The woman who deceives herself

Author: Tang Juyi

The woman who deceives herself

Today, Cao Zhiqiang is already a solid veteran when it comes to dealing with women. After all, he has rich experience.

So he knew very well that it was simply not enough to comfort Zhu Lin with rhetoric, and he had to use practical actions to show loyalty.

What practical actions? Of course, it is to practice it personally. To put it simply, it is to have sex.

Because Zhu Lin was in an uneasy stage at this time, the more he was at this time, the more he wanted her to feel his sincerity.

The best expression of this sincerity is to have sex together.

For a woman who loves herself deeply but is uneasy, there is nothing that can't be solved by rolling on the bed once. If that doesn't work, just do it twice.

Say something soft, get off the bed, and give some tangible benefits. Generally speaking, this woman will never leave you, even Zhu Lin.

Just like now, after rolling on the bed sheets once, Zhu Lin started to hug Cao Zhiqiang tightly and talk about her past and her "love".

It was precisely because of Zhu Lin's verbose historical statement that Cao Zhiqiang finally understood the whole story and why Zhu Lin "forgave" him so easily.

Of course, Cao Zhiqiang had already expected Zhu Lin's "understanding" or "submission". Listening to Zhu Lin's statement in person this time was just a personal confirmation.

The reason is very simple, that is, Cao Zhiqiang has long seen through Zhu Lin's true nature.

This is not to say that Zhu Lin is a money-worshiping girl in the 1980s. On the contrary, what Zhu Lin pursues is not money, but a higher-end sense of accomplishment than money.

That is to say, Zhu Lin is actually a person who has ideals and dreams and is willing to act on them. In other words, he is called a person who is ambitious and willing to pay the price for this ambition.

If you think about it carefully, how did Cao Zhiqiang and Zhu Lin meet? It was because of a cocktail party and director Xu Qingdong.

When he first met Zhu Lin, Cao Zhiqiang had a general impression of her. Apart from knowing that she was the "most beautiful daughter of the country" in her previous life, Cao Zhiqiang seemed to have no other impression.

And the title of "the most beautiful daughter of the country" was not named by Cao Zhiqiang himself, but by his father in his previous life.

Therefore, Cao Zhiqiang didn't have much feelings for Zhu Lin at first, and he never thought about having an affair with her.

It was only later that by mistake, Cao Zhiqiang wanted to make a movie that he wanted to make, and wanted to try to adapt his previous dream, which was to adapt the Japanese animation "The Garden of Words" into a live-action movie, so Zhu Lin was asked to participate.

After all, under the current circumstances, in terms of temperament, schedule, and convenience, there is no one more suitable than Zhu Lin.

During this period, there was a recurring rumor that Zhu Lin was having an affair with Xu Qingdong due to family discord.

In order to avoid trouble, Xu Qingdong wanted to change people and wanted to find actress Gong Xue to play the heroine.

Later, it was Zhu Lin who resolutely took the initiative to ask Xu Qingdong, and also asked Cao Zhiqiang, making everyone aware of her determination to play the heroine. Xu Qingdong and Cao Zhiqiang agreed to let her continue to play the heroine.

From this situation, we can see that Zhu Lin has a strong personal will and a strong ability to act. Whatever she wants to do, she always tries her best to do it and strive for it.

It's like Zhu Lin's experience as an actor.

According to Zhu Lin herself, it was an accident that she entered the acting industry. At first, she was asked to play a supporting role because of the needs of the movie, which was considered a secondment.

But it was during that secondment that Zhu Lin, a researcher, fell in love with acting and began to have the idea of ​​becoming a professional actor.

At that time, the status of an actor was actually not as good as that of a researcher at a research institute, and it was not as stable as a researcher. So when Zhu Lin had this idea, neither her parents nor her lover agreed.

After all, it's one thing to play tickets occasionally, but it's another thing to do it professionally.

But Zhu Lin was determined, and despite the pressure from his family, he resolutely went to Nortel Amateur Class to learn acting. Then he began to work hard to learn acting skills while building connections everywhere to look for opportunities to act again.

Hard work paid off, and finally in 1981, she participated in a film directed by her classmates Tian Zhuangzhuang, Xie Xiaojing, and Cui Xiaoqin. It was also their graduation film "Little Courtyard" and she became the heroine in it.

The photographers who shot "Small Courtyard" also came from extraordinary backgrounds, namely Zhang Yimou, Lu Le and Hou Yong!

However, at the time, this work was not famous, and it just gave Zhu Lin another chance to act.

After graduation, she was valued by the Emei Film Factory and was transferred to the Emei Film Factory to become a professional actress.

Although the relationship was transferred to the Emei Factory, Zhu Lin usually lives in the capital.

After becoming a professional actress in the Emei Factory, her salary and treatment were actually far less than when she was a researcher at the Institute of Health. For this reason, she was often ridiculed by her former colleague's husband.

That's all. The key is that after graduation, she took on very few roles. Last year, she only played the heroine Hua Xiangrong in "Legend of the Pear Garden". Most of the other time she was idle, at most.

Play supporting roles in some dramas or film TV series.

She still hasn't made much progress this year and is still a second- and third-tier actress with not many movies to film.

At this time, Zhu Lin was not even a famous actor. He was not on the same level as Liu Xiaoqing, Gong Xue and others.

Zhu Lin is born in the 1950s and is now thirty-one years old.

At this time, she didn't have any perspective, and she didn't know that she would be famous all over the world in the near future because of her appearance as the daughter of the country in "Journey to the West". So at this time, she was just a person who insisted on her ideals and was willing to work for them.

People who take action.

You know, if it weren't for liking it, if it wasn't for adhering to his ideals, then Zhu Lin wouldn't have to give up his stable and prestigious job as a researcher, and would instead become an actor with a low salary.

