I have a brocade bag. I embroider an orchid in a light blue color with gold thread, which is elegant and ordinary.

I once asked my aunt what was inside. It was soft and slippery when pinched. My aunt said it was hair and must have been packed away.

It's time to keep it, this bag is my lucky charm.

I am the most favored by my father. I can get whatever I want. No one dares to disrespect me in front of my father.

Yes, in front of the Emperor Father.

My name is Huangfu Mingyue, and I am the eldest princess of the imperial dynasty. I have an extraordinary status. But privately, everyone despises me because I have a crazy mother, Liu Zijin, who was once the queen.

When Grandma Huang was alive, she loved me deeply. Every time I saw her, she would hug me on her knees, cry and sigh.

Grandma Huang, why is Mom so crazy? Can I see her?

This palace is too cold...your mother's heart is cold...

Cold? Isn't there a charcoal fire? My father is so kind to Mingyue, so Mingyue goes to ask for help from my father.

Mingyue, don't do it! Do you think your father really loves you... Sigh... you still don't understand... Your father is in great pain. Someone is piercing his heart like a thorn, and it hurts him so much.

panic.

What thorn? Mingyue doesn’t understand?

She...she...Mingyue, remember Grandma Huang's words, be sure to speak less! Don't ask any questions!

When I grew up, I began to find that this huge palace always tacitly concealed some things, such as Wangshu Palace, Hetang, the former queen... and the Liu family...

I always carry that kit with me. When I was young, my father would sometimes hug me and touch the kit thoughtfully. I would quietly lean in his arms and dare not speak. I always felt a little bit on my head.

The coolness is like raindrops falling on the temples.

Later, I took a look at myself in the mirror and asked Aunt Ya, Auntie, do I look like my mother? Maybe, who do I look like?

Aunt Ya smiled and said that the princess was so beautiful and beautiful that she looked like an emperor.

Am I beautiful? But why does he never look at me?

The first time I saw that man was ten years old. He was tall, thin, with a shiny red jade crown. He had a faint smile on his lips and followed behind the head of the Xie family. His back was straight and his face was as bright as the moon... I was sitting

He accepted their worship at the highest place. From a distance, I could not clearly see his eyes. I only felt that he had a warm light and a gentle breeze...

Every year, I could see him on the first day of junior high school, from when I was ten to eighteen.

The year my father passed away, I was wearing plain clothes and cried so hard that my heart broke and I screamed at the top of my lungs. With the persuasion and help of the ministers, I stood up. I walked step by step, my mind was confused. Over the years, they called me crazy.

Mother, you said that I was only favored by my father because I was protected by the dead. What my father likes is not Huangfu Mingyue’s daughter...

In order to survive in this cold harem, I was cautious. In order to make myself live a better life, I studied music, chess, calligraphy and painting seriously, and tolerated everything.

When I walked past him, he was wearing a white robe. He was obviously a head and a half taller than me, but he bowed his head to me.

You... I opened my mouth, but it was hard to make a sound. My throat was hoarse from crying. I was a little dizzy and almost fainted when I stumbled. I thought he would be moved, but I saw that he just looked at me out of politeness, and then turned around.

He turned his head and followed the ministers in worship.

I smiled miserably, it turned out that I was nothing, but fortunately, I still had the title of eldest princess.

I spent countless nights thinking about why I noticed him, whether it was because of the slight disdain on his respectful lips or his unruly and resolute handsomeness...

One year during the palace celebration, his clothes were stained with firecracker debris, and his face was a little haggard due to travel, but he was having a lively conversation with a prince next to him. After listening carefully, it turned out that they were talking about interesting things about the New Year's Eve. I quietly

Hiding behind the curtain and listening, I am smiling and full of longing.

Maybe, I want to leave here too much and live another life...

In fact, I should have hired a consort a long time ago, but my father has always been dependent on me, so the marriage has been postponed.

Because I told my father that I was just waiting for someone, and when he came, I would get married.

At that time, my father-in-law hurriedly said, "The princess has a distinguished status. How can I, the eldest princess of the dynasty, marry me?"

The father sighed softly, his face was pale, and he was talking to himself like he was dreaming, "Wait, so what if you wait? What if you can't wait? What if you can't wait?" Future generations will grieve and ignore it, which will also make future generations mourn again...

..

The imperial doctor said that the emperor was suffering from depression and overthinking.

On the day when I turn eighteen, I know I can't wait any longer. I want to tell the emperor, please tolerate me once. I want to recruit Xie Yaoying as my consort, and my husband...

On that day, I got dressed up and specially sent an invitation to the Xie family.

The banquet was colorful, and the handsome young men from all over the country were so charming and suave, but he didn't come.

At Xie's house, a handsome young man and a girl came to the Xie family. I couldn't help being disappointed. I drank cup after cup with a smile.

