Xu Hongdou rolled his eyes: "It's my eldest sister's fault. It's not certain that either of us is better."
However, she was still very happy when Zhou Chen praised her for her beauty and good personality.
Zhou Chen looked at Chen Nanxing in the photo and suddenly asked in a low voice: "She is no longer here, is she?"
Xu Hongdou nodded silently: "Well, she passed away shortly after you painted us last year. Pancreatic cancer was in the advanced stage."
When she mentioned this matter again, her face was still full of sadness. Zhou Chen had experienced the death of relatives and friends many times, so he could understand her mood at this time, so he didn't say anything to comfort her, because he knew
, at this moment, silence is more appropriate than comfort.
"Chen Nanxing and I are best friends. We have known each other since college. She is really the one who has been with me all the way. It can even be said that she is the biggest pillar for me to persist in the capital. I said
She is the love of my life, and this is not an exaggeration. Apart from her, I am afraid I will never have such a true love again."
"When Chen Nanxing encountered such a sudden misfortune, our hearts trembled. It was like falling into a nightmare, like missing a step on a high step, like a plane disappearing from the radar, like being unable to find direction in the desert.
, and like a polar bear sitting on ice that is about to melt, unable to find land."
Speaking of this, she suddenly laughed at herself, but her eyes became red, her mood became particularly low, and even her voice became choked.
"My uneasiness, fear, and doubts about life are all unspeakable. Who am I? Even my best friend, her departure has not changed anything in my life. I still go to and from work as usual.
When I go shopping or watch movies, I will think of her only when a person is particularly sad."
Tears fell from Xu Hongdou's cheeks. As a listener, Zhou Chen silently listened to her narration.
"When her parents lose her, they lose everything. I feel that I don't have the right to grieve for so long because of losing her."
Seeing that Xu Hongdou was so sad and so painful and self-blame, Zhou Chen said: "I can understand you, really understand, because I have experienced the same thing as you."
"I used to have a very good friend, the kind of brother who can trust each other's support in life and death in a real sense. When he left, I was sad for a long time, so I can really understand your point.
Feel.”
"Really caring about a person is not just about ordinary people. Some people are willing to show their emotions, while others are used to burying them in their hearts. The fact that you haven't mentioned Chen Nanxing for so long shows that you are used to keeping sadness and pain away.
People buried in your heart; you won't show it when you are in front of others, but behind others, when you are alone, all your strength will collapse, but after one night, you will continue to live like a normal person.
"
Xu Hongdou looked at Zhou Chen blankly, because Zhou Chen was right, she was almost like this, smiling and welcoming when in front of others, but when she was alone, she would be uncontrollably sad.
Zhou Chen can really understand her.
She wiped her tears and said in a low tone: "Nan Nan said before that she really wanted to come to Yunnan Province with me to play, but at that time, I didn't want to delay work and wanted to get promoted. Now I'm here, you see.
, she can’t come yet.”
As soon as she finished speaking, she felt even more sad. She endured the grief, and her tears fell one drop at a time. Her eyes were fixed on Chen Nanxing in the photo.
Zhou Chen saw that Xu Hongdou, who had always been smiling and welcoming, suddenly became so pitiful and pitiful. He felt so much pity in his heart that he couldn't help but stretched out his hand and patted her back gently to express comfort.
"If Chen Nanxing knows that you are here, I think she will be very happy. You regard her as your true love, and she must also do the same, so she will definitely hope that you can live better and stronger while you are alive, and take her with you
Her share."
After crying for a while, Xu Hongdou covered her cheeks with her hands and wiped the tears from her face.
"Sorry, I made you laugh."
"Don't say that. I know these words must have been held in your heart for a long time. It will feel better if you say them. Chen Nanxing is gone, but if you still remember her, she will always exist. What's more, I know it now.
She, she will always exist in my memory. If you still want to talk about Chen Nanxing in the future, I am willing to accompany you."
Xu Hongdou looked at Zhou Chen blankly for a long time, and finally nodded silently.
"Thank you, Zhou Chen, you are really different."
After telling Zhou Chen this and listening to Zhou Chen comforting herself, she really felt a lot more comfortable. Now not only did she know about Chen Nanxing, but Zhou Chen also knew about it. She felt very at ease when she shared Chen Nanxing's story with Zhou Chen.
