Chapter 104: Fear of gain and loss

"She, does she know that I'm with you?" Considering my relationship with Han Xue, Han Rouyu hid in my arms and was shy. Her eyes were blurred and her tone was flustered.

When I looked at each other, I heard Han Rouyu's soft voice and orchid fragrance in my mouth, and even saw a piece of sweat flowing into her chest. You can imagine a drop of snow water falling on the snowy mountain, which was so crystal clear and transparent. I was slightly distracted, and I looked at Han Rouyu gently and directly pressed the hands-free button on the phone.

"Hey, Junyu, have you found your sister in Hong Kong?" Han Xue returned home. Although she felt tired, she still lay on the sofa and made a lazily call.

"Xue'er, it's 11:45 pm now, are you home?" I deliberately answered the question and changed the topic.

"Well. Recently, after get off work, the sponsors invited all the staff of the column team to dinner, and several leaders kept toasting tonight, so it was a little late!"

He pricked up his ears and listened to the two of them. Han Rouyu was lucky and thought I would hide the facts, so he breathed a sigh of relief. However, through this insignificant subtle action, I grasped Han Rouyu's psychological characteristics, prepared for the future, and had already made a decision in my heart. Unfortunately, based on various factors, I could only tell Han Xue the truth in a passive way against Han Rouyu's wishes, and in my words I tried to wake Han Xue up and reminded, "Xue'er, you are a girl, I'm not by your side, be careful when going out for social events, otherwise I would be worried in Hong Kong!"

"It's okay, I was forced tonight and I only barely drank two glasses of wine! Don't worry, I know how much alcohol I have!" A thousand miles away, Han Xue still felt that concern, but when the word "Hong Kong" was mentioned, Han Xue was indeed trapped. She immediately remembered the serious matter and asked again: "By the way, after saying so much, have you found your sister?"

Fortunately, according to the pre-set script, I was secretly happy and found that Han Rouyu suddenly clenched her fist with one hand and covered her mouth with the other to try not to make any sound. I knew what she was worried about, but now is the best time to tell Han Xue the truth. If you miss it, you may regret it. So I hesitated with a hint of helplessness and said, "I found it!"

"How to say, what happened?" As the intimate person beside him, Han Xue immediately noticed the subtle changes in her tone and immediately chased her.

"This..." I pretended not to lie, and hesitated in front of Han Rouyu, looking worried and nervous, saying: "What do you want me to say!"

"Don't let mother-in-law, what do you say?" My hesitation made Han Xue deepen his suspicion. He was worried that something would happen. He naturally said with concern: "Junyu, is something wrong with my sister?"

"Oh, it can be said yes, or not! Xueer, I don't want to lie to you, but I'm really embarrassed." I bit my lip and tried to arouse Han Xue's curiosity. At this time, it seemed that there were only two of us left in the world. In order to make Han Rouyu in her arms feel at ease, I gently stroked her hair and buried her beautiful little head on my shoulders, so that she could find her physical support.

On the other end of the phone, Han Xue was so hard that she couldn't get up and down. She couldn't hold it anymore, so she simply used her unique skill of being coquettish: "Junyu, I beg you, you can tell me!"

I felt the heat from Han Rouyu's nose, and her chest that was accidentally rubbing against my left shoulder, soft and soft. I covered the microphone with my hands, lowered my head, touched Han Rouyu's ears with my mouth, and said softly: "Rouyu, you know that paper can't hold on to fire, and everything I do is for you and the child. If you can trust me, no matter what you say later, don't say anything and promise me, okay?"

Looking at Han Rouyu expectantly, before she could answer, Han Xue's urgent voice kept coming from the microphone: "Hey?...hey! Junyu? Are you still here? Talk!"

