanging fog.

"Why...why are you looking at me like that?"

Miss Hidaka suddenly said.

Her voice was coy, with a hint of embarrassment and displeasure. I tried to imagine her expression in my mind, but nothing came out, and I couldn't help but feel sorry for it.

Maybe one day, I will completely forget their looks, which is really a sad thing.

I shook my head and smiled lightly.

"I want to see my girlfriend's cute face, but unfortunately I can't see anything."

Miss Hidaka fell silent, and I could feel her holding my hand a little tighter.

She didn't refute the word "girlfriend", which was a bit unexpected. I thought she would reject me, at least for a while.

But I calmed down and thought about it carefully. Ms. Hidaka is indeed a girl with extraordinary mobility. She chose to believe in me, a man she knew had a history of cheating, and thought that I would change my mind in the future.

Be loyal to her.

I really can't find words to describe my state of mind. While I am happy, I am naturally moved.

In addition, there is a sense of exaltation in telling a lie so perfectly.

Surprisingly, I don't feel any guilt.

Instead, I felt as comfortable as wearing new underwear to welcome the New Year's morning. I couldn't help but be immersed in this incomparable beauty.

"Totsuka-kun, I think...it would be better for you to go to the hospital again."

"I know."

"It doesn't matter if you don't resume work so early. What are you so anxious about?"

"Because I don't want to be a squatter at home."

"No homeboy in the world would pester girls in cafes every day."

"Indeed."

I thought for a while and asked: "Miss Rigao, can I ask you something?"

"What?"

"Is it really okay to date someone like me?"

"…Hmm."

She seemed a little hesitant, and I was a little worried that I had said something unnecessary. If she regretted it, I would be the biggest fool in the world.

"Totsuka-kun said that... and I'm not a hard-hearted girl. Besides, didn't I promise you back then that I would give you a chance?"

"That's it."

"What do you mean by 'like this'? The reaction is too bland. Can you imagine how much pressure I have to bear to agree with you?"

Her voice was filled with dissatisfaction.

"Yes, I'm sorry..."

"What's the point of apologizing?"

"Um...then, thank you?"

"…………"

Her hand was thrown away.

When the tram arrived at the station, Miss Hidaka walked straight into the carriage, and I quickly followed.

The carriage was relatively empty. After Ms. Hidaka sat down, I sat down directly next to her. She didn't react at all and let my arm rest against her shoulder.

The tram was swaying, and I enjoyed this rare calm.

As we did every day, we got off at the station near her home and escorted her back to her apartment.

The difference is that we would always talk about all kinds of things at that time, but after she accepted my confession, this road that we had walked many times suddenly became uncomfortably quiet.

Suddenly, Miss Rigao suddenly stopped. After being slightly stunned, I turned around to look at her.

"Totsuka-kun, why didn't you talk to me at all along the way?"

"Forehead……"

"Is it possible that Totsuka-kun is really sorry?"

I didn't know how to answer. I knew very well what kind of pressure she was under before agreeing to date me. It was difficult for me to ignore this lightly.

"Totsuka-kun, I am looking at you with a very serious and dissatisfied expression right now. Please try to imagine this in your mind."

"Well..."

It was the first time that a girl spoke to me in this tone. While it was novel, I also had some subtle and inexplicable feelings.

"What I want to say is that I didn't agree to you because Totsuka-kun showed his love for me, his passionate pursuit, or his inexplicable illness.

I hope Totsuka-kun understands this."

"yes."

I replied subconsciously, like a naughty high school student being scolded by a teacher.

"I don't like Totsuka-kun saying sorry, and of course I don't like hearing your thank you. If there is a reason, that's another matter. But without knowing it, whether it's sorry or thank you, it will give people a perfunctory feeling. I hate it."

"Yes, right...I understand."

She is indeed a very demanding and meticulous girl.

"Then, I will ask Totsuka-kun a question here, and I hope Totsuka-kun will answer me seriously."

"yes."

"Totsuka-kun, why do you think I agreed to date you?"
Chapter completed!