,Very comfortable.
She sobbed softly and put the photo and frame back to their original positions.
Zhou Chen didn't stay any longer and stood up and said: "Hongdou, you should have a good rest. I'll leave first. Good night and sweet dreams."
"You too, good night, sweet dreams." Xu Hongdou showed a smile, but the tears on his face coupled with the smile were somewhat discordant.
Zhou Chen left Xu Hongdou's room and gently closed the door for her.
"call!"
Taking a long breath, Zhou Chen understood that after tonight, his relationship with Xu Hongdou would take a further step. Although it was still far from what he wanted, it was not too far away.
As soon as Zhou Chen came downstairs from Xu Hongdou's room, he saw Nana and Damai staring at him with inquiring eyes.
"Uh, you two haven't slept yet?"
Nana pointed upstairs and asked, "You just came out of Hongdou's room, you two, huh?"
Zhou Chen replied calmly: "Don't think too much, I'm just talking to Hongdou about something, it's not what you think."
Nana shuddered: "Hongdou, you called me so intimate and you said it's okay."
Damai asked curiously: "Zhou Chen, Hongdou is the destined person you mentioned, right?"
"Huh?"
Nana also stared at Zhou Chen closely.
Zhou Chen grinned and said: "You guessed it right, she is my destined person, but don't publicize this kind of thing, I don't want to make mistakes halfway."
Nana and Damai both looked happy, and this answer made them very happy.
In their eyes, Zhou Chen is a very good man, and Hong Dou is also their favorite neighbor and friend. If Zhou Chen and Hong Dou can get together, they will be happy to see it.
"We promise not to talk nonsense, and we will help you. After all, we have a very good relationship with Hongdou."
"That's great. If we can do it, we will definitely invite you to take a seat."
"Okay, okay, then we agreed, we will be witnesses of your love."
"It must be said."
…………
Early the next morning, when Zhou Chen came to the platform to meditate, he was shocked to find that Xu Hongdou was already sitting where he usually sat.
"Are you up so early?"
Xu Hongdou said: "I just got up. I usually see you getting up early in the morning to meditate. I want to learn from you and see what's different."
Zhou Chen went to sit on the futon next to her and said, "Master Ma meditates to stop myself from thinking. I meditate to practice meditation. What about you, why?"
"Then I'm just like you. In order to meditate, I want to know whether I can calm down."
"Okay, let's go together then."
Zhou Chen naturally has no objection. He meditates every day just to develop his internal strength. But unfortunately, modern society may be really different, and internal strength that comes from within cannot be developed. Maybe it has something to do with heaven and earth, or maybe it’s not
It’s about people.
So, after Zhou Chen meditated with his eyes closed, Xu Hongdou followed Zhou Chen's example and started meditating in the same posture as Zhou Chen.
When Ma Qiu Shan got up and prepared to meditate, he found that his place had been occupied by someone.
"Hey, what's going on today? Xu Hongdou meditated too and took my seat."
Ma Qiushan was very strange and depressed, but he had no choice but to find another cushion and meditate at the door of the tea room.
After several other people in the small courtyard got up and saw this scene, they were all a little confused.
Good guy, in the past it was just Ma Qiushan who meditated alone, and then Ma Qiushan and Zhou Chen meditated together. Now it’s fine, and another member has been added. Are you planning to set up a meditation alliance?
Nana, who got up early to go to work, was used to this phenomenon. Even if there was an extra Xu Hongdou, she just shook her head, took a look at the excitement and left.
Hu Youyu and Damai, who rarely got up early, sat together and watched this scene with great curiosity.
In order to make the meditation trio more difficult, Hu Youyu even brought a guitar and played and sang in front of the trio.
It's just that his fingers hurt from playing and his throat was filled with smoke. The trio still didn't wake up, as if it had no impact. On the contrary, he couldn't bear it and fell asleep.
Back in the rest area, Hu Youyu and Damai sat together, looking at the three people meditating through the open wooden window.
"In the past, Zhou Chen only meditated for an hour or two in the morning and then ended it. Today, he didn't end it. Instead, he meditated with Xu Hongdou. Did they discuss it in advance?"
Hu Youyu still knew the time when Zhou Chen meditated, so today's unusual behavior made him feel strange.
To be continued...