Someone questioned that women can give up everything they have and follow a man? The answer is of course yes for Han Rouyu, who has been separated from the family and wandered alone outside. If a man can get a little affection for such a woman, she does not need a lot of material foundation and can create a romantic and warm environment. Moreover, this woman usually stands behind the man, takes a towel to wipe the man's sweat, handes a piece of clothing when the temperature drops, encourages him when the man fails, encourages him when he succeeds, and tolerates him when he makes mistakes. Perhaps Han Rouyu is such a virtuous woman in her bones. After a scheming conversation, I have found a place in her heart. On the other hand, her face has turned red, but her red lips are pouting and she doesn't say anything, just nodding silently to accept the proposal.

The soft moonlight shot into the carriage, and I lowered my head to look at the gentle body snuggling in my arms, feeling very stable. Han Rouyu didn't say anything just now, but her eyes were extremely bright. I looked at this woman with relief. Her face was as flawless as a piece of beautiful jade, and her eyes flashed with light like clear water, as if she was filled with the tenderness of a woman's home. Perhaps there was no worries, I felt at ease, so I let go of the microphone and focused on persuading Han Xue, saying, "Xue'er, I'm listening!"

There was no sound on the other end of the phone, and Han Xue was nervous and couldn't help but feel excited: "Junyu, where did you go just now? Tell me if you have anything!"

"Then I said, you'd better be a little mentally prepared..." I first expressed my affection for Han Xue, and then explained all the details before arriving in Hong Kong to see Han Rouyu. In this way, because I intentionally mixed my personal feelings, these words were said for more than half an hour. Finally, I looked at Han Rouyu with a deep meaning and continued to say bitterly: "Xue'er, although no one wants to see this happening, the facts are facts. No matter who is right or wrong, these are no longer important. At this time, we need to reduce the burden on our minds, abandon the useless things that bother us, and properly handle the whole thing. Xue'er, what do you think?"

"Why is this happening?" The news made my head buzzing. It hit Han Xue's fragile heart like a bolt from the blue. The man who made her sister pregnant turned out to be her boyfriend she had always loved deeply! For a moment, Han Xue was too surprised and unable to accept reality. She was instantly occupied by the emotion of "sadness". Tears were like a flood like a dam that broke out, and she was choked and unable to speak.

Time passed by minute by minute, and the car was dead in the car. Apart from the heartbreaking crying sound on the other end of the phone, it was so quiet that it was scary. Han Rouyu was worried that her sister would not accept the reality, and her body trembled slightly.

Han Xue's continuous crying made me feel nervous. I found Han Rouyu's uneasy behavior. In order to relieve myself, I pressed the microphone and gently stroked Han Rouyu's smooth cheeks. I comforted me: "Rouyu, imagine watching the sun rise and set every day, and unexpected wonderful things happen every moment. Maybe this way you will not be pessimistic, despair, and have the courage to face it again, and there will be hope of survival in a desperate situation. Don't worry, no matter what happens, I will bear everything for you!"

In this situation, I still took into account her feelings, so while I was enjoying it, Han Rouyu tried her best to control her emotions and refused to make a sound, but the tears of excitement rustled down her cheeks like broken pearls. Finally, she plunged into my arms, sobbed silently, and hugged my waist tightly with both hands, as if she was afraid that I would leave.

"Xue'er, stop crying, my heart hurts so much! Do you remember? We vowed to be together for the rest of our lives and face everything bravely together. Did you change your mind when testing love?" Han Xue's crying was so miserable, the sorrow of crying, and the serene crying made me sad, moved me, and made me heartache. Holding Han Rouyu's convex and perfect figure, I can only impress Han Xue with my former vows and accords.

Faced with the realistic problems in front of her, Han Xue's eyes were blank and empty, both physically and mentally tired, and her body and mind were dispersed. She didn't know what she was going to do or what she could do. She just felt sorry for Han Rouyu to continue being with me, so she choked up sadly: "Junyu, can we still be together?"

"Yes, of course, yes! As long as we dare to try, you will find that all worries can disappear, it's no big deal!" As he said that, in order to make me anxious, Han Xue, I suddenly said excitedly: "Xueer, I can't explain clearly on the phone. Your sister and I will take a plane back immediately. Don't be sad, look at everything with an optimistic attitude, let's find a way to find some things together."

