Tomorrow is the day for the development summit organized by the catering association. Because it was 9 o'clock in the morning, Han Feng and I were afraid that we would not be able to catch up, so we came to Suzhou early this afternoon.

The two did not stay in the hotel designated by the organizer, but instead found a quieter European pastoral decoration hotel. In fact, it was the hotel where Mo Han and I once stayed.

The boss is still the foreigner with a very humorous sense of life. What surprised me was that he actually remembered me. He greeted me in still stiff Chinese: "Sir, welcome to stay in our hotel again..."

I smiled and said, "Do you still remember me?"

"sure.....you are the only two men and women who live in a hotel, but only use one ID card... By the way, are you married to your girlfriend?"

My face suddenly became gloomy. Han Feng took out his ID and said to the hotel owner: "You are running a hotel, not a reporter. Don't ask about other people's private affairs. Hurry up and help us open the room... I want two."

I also took out my ID card from my wallet and handed it to the hotel owner. The boss looked at it and asked, "Sir, do you still want that room? It's empty today."

I asked in surprise: "Do you remember the room we lived in?"

The boss smiled and said, "Are you surprised?... At about this time last year, your girl... was your old friend. She came to stay in our hotel and wanted that room... You know, your old friend is so beautiful, so my impression is very profound!"

I was stunned...

Han Feng asked, "Is she alone?"

The hotel owner nodded and said regretfully: "Yes, she is the only one... she is very haggard and lonely!"

"How long has she lived here?" Han Feng asked.

"For a week...I'm lucky, she gave me a chance to treat her to a dinner."

I looked up at the hotel owner.

He shook his head and explained: "Sir, don't get me wrong... Don't get me wrong, it's just a dinner for friends."

"What did you talk to her?" I finally asked.

"I tried to chat with her and get to know her, but she didn't say anything... She was a very cold beauty... but when the dinner was about to end, she cried, crying so hard!!"

I imagined that picture, it was already cold, and my dead heart suddenly felt aching like a resurrection, but I couldn't say a word... What happened to Mo Han? Is she a memory of her when she returned to this hotel where we once had a chance?"

I stood as if I had lost my soul. Han Feng sighed and said to the hotel owner: "You should still drive the room back then, mine is next door."

.........

When I opened the door, I held the card, but I couldn't remember to wipe it in the card slot. The room was dark, but I still remembered that night in a vague way.

Han Feng pulled out the room card from my hand and wiped it into the card slot, so the light turned on... But I couldn't look directly at it.

I took a step, stopped......I was filled with all kinds of emotions and lost the ability to think.

Han Feng sat on the sofa, lit a cigarette, looked around the room, and asked for a long time: "Is this the room you lived with Mo Han?"

I didn't answer, but just raised my index finger and middle finger to Han Feng......

Han Feng looked at me incredibly: "Are you going to smoke?"

"Give me a cigarette."

Han Feng took out a cigarette from the cigarette box and handed it to me. I took it from his hand and ignited it... When the familiar smell of smoke filled my mouth again, I was actually choked! I coughed violently uncontrollably.

Han Feng shook his head and said, "The smoke does not choke, it is the heart that chokes!"

After a moment of silence, he said again: "Zhang Yixi, I have always been very confused. Could Mo Han be another state of An Qi when she was heartbroken?"

“Breaking the truth…”

"Don't be excited, I'm just talking casually. That Mo Han, I just heard the prince and Brother Luo talk about it. I really haven't seen her..."

I was silent. Whether it was Mo Han or Anqi, it was a pain that I didn’t want to touch, but it was even more a pain that I couldn’t avoid!

I finally got used to the smell of tobacco again, sitting on the bed smoking "bang, slap", so I seemed to go back to the days when I left because of Mo Han. Even though I had experienced so much after so long, I still suffocated and felt distressed when I remembered Mo Han crying lonely in this room where we lived with pain. What did she experience? Do you regret it and once left me without hesitation?

Han Feng lit another cigarette until he smoked half of it, and then said: "You and Qingyi have been married for more than a year. In theory, I shouldn't mention this matter, but... Really, sometimes, Huayi and I will chat in private, and I think you and Qingyi are really not like couples... Looking around the world, there is no such thing as respectful couples... You said that the two of you live together, especially in such a high-pressure modern society... But, it's really incredible that you are peaceful... But seeing what you are today, I feel like I have an answer!"

I was speechless, trance, lost...

"You have always lived a life with the attitude of being at peace since you are here, and Qingyi understands the nature of your marriage too much... So she won't argue with you, but Zhang Yixi, ask yourself, have you ever had love in the past year and a half?" Han Feng looked at me and asked.

Han Feng's words were like waves, as if they were going to subvert my stubborn persistence over the years...

Han Feng seemed to have found a point to vent, and he said: "In the past year, everyone around us has seen your changes. Since Zuo Lan's death, you are really different. To be precise, you have lost your soul... Over the years, Pipi has been by your side and Chen Qingyi's gentle and considerate company, but have you ever laughed from the bottom of your heart?...A person has lost his most basic joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness. Is he still alive?..."

"Don't say it." I was angry. I didn't allow others to question my current life... For the quiet life I have now, I sacrificed my dignity, promises, and love. I cannot accept that all this was overturned by Han Feng's words.

"OK, it's my slut... I shouldn't say that... Indeed, we shouldn't forget that everything has been settled. It's completely meaningless to pursue whether it was wrong or right at the beginning." Han Feng waved his hand and said to me.

.........

After Han Feng left, I sat by the bed wither and used all my strength to forget the words Mo Han had been here and the words Han Feng had just been able to subvert my life.

I turned off the light and abandoned myself in the darkness... I told myself over and over again that I am very satisfied with my current life and should cherish everything I have... Finally, my heart returned to peace, and then became as deep as water!

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