As a person involved in the incident, I was still immersed in an atmosphere of illusion, and it was difficult to believe what happened to me.

If I understand correctly, both Saori and Yusha seem to be willing to be by my side and acknowledge each other's existence.

Even though I couldn't give them the promise of marriage, they were still willing to do so. This really surprised me, and I was filled with indescribable feelings in my chest.

For a man like me to do this, I will never be able to repay their kindness in my entire life. I can only try my best to give them what I have in my limited life.

To be honest, I know very well that this is not an easy decision to make, and I also know that whether we can maintain such a relationship depends entirely on my thoughts.

If three years later, five years later, ten years later.

At that time, I suddenly got tired of the life I was living at that time, and suddenly registered my marriage with a woman other than them. I abandoned them like I threw away the worn-out teddy bear that had been with me throughout my childhood.

No one can deny that this is not possible.

Yusha may not have thought about this kind of thing, but Saori could not ignore the possibility of this happening. She still made a decision based on understanding the risks.

The only thing I can do is to make her in the future feel that her choice today was not wrong.

To this end, I still have a long way to go.

"Hey, Saori."

I gently pushed her shoulders away and looked into her eyes seriously.

"I, as expected, still want to try again."

Even if the subject is not spoken, I think Saori will be able to understand it, understand what I want to say, and agree with it.

"Kazuto just needs to do something that he won't regret."

She stretched out her hand and gently touched my cheek. Her slender fingers were slightly cold, and I couldn't help but hold it in my hand, kneading it in every possible way as if I couldn't let go.

"If I don't do anything, I will definitely regret it."

"……Um."

"I'm sorry that I couldn't love you with all my heart."

"OK……"

"I'm sorry, I'm such a troublesome person."

"I know, I don't blame you."

"I'm sorry that I couldn't let you become the real Saori Mogami."

"I'm... relieved, so Kazuto just needs to continue being Kazuto."

I closed my eyes, held her tightly in my arms, and whispered her name over and over again.

"Saori, Saori, Saori..."

"...Well, I'm here, Kazuto."

"Already, I won't leave again."

I am still uneasy in my heart, worried that one day she will suddenly reject me like she did back then, so I keep looking for confirmation like an ignorant child.

"I'm not going anywhere. I have nowhere to go except by Kazuto's side."

There is no word that can reassure me more than this. All my strength suddenly relaxed, and I gently released her from my arms with a bit of reluctance.

She looked at me quietly, and there seemed to be something hidden in her eyes that were as calm as water. Her eyes were getting closer and closer to me, and her face was getting closer and closer.

Of course, the lips are getting closer and closer.

The moment our lips touched each other, it was as if there was a subtle electric current surging in my blood. It was just a moment, but it seemed like half a century.

Their eyes met, no one blinked, they slowly and gently bit each other's lips in turn, as if they were playing a wonderful game.

For the first time, I understood that kissing was such an exciting act. Perhaps it was my past behavior that made me feel numb to these things. I seemed to have found the love that I should have, but I lost it in a certain process.

something.

I think, at this moment, I should be a healthy person.

My heart is beating, so real.

…

…

In the evening, Yusha brought the ingredients she bought and rang the doorbell of Saori's house, and the three of them met together after a long absence.

Yousha carried a shopping bag and walked up to me with a cheerful smile. She looked at Saori behind her and then at me.

After a short moment of silence, he suddenly asked:

"Did it?"

"No."

"I didn't do it!"

Saori and I denied it at the same time.

Yousha's eyes swayed back and forth between me and Saori, but he didn't say anything, as if he believed us.

To be honest, if a man like me, who used to have sex with female voice actors every day, suddenly became abstinent, I wouldn't feel anything at first, but as time goes by, I will definitely start to realize that, especially when I'm with a female voice actor.

After they kissed, no matter how repelled they were in their hearts, their bodies reacted honestly.

I still feel that that kind of thing should not be regarded as the whole of love, but I also admit that in love, that kind of thing is an indispensable part. But at least now, I haven't gained forgiveness from all of them, so I can't do that.

I can’t say what the reason is, and I don’t think that doing so will alleviate my inner guilt. I just think that this is a very important step, at least for me, it is a measure to maintain who I am.

Probably, I am still afraid deep down in my heart, fearing that once I open the sexual valve, I will turn back into the emotionless Mogami Kazuto I was before.

However, now I am no longer alone. Yousha and Saori are by my side. They have seen my ugliness and embarrassment, but they are still there.

As long as they are by my side to support me, I will no longer become a machine without emotions, and I will no longer be robbed of my emotions.

Next, every choice I make is my heartfelt expectation.

"Yousha, what did you buy?"

"Well...potatoes, eggs, beef, tomatoes, and curry cubes."

"Then let's make potato stew tonight. Let me show you the deliciousness of Xiaoxiliu's special potato stew."

"That's not necessary, I want to eat Kazuto-san's cooking."

"Gu...!"

The two girls over there were having a heated argument over dinner, but they both had smiles on their faces. I haven't seen this scene for a long time.

I have become accustomed to seeing faces with crying faces and tears instead of smiling faces. I know this is not a good thing, and I want them to live a life full of smiles no matter what from now on.

I want to protect their smiles, and in order to stop making them cry, I strive to be a person who makes them smile from the bottom of their hearts.

I want to be a man who makes them not regret their decision today.

"Um...Kazuto?"

"Kazuto-san?"

Their eyes flashed with surprise, and they all looked at me with surprise on their faces.

When I came back to my senses, I suddenly held them both in my arms. Such a scene would be very unbelievable to outsiders.

"There is sand, Saori."

"I like you, and from now on...please stay with me."

I hugged their waists tightly, and while they complained that I hugged them so hard that they couldn't breathe, they suddenly laughed softly, which was particularly touching and beautiful.
Chapter completed!