"I thought I just wanted to escape from the palace, escape from that place, escape from all the things that I couldn't cope with. In that way, Feng wouldn't be emotionally involved in the slightest. I already knew that his desire for power would not let him down.

I opened my heart to him. Although everything he did and said began to shake my heart, this was not the condition for me to change my mind. Until you took me away from Yunnuo, I only felt at ease.

I think I will go on with you, but..."

Sang Leran's eyes were filled with tears and accusations. She had asked this question countless times in her heart, why did she give up? Why did she let go of her hand in the first place? If she didn't want to, then she should let Yunnuo take her away.

That way she won't have any reluctance and can go on well in that world alone.

Hua Zixiao was startled. The tears in the woman's eyes and the accusing gaze were asking him. Her heart seemed to be torn into pieces in an instant. It was not only the question in her heart, but also the momentary unbearability in his heart.

The result now was just because the moment he saw Feng and heard Feng say those words, he suddenly remembered that he had forgotten his original persistence. His heart to protect Feng was shaken because of this woman, and he changed his desire.

My own life, I want to live in the sunshine and see her happy smiling face

Sang Leran looked away. Asking for the reason that she already knew was just a sharp stab in the other person's heart. But she couldn't help it, and wanted to shirk away the betrayal of her heart that persisted in wavering.

It is clear that her feelings for Feng Dong are so real that she cannot deny her feelings for Tian Yufeng. Even if they continue to be vague, when she returns to this world, she will think of him and her kindness from time to time.

"When Tian Yufeng took me away from there and lived in that small courtyard, I felt calm and knew in my heart that Tian Yufeng would not give up his insistence on rights. He was willing to stay there and would leave one day sooner or later. But my heart was also

Made of meat, he is so good, I feel it deeply every day, although I began to find that he has not broken off the connection with the imperial city, and is still manipulating and playing with power in the same place, but I think there will be a result sooner or later

It wasn't until... until that night when you arrived, that I discovered why you left in the first place... Feng was plotting from beginning to end, and you were also plotting... But you never hurt me from beginning to end...

That night...you should feel bad for what Feng said...you should feel bad for me compromising so easily...I agreed to Feng's wedding...but I never thought you would do that...then

The blood on my chest makes me feel that I have always been a selfish person. I have never thought about your feelings. I have never thought about it...all I see are phoenixes...like me...what else is worth paying for?

"...I'm selfish...I care most about myself..." Every time she thought of the dagger stuck in his chest, she would start to blame herself. If she could be braver about her feelings and not shirk the blame like this, she always thought that time would prove it all.

Keep waiting like this, maybe there will be results naturally. I don’t know what time will prove, but all this only made her see her own selfishness.

She will naturally rely on whoever is closer to her and makes her feel more reliable. Even when she was with Feng, she couldn't deny that she always felt safe in her heart because there was him behind her.

Hua Zixiao looked at the crying woman in front of her. She was blaming herself. She took the responsibility for everything that happened on herself and gently raised her hand to wipe the tears on her cheeks bit by bit.

"It's not that Leran is selfish. Leran is not at fault. If there is any fault, it's me. I was too conceited from the beginning, thinking that everything was in my hands. As long as Leran wants to leave, I can take you away. Never

I thought that when I faced Feng's hurt eyes, I could no longer say anything. When I left with my mother, my mother decided to protect the one who left and left alone. It is my responsibility to protect Feng. I can't refuse that.

Feng...but, I won't do it again, this time I will hold Leran's hand tightly..."

Hua Zixiao held Sang Leran's hand tightly and smiled warmly.

Sang Leran looked at Hua Zi smiling like this and felt that she was not worthy of being treated like this by the man in front of her. She reached out and pushed the man's hand away.

"no I do not……"

Hua Zixiao looked at the woman's pulled out hand, the smile on his face remained: "No matter what you think, no matter what Feng thinks after going back, I have said that this time I will not let go again. When the line between life and death is on the line, I have already made up my mind.

Don't let go unless Le Ran... doesn't want to see me anymore."

The man's serious expression made Sang Leran couldn't help but flash the bright red image of his chest in her mind.

"I...even if I don't want to admit it in my heart, the person I love is not you...it's Tian Yufeng..."

She didn't want to tell him, but she had no choice at this moment. At least she shouldn't continue to drag him down like this. No matter what it was, she should express her inner feelings. She also knew clearly what she really cared about in her heart.

