People will learn to release, but they will also gradually close...

Su Wan, who has just returned, can maintain her "difference", is magnanimous, and can control everything...

She had changed and was shrouded in the confidence she had given herself and God given herself.

But she is obviously not such a person.

Su Wan is weak. It can even be said that if she hadn't been weak and hesitant, she wouldn't have had so many regrets if she didn't say so many things she didn't know.

She is such a person, she is such a person. Although she learns to disguise and change, when the torn mask falls off, the self hidden in the heart is released again...

The room was dark and there was no movement at all.

If there was tension and anxiety in the living room, then there was an inescapable silence inside the room.

It was still like this until Xu Wenjun entered the house.

"Xiaowan..."

Xu Wenjun turned on the lights in the room, maybe because the light was too dazzling. Su Wan lowered her head numbly and buried it in her knees without saying a word.

But she really heard Xu Wenjun's voice. His hair was untied and disheveled. It was no longer as energetic as before. It could even be said that this was the most... most indescribable thing Xu Wenjun had ever seen from a long time ago until now.

Su Wan's whole body seemed to be dead.

It's not her kind of evasion that makes people angry.

But he is really dead and has no energy left to face him.

But she still cried. This sound would make her sad and angry. Instead of being angry at Xu Wenjun, she hated herself. She began to hate everything about herself and all the choices she made...

If she didn't reread, if she followed the instructions step by step, if she didn't just say she didn't know, if she didn't lose Xu Wenjun...that would be great.

My eyes were very swollen from crying, but as I buried them in my knees, the tears flowed down unsatisfactorily. Even the crying was just numb tears.

How long has it been since we last met? Two days, or three days?

Xu Wenjun felt that it might be a psychological effect. Su Wan seemed to have lost a lot of weight. She once let go of the dignity of calling her brother and sister-in-law, but the fragility in her bones could no longer be suppressed. It was extremely pitiful.

Xu Wenjun walked over, but Su Wan was hiding herself in the corner. She didn't know how long she had been keeping this position. Xu Wenjun wanted to help her and get on the bed, but she didn't have any stress reaction to Xu Wenjun and just didn't say a word.

, eyes lost focus,

But her knees had been bent for too long, and she couldn't straighten them. She wouldn't say it hurt, but she cried more and looked more painful.

Xu Wenjun didn't know what to say at the moment. He carried Su Wan back to the bed. He didn't know if her legs could be straightened now. He let her curl up on the bed. He sat on her bed and tightened the quilt for her.

There is no need to ask or say anything.

We can't let Amelia Su be in such a hurry...

Xu Wenjun put aside all his questions and helplessness, and just gently asked the most important question at the moment.

"Are you hungry? Would you like some porridge."

There was no sound at all. Su Wan waited until her knees had slowly straightened her legs. She stared helplessly at the vast white ceiling, which seemed endless but trapped in a corner. It was within reach but hard to touch.

.....

How much do you love Xu Wenjun?

For Xu Wenjun, she was a catastrophe he could not escape and a corner of his heart that he could not avoid.

As for Su Wan, he is also a girl who has been with her for many years, relying on her... I have to admit that if I don't know, I won't care about anything and have nothing, but it is painful to know and understand.

It can be said that Su Wan, who lived the most wonderful life at the age of eighteen, did not understand love and did not love Xu Wenjun that much. However, it cannot be said that Su Wan, who was eighteen years old, did not love Xu Wenjun...

Su Wan woke up after the appearance of Qin Muge. She had been in love with Xu Wenjun for ten years...a long time, and she was unwilling to do so...

Maybe Xu Wenjun now, Qin Muge now, and everyone now don't know how much she loves Xu Wenjun, so much that she seems to have only three words as her goal.

And when she saw everything was just like it was in her senior year of high school, just like it was in the hospital before...things were once again pushed into the situation she least expected.

She doesn't even know how she should face Wenjun, face a world that may not have Wenjun, and may no longer be able to enjoy Wenjun's warmth...

If Xu Wenjun came back looking for relief after being ferocious for more than ten years, then Su Wan had loved and regretted for more than ten years and came back to seek redemption...

"But it was screwed up by me, screwed up by my own hands."

Oh, it's me again, with my own hands again...

Am I a waste?

Is it useless?

Are you smart enough to think you are different?

"Should I... just stay in the corner obediently, stop talking, stop having expectations for yourself, just hide in your own corner, that's where you'll be..."

Su Wan had completely denied herself. Even when she saw Xu Wenjun now, she wanted to escape and hide herself. She felt that everything about her was unworthy. She even threw herself on Xu Wenjun and hugged him tightly.

