This matter does seem to be tricky.

That night, the official blog of "101 Days of Heartbeat" urgently announced that due to the collision of some guests' schedules, the program will not be broadcast this week.

Chen Yan knew that this was because Chen Jinchu could not participate in the recording and broadcast, so the program team simply gave it a bowl of water.

The more time passed, the more doubts and uneasiness she felt became.

For two consecutive days, Chen Jinchu did not answer her phone, but sent a message to relieve her. When she asked again, he did not reveal any details.

On Sunday night, a news came out.

"The famous director Feng Zhixian suspected of committing rape and illegal imprisonment, including multiple charges, signed illegal agreements with many actresses to conduct transactions, coercing others with private videos, and has now been taken away by the police."

This incident was too horrifying and no one could react at once.

What is even more shocking is that after the list of "multiple actresses" was leaked one after another, the front-line actress Wen Qing'er actually took the initiative to post a blog to admit that she had a long-term improper relationship and illegal transactions with Feng Zhixian.

It was at this time that Chen Jinchu rang the doorbell of Chenyan Apartment.

The door opened and met his unclear eyes, as if it was suppressing something, and it seemed to have a fleeting light.

With that glance, for some reason, Chen Yan felt that he had been standing outside the door for a long time.

She quickly welcomed Chen Jinchu in, looked up and down carefully, and said worriedly: "Are you okay?"

He said "hmm" very slowly, "It's okay, it's all solved."

Chen Yan's heart finally calmed down and said with a smile: "It's great, you sit down first, I'll pour you a glass of water."

Chen Jinchu suddenly held her wrist.

His hands were cold, "There is one thing that I want to confess to you."

Before Chen Jinchu went to Beijing to study junior high school, he actually grew up in Hong Kong.

He used to be curious why his mother is a Chinese American, but his father is a native of Hong Kong.

My mother said that she was the father she met when she was visiting friends back in Hong Kong. They fell in love at first sight and settled in Hong Kong.

When he was a child, Chen Jinchu felt that his father Chen Min was a cool and powerful person. He always looked rebellious, with his eyes raised and his lips curled and smiling.

Chen Min often was not at home and asked where he had gone. He just squinted his eyes and said, "Secret."

He is not allowed to enter his room either.

However, Chen Jinchu still sneaked in and found nothing unusual. He just saw a gun, which was a little heavy and had a red mark on it.

He was too young to know what that was, nor did he understand why his father had to isolate himself from his life.

He asked his mother.

He felt that she knew the answer, but she didn't tell him.

Chen Jinchu was eight years old at that time, just in the third grade, and walked home with his classmates every day. One day, they just got off school and wanted to buy some snacks at the roadside stall. Their colleague pointed to the distance and shouted, "Look, is that your father?"

Chen Jinchu was very happy. He hadn't seen his father for almost two months, so he rushed over quickly.

What he saw was not his father, but a piece of paper.

Words such as "black|black" and "wanted criminal" were a little unfamiliar to him. He only remembered that in the photo, his father's face was gray and his mouth was drooping, and he seemed a little unhappy.

But soon he knew what these words mean.

Because one night shortly after, he sneaked into Chen Min's room again.

He shouldn't have entered, otherwise he wouldn't have seen a man covered in blood.

Chen Jinchu didn't know what sinful things Chen Min was doing when he disappeared. He only knew that he was very scared, and at the same time he felt disgusted. His admiration for Chen Min was like a shame like Lingchi, and like a maggot with bones gradually corrode him, tear him apart, and bit him apart.

His dad is not a hero, his dad is a murderer.

Chen Jinchu felt that he would probably hate Chen Min for the rest of his life - if Chen Min had not died because of him.

When I was eleven, the situation was extremely uneasy, and black | evil | forces were rampant.

During the days he was taken as a hostage, he had seen countless bloody reds, almost numb.

Later, Chen Min rescued him. In the last glance, Chen Jinchu saw those people scratching Shen Min a few times.

He should be in pain, but he was smiling, just like back then.

The huge shadow his father gave him was written off with the fact that he gave up his life for himself, and Chen Jinchu couldn't hate it.