Who is the person?

For this person, she only wants to ask for, to rely on in her heart, and to occupy that sense of security. People can be selfish, but when they are so selfish that the overwhelming sense of shame in their hearts will make her feel ashamed in front of him.

Hua Zixiao's hand froze, the woman was still crying, but there was a hint of rejection in her eyes, so firm

But he also knew that he couldn't give up. He thought he could give up again and again, but in fact he couldn't change the spread of pain. He was nostalgic in his heart, and the reluctance to let go would swallow him up.

"I gave up and wanted to see you live happily together, but in the end it turned out to be like this Leran, don't you understand? No matter how you choose, I will hold your hand."

The decisive tone leaves no room for negotiation.

Sang Leran looked at the man blankly. The warm and humble smile that reassured her disappeared, leaving only determination.

Don't know how to respond

If Tian Yufeng hadn't appeared again and hadn't stayed in the courtyard, maybe everything would have been different today.

Sometimes love is unreasonable. Her heart may have made a choice long ago. Hua Zi smiles so well that she can only hide her nostalgia for him in her heart and bury it.

"I'm sorry, I can't accept it. I already have Tian Yufeng in my heart."

In modern society, love is mixed with family and trivial matters, and you need to worry about not getting along with each other's family. However, in Hua Zixiao's eyes, the only thing that needs to be maintained is how to dispel the darkness in people's hearts. Without money, there is no temptation.

The temptation of power is just to stick to this relationship, and she can't afford this relationship

It turns out that a person's too perfect relationship can also make people embarrassed, but none of this can change the outcome after all.

Hua Zixiao looked at the woman blankly and let go of her hand.

"Is it because of the child?" What he can hold in his heart cannot be changed, and the only thing he can do now is to stand behind him? Hope was ignited once, twice, and finally turned into destruction

Sang Leran looked at Hua Zi in disbelief with her eyes wide open, as if the words he just said made her hallucinate.

"What are you talking about?"

Only then did Hua Zixiao realize that he had said something he shouldn't have said.

"Leran, you still don't know?"

Smiling bitterly, he couldn't predict the result. After all, he was one step slower than Feng. Maybe it was not just one step, but many, many. Even though he was the only one in this world, Feng was already occupying her heart. Tao Yiyan said

Wrong, maybe Le Ran brought him back just because of guilt and self-blame. Love has nothing to do with herself. It can be family affection or friendship, but it is not the kind of feeling she has for Feng.

Sang Leran's face was still filled with shock. She never thought it would be like this. She gently covered her belly. Was there a life growing in it? There was a very magical feeling at this moment.

Tell her that she should draw clear boundaries with the people in front of her

"Now I know, I want to go back, back to Feng."

Sang Leran had a little more expectation in her heart. This feeling was magical. She wanted to explain it clearly to that person and share her feelings at this moment.

Hua Zixiao felt a dull pain in her heart. After all, she couldn't do anything. The reason he asked was just to give up completely. He deeply felt the joy and panic in her heart.

"Since you want to leave, let's ask Mr. Tao to see if there is any way."

Hua Zixiao's face returned to its original warmth and modesty, that relaxing and gentle smile

Sang Leran looked at such a smile and seemed to be able to feel the pain under the smile. However, this was only temporary. Time would be the best medicine. He would get better after the pain. This world is not made up of many people who feel sad after being severely hurt.

Will they all live well? She believes that there will eventually be a better woman waiting for him. She just wants to return to that world as soon as possible so that they can separate early and not see each other as hurt in each other's eyes.

"Um"

Hua Zi smiled and nodded. The answer he got this morning was clear, but it was also painful, but it could not change his determination to continue to protect her.

All kinds of women might be better than her, but in his eyes, she was just the only one

The two walked into the living room. Tao Yiyan had already sat on the sofa as if he wanted to know that they were coming, while Sang Zichen sat aside.

"Looking at you guys, it seems like you've already made your decision?"

"Yes, you have a way, right? Let us go back."

Sang Leran looked sure

Tao Yiyan looked at Sang Leran, and then at Hua Zixiao who was smiling and hiding it very well.

"Sang Leran, I really hope you don't regret the decision you made. You don't want such a good man, but you have to choose another one." After saying this, he looked at Hua Zi with a deep smile.
Chapter completed!