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【Part II】Small daily life(1/2)

After Jiang Yue and Xu Yu were together, they found out "Xu Yu's Observation Diary".

The final broken paper traces are still there, and they are still telling that they have had a difficult relationship.

Jiang Yue discussed with Xu Yu for a long time, but finally decided to use this book, but did not replace it with a new one.

She just posted the pages of the next page again.

I forgot the diary as I wrote it, and later the book seemed to be gradually sealed.

A long time later, when Jiang Yue moved again, she found the book from the bookcase and together with Xu Yu's book.

She had never read Xu Yu's book later. After looking through a few pages, she realized that Xu Yu had been writing it before.

Jiang Yue thought that Xu Yu wrote the record to coax him, but he didn't expect that he was writing it later.

The process of sorting things suddenly stopped, like that afternoon many years ago, she sat on the soft carpet at home and started reading the two diaries.

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"Xu Yu's Observation Diary"

People often ask about Xu Yu’s affairs. I think it’s probably because we both have attracted much attention, so others are always curious.

It seems that in the eyes of others, we are very extraordinary and different, but I always feel that the story between me and Xu Yu is nothing special, not particularly exciting.

At most, it is because of the previous emotional entanglement that has increased some storylines.

I once said that loving Xu Yu is the thing I regret the most, and it is also the thing I regret the least.

Sometimes there will be some regrets in things like love. If Xu Yu and I had not reconciled, it would have been a pity.

No matter whether I still like him or not, I feel sorry for chatting when friends gather. I think I may tell you.

Regrets and flaws are the norm in life.

Xu Yu almost became my regret and flaw. Sometimes I think about many possibilities of life. For example, if we didn’t make up, what would the outcome look like later?

Maybe ten or eight years have passed, and Xu Yu is still in my memory, but he is just a touch of the richness in my story, but it is not necessarily the finishing touch.

It's like the sentence sing in the song, "It's a pity that it's not you, I'll accompany me until the end."

But no matter what, I will definitely thank Xu Yu for appearing in the end. Regardless of whether it is a pity or not, I will definitely have such thoughts in it.

He was the first person I liked so seriously, but I was also stupid at that time. All my views on love were obtained from romance novels.

Look, the story is so perfect.

So I also wanted to be perfect, but I didn’t expect that my life was actually not that story at all. I am me, and the story is a story.

I should obviously be the truest I am, rather than setting a framework for myself to demand myself as a "perfect girlfriend".

The story is dead, but people live.

Song Lianyi asked me before, "I like Xu Yu so much, how can I fall in love with other people in the future?"

I thought about it for a long time.

I said I would always remember Xu Yu, and I wouldn’t hate him like before. What qualifications do I have to hate him?

I think I should be the kind of person who is said by others. He is influenced by novels and some brainwashing articles. He just wants the other person to be nice to him and to make him like a perfect person.

Just like what I have asked for myself, I am also making unreasonable and excessive demands for him. As a novice in love, why do I still set such requirements for him?

We are not mature people, but I think we are mature and sensible, which is probably the most ridiculous thing.

You will feel that you are stupid, only tomorrow's self.

I liked it myself, made a decision, pursued it without authorization, and finally made a request to him without authorization.

Later I realized that I was so selfish in the past? I actually felt that I was not wrong at all, but the only thing that was wrong was that he didn't like me.

I thought about it for a long time later.

I think there are probably all mistakes, and time is also wrong. If I could meet him at a better age, I would probably not have suffered so much.

If Xu Yu hadn't come back to chase me, I might have become really sensible later and knew how to love others. I would really be with other people.

So what I am very grateful for now is Xu Yu's turn around, thanking him for not leaving yet, thanking him for holding my hand.

Otherwise, we will really think of flawed stories, and in the end, because of the lessons of the first relationship, we will become better people and fall in love with other people again.

There was someone who taught me to grow up, but unfortunately we didn't end up together.

This is probably the most regretful and disappointing thing.

So every time someone asks me, would I feel a little uncomfortable because of the separation that happened in the past? After all, the broken mirror is reunited, and the cracked mirror cannot be repaired perfectly.

I said, no.

Because we are not perfect, we are just beautiful on the surface and have long been full of holes in the interior.

Besides, who said that the cracked mirror is not beautiful?

还有人笑我,说我说如果没有许昱我会爱上别人这种话被他听了去肯定会被暴揍.

But not.

Xu Yu is much gentler than everyone imagined.

Xu Yu wrote me a letter, and every year on my birthday, Xu Yu would write to me.

There is a letter that I remember very deeply. At that time, I happened to talk to Song Lianyi about the topic of if I were not with Xu Yu. I also mentioned this to Xu Yu a few days before my birthday, and later he wrote it into the letter.

Put it in the end, just make an assumption.

A hypothetical letter called "If We Are Not Being Together".

He said.

I hope you are happy, I hope you will still have a smile on your face, and you will still be happy no matter what happens.

I hope you are angry, I hope you are angry when you encounter someone who has malicious intentions towards you, and I can't say such things, because humans must vent their anger.

I hope you are sad, I hope you can cry loudly when you are unhappy, and if you don’t want you, you have to hold back and say that you are happy.

I hope you are optimistic and hope you can stand up and fight back when you are in a desperate situation. Instead of being in a state of decline, you will not be able to recover.

I hope you have every emotion of "joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness".

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If I hadn't been with Xu Yu, the world would not have collapsed and life would have continued.

I will feel lost because of a failed relationship, but I will definitely maintain the ability of my lover.

No matter how many times I feel disappointed, I will definitely believe in love.

If he didn't come for a long time, he probably just lost something. If he didn't come in the end, he probably just forgot about me, a naughty guy.

But love must still exist in this world.

***

She also read Xu Yu's book "Jiang Yue Observation Diary". Unexpectedly, Xu Yu actually wrote a sentence carefully at the end of every day.

"I love her very much today, too."

He used to be able to express himself, but now he likes to express himself. He seems to want to fill all the things that were vacant in the past.

In addition, Jiang Yue also saw a somewhat cute but hilarious content.

In fact, Jiang Yue has always been very curious about how Xu Yu suddenly achieved such growth. Even if he felt that something was wrong before, he would not suddenly become like this now.

He looks like a master in love, and can easily guess what she is thinking, know what she wants, and even chooses the gift perfectly without any mistakes.

Until Jiang Yue saw that page and recorded it neatly.

[1. How can a girl be relieved when she falls in love? How can she please her?]

[2. How can I know if a girl is angry? How can I coax her if she is angry?]

【3. What should I do if my girlfriend comes to my aunt?】

[4. What kind of romance and surprise should the anniversary and festival give her?]

【5.What are girls thinking?】

[6. What do girls like the most? How can they bring her an absolute sense of security?]

Jiang Yue laughed out loud, looking at the questions he wrote neatly, turning the page back and you can see the answers and practices that Xu Yu didn't know where to collect.

There are indeed several things that Xu Yu has done. Jiang Yue used to think it was both tacky but useful, but now it seems...

It turns out that Xu Yu is really studying hard how to fall in love. Does a good person even learn in this area so quickly?

Some of them may not be able to bear it, so they have not implemented it. However, Jiang Yue still finds it interesting to watch now.

There is some alternative seriousness and cuteness.

Of course, she was also moved, because she knew that Xu Yu was really taking this relationship very seriously.

I'm very serious about being with her.

They all learned lessons from the love affair they once again and finally met each other again when they became a better selves.
To be continued...
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