Because he could no longer equate his father with a murderer, he was found guilty.

He missed his father dirtyly. This was the deepest secret in his heart.

Warm lights hang above the head, Chen Jinchu lowered his head, his dark pupils were filled with a color of silence and his lips were pale.

"I'm sorry, I probably hide a lot." He said embarrassedly, "I think no one will understand, and no one will not mind. It's not until now that I tell you that it's my selfishness and I want you to stay with me for a longer time."

"I am his son, and I have more or less like him. If I am forced into a hurry, I can't help but use some means." Chen Jinchu murmured, "I have only used the relationship he stayed behind twice in my life. Once, I was banned and desperate when I was nineteen years old, and the other was the day before yesterday."

"I originally wanted to hide it all the time, but I can't continue to lie to you."

"You may hate me or want to escape from this filth. Everything is my own fault. If you, you want to leave me..." He couldn't continue and pursed his lips tightly.

However, there was no response for a long time.

Chen Jinchu didn't dare to look at Chen Yan's expression, but he felt a little scared and trembled. The consequences of coming here today seemed to be beyond his ability to bear.

He took a deep breath and stood up in a hurry, "...I'll leave first."

...

A pair of arms suddenly hugged him from behind.

Chen Jinchu heard her say in a very distressed voice: "What kind of childhood are you?"

Chen Yan couldn't imagine that at the age when she was still playing carefree, he actually lived such a life.

He must have to endure so much darkness at that time, right?

She pressed her face tightly against his back, feeling very sad, as if she could not pour out the bitter water or swallow it, and there was a fog in front of her eyes.

Chen Jinchu did not turn around, but just said in a trembling voice: "Don't leave me, okay?"

At this moment, Chen Yan suddenly realized that this man who is dazzling in everyone's eyes is extremely inferior in his heart.

She felt a sour feeling in her heart: "Do you think I will leave you when I tell me this?"

Chen Jinchu heard the choking in her voice, froze for a moment, turned around and looked at her almost hoarsely.

She cried, but he didn't know how to soothe and was at a loss for a moment.

Chen Yan sniffed, and said with red eyes: "Fool."

Chen Jinchu's eyes were filled with a bright and destructive light.

——No one reacted like her after knowing this.

He still can't forget the expression of the classmate when he was after school - he looked at him in panic, took two steps back, and then ran away.

They all regarded him as a beast.

Your dad is a murderer.

You are not clean either.

You are guilty, too.

They were hysterical, together with the blood and corpses, suppressed into a nightmare of darkness every night.

He felt as if he was standing on the top of a cliff, and a huge void swept over, and the next second he would be crushed to pieces.

But it was suddenly broken by her.

——His little girl tried to tiptoe and kissed his chin clumsyly.

"It's probably hard to endure these years." She said with great loss: "It would be great if I met you earlier. That would be able to share the pain with you."

Chen Jinchu stared at Chen Yan in a daze, then hugged her suddenly, as if he wanted to rub her into his body.

He murmured: "Don't you mind?"

Chen Yan pursed his lips: "Achu, your father and you are two completely independent individuals. I will not be separated from you just because of what he did. On the contrary, you are also a victim..."

"I don't think things in the world are black or white."

"Although your father made a big mistake, he is worthy of you. He has been at the forefront of the storm for so many years, but he has been trying his best to protect you and your mother. Besides, if it weren't for him, you probably wouldn't be standing in front of me now." She trembled her eyelashes slightly: "So, actually... I feel a little grateful."

"What about what I did?" Chen Jinchu opened his mouth again and rolled up with Adam's apple: "Aren't you... afraid of me?"

He didn't say it very clearly, but Chen Yan vaguely guessed the specific content.

She put her warm hand in Shen Jinchu's palm and whispered softly: "I know, you will never go his path. The reason why you are like this is all for me, so why am I afraid?"

If he is the extremely thirsty traveler in the desert, then her words are like a clear sweet spring, flowing with the ultimate comfort to him.

He is so lucky.

The clock turns to eleven o'clock.

Their emotions gradually calmed down.
To be continued...