The reason why Zhu Lin is at odds with her current husband seems to be because she became an actress and was rejected by her overly conservative husband, but the most fundamental reason is financial issues.

Because after Zhu Lin quit her job as a researcher, her income dropped a lot. In this era, a drop in income meant that she often had to look at her husband, who had a higher income.

Zhu Lin couldn't bear it, so quarrels were inevitable.

Age represents experience. A thirty-one-year-old Zhu Lin has long passed the age of being full of love and has a better understanding of the principle of equivalent exchange.

However, Zhu Lin's high education and intellectual family make her naturally arrogant and will not compromise easily.

Even though it is the early 1980s and the atmosphere is relatively conservative, in fact in the domestic entertainment industry of this era, especially in the film and television industry, the situation of actresses trading skin for opportunities still exists, but it is more obscure and cannot be mentioned on the stage.

Of course, generally speaking, the atmosphere in the entertainment industry at this time was still okay, at least there was no issue of coercion, it was just free will.

Zhu Lin was so proud that she could not easily engage in skin-dealing with ordinary people, and no one dared to force or hint her.

However, for an actor with a high intellectual background like Zhu Lin, he is actually incompatible with many actors, so there is an implicit rejection.

Because of this, Zhu Lin's relationship with the actresses in the circle was not very good at this time. There were basically no actresses with whom she had a good relationship. The people she had a good relationship with were instead bold and bad guys like Xu Qingdong.

But if she gets too close to male directors and actors, gossip will easily spread, which in turn will deepen his family conflicts.

To put it simply, it is really not easy for domestic actresses at this time. If you don’t have the love for acting, it will be difficult to persist.

But it is precisely because of Zhu Lin's persistence and love for acting that she is more eager to succeed and get ahead in order to prove herself.

However, no matter what time, in the entertainment industry, opportunities are always greater than hard work, and backstage is greater than talent.

There is no opportunity and no backstage. Zhu Lin wants to become popular step by step. This is too difficult, especially in this era.

By chance, Zhu Lin met Cao Zhiqiang and listened to the outline of Cao Zhiqiang's script and the related theme song melody.

Whether it was the general plot of the script or the melody of the theme song, Zhu Lin's eyes quickly lit up and she realized that the heroine was what she wanted.

Later, Zhu Lin specifically inquired about Cao Zhiqiang and found out that he was Qiangzi, a rising poet in the capital recently, and was even more touched.

Few people know that Zhu Lin is actually a fan of Qiangzi, and he especially likes Qiangzi's poetry. He almost can't put it down for his collection of poems.

So after knowing that Cao Zhiqiang was the poet Qiangzi, Zhu Lin was actually very touched in his heart, and he became more determined to participate in the show.

It's just that Zhu Lin is thirty-one years old after all, not a little girl, and she is also an actor, so even though she longs to be close to the idol Cao Zhiqiang in her heart, she is still generous and behaves very decently on the surface.

But as she had more and more contact with Cao Zhiqiang, especially after various intimate contacts during the acting process, she found that her heart became more and more restless, and she couldn't help but cheat on him, and fell in love with Cao Zhiqiang, who was much younger than her.

The big boy.

Although Zhu Lin usually speaks appropriately and behaves calmly when she is in front of Cao Zhiqiang, in fact, it is all her disguise.

Once night comes, when she is alone, she will fall into sweet memories and begin to reminisce about the time she spent with Cao Zhiqiang, and have more delusions, looking forward to the next meeting and contact.

She had learned, acted, and thought about this feeling of worrying about a man and being filled with sweetness when thinking about him, but she had never really experienced it.

The contact with Cao Zhiqiang allowed her to truly experience the feeling of not being able to control herself, so she knew exactly what this feeling was.

That is love! Hopeless love!

Because of this, Zhu Lin became more and more addicted to the feeling of being with Cao Zhiqiang, hated her husband more and more, and even started to hate herself.

It's just that in the past filming process, because I always had the opportunity to come into contact with Cao Zhiqiang, it was like being addicted to cigarettes. Because I always had close contact with Cao Zhiqiang, I always had cigarettes to smoke, and I could temporarily numb myself to get into the scene.

Deceive yourself.

It wasn't until the filming of the movie was finished and everyone wanted to break up that Zhu Lin fell into a state of despair, as if he was addicted to cigarettes but had no cigarettes to smoke. He felt uncomfortable all over.

In the end, Zhu Lin couldn't stand the torture anymore, so he broke through his pride, resolutely threw himself into the trap, and took the initiative to fall into the arms of Cao Zhiqiang.

She knew it was wrong and immoral, but she couldn't help it.

If Cao Zhiqiang is a bad person, that's it. Zhu Lin hopes to forget it once in a while and treat it as a dream or a transaction.

But Cao Zhiqiang is so nice that people can't believe he is a real person.

He is young, handsome, talented, rich and powerful, which is very fascinating in itself, but he is also knowledgeable, respects women, and speaks very nicely.

Zhu Lin received unprecedented respect from Cao Zhiqiang, the kind of respect she had never received from her husband.

Although her husband has a good job and a good person, and is well-known in the workplace, at home, he is actually a very traditional man. To put it simply, he is a male chauvinist. He has never regarded Zhu Lin as an excellent professional woman, and

He treats her as his own accessory.

It is precisely because of this that when Zhu Lin acted as a couple with others, her husband would lose his temper, become seriously jealous, and often quarrel over these things.

It's just that in the past, Zhu Lin also had some traditional female thinking in her bones, so she only knew how to explain and argue. She never thought that this was a gap in ideas, and she never thought about divorcing her husband.
To be continued...