Chapter 69 A Letter
There are two sad new graves outside the small bamboo forest. In front of the graves are burnt incense candles. There are two newly planted evergreen trees on the left and right of the graves, but there are no tombstones.
This is what Uncle Li meant. The grievances of life and death are gone. This journey is over. There is no need to erect a monument to remember who you are. Descendants who are interested can come and pay homage. If it is a long time later, forget it.
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A tombstone is a cumbersome thing and is not necessary.
"Master may have seen through it and felt that the essence of everything is actually very simple. No matter who you are, you have to face life, old age, illness and death. After thinking about all this, you wish you could keep everything simple." Brother Chengqing handed over some things.
After meeting us, he said this.
Those are some things left by the older generation who ran away, and now Brother Chengqing has taught us.
What came into my hands were four volumes of books compiled by Master, as well as a letter. I stroked those four volumes. In fact, I had seen them before. In Zhulin Xiaozhu, in Beijing, Master always wrote when he was free.
He can write and draw. When asked about it, he also said that he wanted to organize what he has learned in his life.
This is a long-term work that started when I followed Master, or even earlier, so I didn’t pay attention to it. Now it seems that Master had already planned it.
I didn't dare to read the letter, I was always afraid that there would be some unbearable news, but I couldn't help but read it, because it was Master's last letter to me, and I might only be able to remember it with this letter in my whole life.
Master, because Master never took any photos in his life and didn’t even leave a portrait.
Thinking of this, I feel a little sad.
When I opened the envelope, Master's familiar handwriting came into my eyes. I couldn't help but get red eyes. Master once said that laughing when you want to laugh and crying when you want to cry are the true qualities of a man. He likes to hold it in and shout for men to bleed.
For those who don't shed tears, let them go away with their internal injuries. On the contrary, they are not free and easy enough and are pretentious for the sake of face.
But at this time, I hate my tears a little. I really want to settle the pain and become stronger as soon as possible, at least on the surface.
Thinking of this, I took a deep breath, wiped my eyes, calmed myself down, and then started to read the letter.
Chengyi my disciple:
When I read the letter, I am afraid that we have separated as master and disciple. I wish you all the best, that you have come out of the sadness and nostalgia, and face your future life alone with a smile.
I have been thinking about one thing. When I say goodbye to you, should I tell you seriously that I am leaving, or should I just leave as usual.
After thinking about it, I have decided to choose the most ordinary way to leave, just like when you were in the mountains and I just went down to buy some things for daily life.
Forgive me for my choice. Maybe I am not strong enough and don’t want to face the pain of separation. I am afraid that after I say it out, I will be reluctant to leave. After all, you are my biggest concern in this world.
Master left because he wanted to pursue one thing that he has wanted to pursue all his life. That is what Master has made up his mind to do since he was twenty-five years old. It is not just me, but all the brothers and sisters of our generation.
Make up your mind to do something.
Originally, I thought that when I could finally do it, I would be very happy and free. But things are unpredictable after all. I have a master-disciple relationship with you that is hard to let go. But the more this happens, the more I want to do that thing.
I thought that my master also had feelings for us that were difficult to let go of.
I won’t tell you what we are going to do. This is the result of our elder generation’s discussion. Once, I said that everything in the world is reincarnated, just like life. No matter how exciting the journey is, the ending will not be the same.
It's just death, unless one can cultivate one's mind and realize the Tao, and finally escape from reincarnation.
We, the older generation, don’t want you to continue our reincarnation, so we can only stop it like this, tell you nothing, and let you jump out of the reincarnation.
Finally, this is something that I have spent my whole life trying to pursue. It can be said that I have been running around and collecting clues all my life, and now I finally have some certainty.
Don't worry about me, things are just too vague, but it's not dangerous at all.
However, this time we have made up our minds and will not give up until we achieve our goals. Chengyi, I'm afraid I won't come back. We have been together for twenty years and there should be no regrets when we part ways. I hope you can think like this.