"No, no!" Since the moment I learned that Han Rouyu and I were in love, China's conservative social concepts have slowly changed Han Xue's psychological state from an innocent victim to a third party who "hate" her. So when she was at a loss, she was afraid to face her relatives and her former "lover", so she sobbed: "I want to be alone. Can you come back in two days? "

As the saying goes, hasteness is not enough. It makes Han Xue too tight, but the effect is not good. What's more, she has to accept this kind of thing and has no time to filter it. It is obviously not appropriate to let Han Xue make a decision. So after a moment of silence, I finally agreed: "Then, that's OK!"

Perhaps everyone needs time to think clearly, time to see their hearts and think about their decisions clearly. Just like that, after the call, I quietly looked at Han Rouyu, without any slight slight roar on my face.

"Let's go back!" I don't know what will happen in the future, but Han Rouyu has an inexplicable fear and confusion about the future. She left my warm embrace and said something without any emotion.

The mood was depressed, and the dreamy night view of Hong Kong could not attract attention at all, so it was meaningless to stay on the top of the mountain. On the way back to the hotel, the journey was quiet and speechless.

"Get a good rest, everything will be fine tomorrow!" Even though I had close contact with Han Rouyu, in order to give her time to digest every bit of the day, I gave up the impulse of a lonely man and a widowed woman living in the same room, and just stood at the door and told me softly.

"Yeah!" Although he didn't say much, Han Rouyu glanced at me deeply, then gently closed the door.

Watching Han Rouyu leave, I opened a room next door, let out a painful sigh, and fell on the bed with my head in my arms.

Perhaps the young and tender love is mixed with too many accidents, and I have spent a lot of effort to grasp the love. I couldn't fall asleep while lying on the bed. As soon as I close my eyes, Han Xue's miserable crying sounds sounded in my ears, and even the shocked, lost, sad and disappointed faces of sisters Han Xue and Han Rouyu even appeared in front of me!

So troubled by the same thing, two women and one man sleeping in three beds toss and turns, and it was destined to be a sleepless night tonight...

The night was surprisingly quiet, except for the exhaust sound of the central air conditioner, my heartbeat was left.

On a quiet night, I was quietly lying in this room filled with sadness. I slept and woke up in a daze, woke and fell asleep, and finally I just remembered clearly that I had a dream.

In my dream, I came to a strange city. The city was close to the sea and there were countless bridges. The sky was gray. I carefully climbed up to the crumbling roof and looked at the buildings in the distance.

At this moment, I didn't know where I was, and I felt confused...

Then, many different scenes began to be interspersed in the dream, such as playing a movie without a name, skipping one by one, and not knowing where there will be a freeze.

Immediately afterwards, I walked on a strange road and accidentally met my first love girlfriend - Han Xue. But when we looked at each other, Han Xue had no surprise on her face, and she seemed to have never met her. She passed by me. At this moment, I wanted to hold Han Xue, but could only watch Han Xue leave. I seemed to have an illusion that they would never meet again after seeing this.

Finally, I walked at the end of the road with a loss of spirit, and I met the mature and beautiful Han Rouyu again. We walked face to face, but there were other men beside her. Pay attention to the corners of her slightly raised mouth. Maybe she is happy now.

In this way, Han Rouyu and I went against each other again, without any words or expressions, only my eternal pain.

I woke up from the dream, it was early morning, and the tears in the corners of my eyes wet the pillowcase. I couldn't tell why there was such a strange dream. I was crying in the dream, which was sad, but now I feel relieved because Han Xue and Han Rouyu have not left me. So the memory of the pain in the dream turned into smoke and clouds. I tried to understand my state of mind through the dream, but the result was getting more and more confused!

I was still scared to use cold water to clear my brain and felt a strong desire to watch Han Rouyu quietly, for fear that she would slip away by accidentally.
Chapter completed!