If you are drunk, you can give me a reason to cry. No, no, I can't cry, don't cry. It would be terrible if he comes when I cry.

I returned to the palace in a daze and was about to fall asleep when I heard someone making a noise in the courtyard. I asked the palace maid to come and see. Then I realized that the ninth son of the Xie family had gone the wrong way and had a quarrel with his own girl.

You pig, you’re going the wrong way!

You are a pig! At least I remember to use my brain to memorize it. You are a young master who can’t even remember the route!

Yan Liuli! What a fool! How dare you talk back.

Cow gallbladder? People say eating leopard gallbladder...

Haha, if you, Yan Liuli, had eaten the guts of a leopard, you should have pulled out the emperor’s beard!

I couldn't help laughing, walked to the door of the palace and said, The emperor is young and has no beard.

The expressions of the two of them were very funny at that time. They probably looked at me for a long time harmlessly, and then they put their hearts in their stomachs and stepped forward to talk to me. I was very happy that afternoon, listening to them tell all kinds of interesting things.

, I intentionally or unintentionally inquired about Xie Yaoying, even though I had already become familiar with many things about him through various channels...

When Liuli left, she saw my kit and liked it very much. She said it would be great if there were some incense in it. She said she didn't know why, but she just liked it very much.

I looked at the brocade bag and thought to myself, is this brocade bag a blessing or a misfortune over the years? Inside it are a few strands of green hair worn by Liu Zi, my aunt, the former Concubine Shu.

What was given up and what was carried? I don’t know, after all, those things are in the past.

Seeing the girl staring at me, I suddenly felt that she seemed familiar to me before. I handed her the bag of tips, but she didn't dare to take it.

Xie Yaoyu, on the other hand, took it for her and stuffed it into her hand, saying, This girl is like this, she is always embarrassed to say what she wants, and looks at it helplessly, like a beggar.

When I thought about it later, I really laughed. If this person really had a spirit, it was my aunt who was secretly connecting us to those fates.

In March of that year, the emperor issued an imperial edict to recruit his eldest son, Xie Yaoying, as his consort.

There are many stories about him, including his ruthless and decisive tactics in the shopping mall, his calm mind in dealing with things... The most painful thing for me is his affair with a famous prostitute, which is known to everyone in the entire capital.

On the day of the request, Emperor Huangfu Yubo teased me a few words about this matter. I smiled slightly, but my mouth was bitter, but when I looked at him, his eyes were as hard as stone!

People say that people who are about to get married are anxious and excited, but my heart has always been stabbed by a knife. It's like I knew he would not obey in every possible way, but I reluctantly and stubbornly stuck the knife in my heart.

I couldn't help but push it in little by little, telling myself that it would stop hurting after a long time...

Just like my crazy mother beat me.

After my father's death, I began to restlessly look for opportunities to see my mother. The emperor's brother also turned a blind eye and tolerated me. We all know that the death of our father only took away some secrets that were kept secret, and some taboos were also removed.

No worries.

I knew those stories and saw my mother.

They all said how beautiful my mother used to be. When I looked at her, I couldn't help but sigh that the years and pain were so painful. I was trembling a little and thought, let it go, don't force it...

I’m unwilling to give in... Maybe I can wait and I’ll get it...

My mother would hit me, and sometimes she would whine and bite me like a wounded wolf. It was very painful. I gritted my teeth and I never screamed. In fact, my mother was in more pain than me.

There were times when she was sober, and she would smile at me, with the slightest wrinkles at the corners of her eyes but her temperament was like orchid, elegant and noble.

I said to her, Mom, I have a consort.

It seemed like it took her a long time to react and ask, oh, is it a general or a famous family?

I shook my head and said coquettishly, he is a tacky businessman.

Oh, that's fine. Does he love Mingyue?

Love! The prince-in-law loves Mingyue like a treasure!

That's good, that's good...

My throat tightened and I turned my face away, my eyes red.

I didn’t dare to say it. On my wedding night, he treated me coldly and roughly took away my first night with almost no warmth. I couldn’t cry. I faced the rumors of the world with a graceful smile...

I thought he would be happy to get the business of making armors for the Ministry of War for the Xie family through General Lei, but I didn't expect him to be more cold and reprimanded with a cold face. I don't need to exchange my body for that business. The Xie family and his strength have no need at all.

I pretended to be generous in redeeming my confidante and inviting her into his house, but he ridiculed me for my pretentiousness.

My heart is so cold, Ying, Mingyue really doesn’t know how to love you, is Mingyue wrong?

It turns out that you hate me.

Lei Ben often came to see me, and when he saw that I was getting thinner and thinner, he couldn't bear it and stopped talking.

I laughed. If you really miss our friendship in the past, just keep it in your heart. It would be good for Ming Yue.

Later, when I had Jun'er, he stopped sleeping here, touched me or looked at me again. Am I so abominable?
To be continued...