Finally, I compiled what I have learned in my life into four volumes. If you have any shortcomings in practice, you can read it frequently. I am not with you, but I hope you can still work hard every day and reach a higher state than me.
In our lineage, I hope that you, the younger generations, can continue to pass it on. If you want to accept disciples in your later years, remember your character and fate. If you are not destined to be an apprentice, go to Longhu Mountain, the Taoist ancestral home, or contact
Department XXX should donate the books so that they can continue to find suitable people and the inheritance will not be cut off.
In addition, I hope that you can continue to complete these four books in your later years, after the years have settled. I believe that by then, your state of mind and your skills should be able to improve to a higher level than mine. I, Jiang Lichun's apprentice, am not bad, right?
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I have lived a free and unrestrained life, and I am about to leave in a blink of an eye. I have no regrets except that you are my concern. There is only one thing. Seeing the decline of my Taoist school year by year, I cannot help but feel regretful. Those who have inherent interests have ruined the name of my Taoist school, but I have no regrets.
I have to admit that this is the main reason why Taoist culture suffered disaster due to inheritance and generation.
Nothing can prosper forever, it will always enter a cycle of ups and downs. Master has already seen through this truth, but it is inevitable to feel heartache.
Chengyi, I hope that during your lifetime, you will be able to act righteously and properly, and if you can change a few people's views on my Taoism, just a few people. After all, the prosperity of Taoism is not yours alone, but a single spark can start a prairie fire. I, Jiang Lizhun
The apprentice must remember his character, remember, remember.
Twenty years have passed by, and the past is still vivid in my mind, as if you were still the naughty and mischievous boy back then. But when you come back to your senses, you find that it is time to separate. If you want to ask me what else to explain, it is true.
There is another sentence, that is
Just remember that you are of my lineage, Lao Li, then forget about me and move on with your life.
Jiang Lichun
Forgot you? Continue living? Master, have you ever forgotten Master? I folded the letter carefully and put it in the pocket of my coat. Thinking like this, I didn't realize that tears were streaming down my face.
Just as Master said, he wanted to end the reincarnation of our generation on a certain issue. Therefore, he really left no clues, including the last letter, and did not explain anything, let alone mention him.
What did you do?
But are there really no clues? I wiped away my tears, closed my eyes and thought about it. I also remembered that one morning more than ten years ago, I picked up a few pieces of paper from under my master’s window. There were only two words written on them - Kunlun.
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Before that morning, it was the first time that Master mentioned to me some of Master's secrets, including the mystery of Master's age. Then Master probably stayed up all night, writing about Kunlun over and over again.
It was definitely an expression of my inner thoughts, but Master didn't know that one morning, when he was sleeping soundly, I picked up such a piece of paper, and then I buried the matter in my heart for so many years without saying anything about it.
This may be an unexplainable fate that prevented me from asking Master and exposing this matter.
Coupled with the sentence in Master's letter, I thought that my Master also had feelings for us that were difficult to let go. There seemed to be a faint clue connecting things. My master, Kunlun!
These days, I have been too sad. In sadness, people don’t want to think about anything. Their instinctive reaction is to get rid of this sadness first. Bystanders may be able to stand and talk without backache, and think about what should be done.
Only those who have experienced it understand how insignificant a person is when the power of sadness sweeps over him. No matter how strong he is afterwards, he will always sink at that time.
The deeper the emotion, the longer it will sink.
If you can avoid it, then you can really cultivate the indestructible heart like a god.
I vaguely clarified some clues, and my mood became a little clearer. I touched the four books left by the master. I think this is the responsibility left to me by the master.
When I arrived at the hall, everyone was already waiting in the hall. Everyone's eyes were red. I believe they had read the things left by their respective masters.
This is our agreement. After reading the letter, we will discuss everything, sort out the clues, and decide what to do in the future.
When I entered the hall, Qinhuai pulled Hui Gen'er towards me, handed me two pages of paper, and said: "You must have read Hui Gen'er's letter. It contains some explanations from Uncle Hui to you.
Chapter completed!