Saying loudly that you don't want to leave me is unworthy.

A woman who has thrown Xu Wenjun away several times, oh, I am not worthy, I should... die in this corner, silently...

Oh my god, the feeling of terror that Su Wan was exuding, as well as her entire state at the moment, made Xu Wenjun feel terrified.

Xu Wenjun had thought that as soon as he entered the room, Amelia Su would rush over to him and hug him tightly, saying that I was wrong, I regretted it, I, I shouldn't have left you, I shouldn't have repeated my studies, I shouldn't have left the capital...

....Xu Wenjun, I'm sorry, I can't forget you.

He also thought that she would unreasonably hold on to him and never let him go. Xu Wenjun thought about many, many things.

But really, I never thought about it.

Su Wan said nothing...and just hid there.

I didn't even dare to look at him anymore.

this......

If a person collapses, but she is still talking to others, it means that she still has hope in her heart. But if a person collapses, she has no voice and is completely numb. Either she is dead or she is passing through.

On the road to death...

Death in a double sense.

Because her spirit has long since died, and she no longer even has the desire to survive...

Xu Wenjun was so panicked for the first time, but he was afraid that whatever he said would not be a life-saving straw for Su Wan, but a reminder for her. He could only stay by her side, never leaving her.

Quietly.

Time passed by minute by second, and the muffled sound of winter was very soft. Aunt Su and Uncle Su, including Xu Wenjun's parents, did not dare to make any movement and tiptoed up from downstairs.

Seeing that Su Wan would let Xu Wenjun get closer and let him hold her on the bed, she finally breathed a sigh of relief. At least, Xiao Wan let people get closer and let Wenjun get closer, so they couldn't touch Su Wan...

...

But she was only half relieved, because Xiaowan still looked like that, lying on the bed with only tears, but not crying or making a fuss. She was still quiet, like... like death, eh...

.

Looking at Xu Wenjun, who seemed silent and helpless, the adults left for the time being, not daring to disturb him.

He gently opened the door.

After a while, the smell of porridge drifted down the kitchen. Xu Wenjun's mother carefully picked up a bowl of preserved egg and lean meat porridge and brought it to Su Wan's room. Then she waved gently to her son,

Xu Wenjun took a piece of paper, gently wiped the corners of Su Wan's eyes, then covered her with a quilt more tightly, then stood up, left the room, and held the door, "What's wrong, Mom?"

"I made some porridge for Xiaowan..." Mom held the bowl in one hand and a spoon in the other. She would put it to her mouth and blow on it from time to time, sighing several times, "Put it in and try feeding it."

, I haven’t eaten or drank for several days, how can this be okay..."

Xu Wenjun took the bowl without hesitation, "I'll give it a try, you go down first, I'm here."

"Well, hey..." My mother looked at Xu Wenjun and hesitated to speak.

"Mom, just tell me if you have anything to say..."

"I don't know if it's right to ask you to come back. Xiaowan has become like this... I, and your Aunt Su and Uncle Su are actually a little bit... the things between you, specifically

We don’t know. Xiaowan kept saying I’m sorry to you yesterday... Logically speaking, I shouldn’t ask you to come back. You have Muge, so you can’t get involved like this. But Xiaowan has watched Xiaowan grow up before.

I always thought we would be a family..."

As my mother talked, she couldn't help but shed tears one by one. She quickly wiped them with her hands and continued, "But my mother really can't stand it. Su Wan like this seems like she can't survive."

Su Wan, I asked you to come back and get involved, don’t blame mom...Mom is a little sorry for you, and a little sorry for Muge..."

Xu Wenjun bent down and placed the bowl on a chair. It could be seen that the family was really worried.

I carry a piece of paper with me in my bag. I took it out, wiped my mother's tears, and then handed the paper to my mother's hand, "What are you sorry for? What's there to be sorry for? Su Wan and I have been together since childhood.

When I grow up, I will come back whether you call me or not. How could she be sorry for me? Hey..."

I'm sorry for her...

My mother was afraid that the porridge would be cold. She hadn’t eaten in these days and her stomach was empty. She would not be able to eat cold food. She put her mind at ease and patted Xu Wenjun on the shoulder worriedly, "Son... Xiaowan

I have a diary on me, did you see it? It’s locked with a password. We don’t dare to care about privacy at this time. Try it and see if you can ask for the password or guess the password. If it doesn’t work, take a look.

Xiaowan responded, open the diary and see what she wrote and why... Your Aunt Su and I can't get close, so we can only rely on you, Wenjun."
To be continued...