But I don’t think there’s anything wrong with leaving without saying goodbye…
An understatement of everything he went through during that time.
What... doesn't he know it himself...
What... She doesn't need to tell him specifically...
But……
Before he knew that his eldest sister really left and would never come here again, all his doubts, confusion, confusion, anxiety, and discomfort...
What do you say about these?
And he has doubts about himself.
In particular, the time when his eldest sister left coincided with the time when his parents were getting divorced.
One can imagine how uncomfortable he was...
The young man didn't understand.
He really doesn't understand.
…
The tension that had eased slightly before as a teenager "came back".
And it's getting more powerful.
He waited with bated breath for his eldest sister's answer.
It's really rare for him to say so many words to someone at once.
His eldest sister is really special and important to him.
He didn't want... any misunderstanding or dissatisfaction between them.
…
"Is that so?"
The eldest sister seemed not to feel the boy's nervousness at all.
She blinked, a look of confusion on her face.
"Do you need to say goodbye?"
…
"certainly."
The young man forced himself to suppress the sudden emotions in his heart.
He calmed himself down.
Although the eldest sister's question sounded... a bit harsh to him.
Say goodbye before leaving...
Isn't it a matter of course?
Even very young children know it.
Big sister...why do you look so uncertain?
…
"But won't you know it yourself later?"
Big sister still has this view.
"Why go to all the trouble-"
"It's not unnecessary!"
The young man couldn't help but growl.
"I'll know later..."
"But what about the time before you knew!?"
"...I don't have the ability to predict the future."
The young man took a deep breath.
"There was no way I could know on the first day you didn't show up that you would never come again."
Rather than just not coming that day.
Then take timely measures.
…
"I……"
The young man pursed his lips.
He calmed down his emotions a little.
He didn't want to act like he was quarreling with his elder sister.
Even though things developed into such a situation that he didn't expect at all, he still subconsciously didn't want to make his eldest sister angry.
He didn't want his eldest sister to be cold to him.
…
"...Do you know how uncomfortable I was during that time?"
The young man lowered his voice a little.
"What do you say about that time?"
"Every night I look forward to seeing you the next day..."
“But I always come back disappointed.”
"you know……"
The young man paused again.
So that there would be no crying in his voice.
"My parents are divorced."
"I'm coming to find you..."
"You're gone too..."
"I……"
He even felt something like despair in his heart at that time.
I feel like I have been abandoned by the whole world.
It's just a momentary feeling.
he knows.
He is still lucky.
At least when his parents didn't want him, his grandparents stood up.
They want him.
They said he was their grandson.
They will take care of him.
…
However, there were many things he could not say to his grandparents.
For example, there are many words about parents.
He is the grandson of his grandparents.
Dad is also the son of his grandparents.
To be continued...