It has been 30 years since Li Mu was born, and he now works as a store manager under the "Nanhua Queen Bee". The store is located in a prosperous area of ​​Chaoyang Street, and the daily sales are very high, so the commission Li Mu gets is also very considerable. The basic salary

Including the commission of almost 12,000 yuan per month, he is considered a middle-to-high-income earner in Nanhua City. This is of course, after all, Li Mu has worked for the boss for five years, and he is still a "capable person".

He studied management at university, and after graduation he worked as a health care product salesman, specializing in selling glucosamine, a drug specially used to treat bones and joints in the elderly. It only costs a few dozen yuan to buy second-generation glucosamine in the hospital, but through the company

After packaging, inviting professors, and giving lectures, the company's glucosamine became a "special product for third-generation athletes." It costs 10,000 yuan to buy a course of medicine, which is 9,600 yuan at a discount, which is a rip off for the elderly.

Glucosamine is definitely effective, but it is so expensive, which really makes Li Mu feel that the company is deceiving the elderly. Out of conscience, he resigned soon after explaining his idea to his boss. Suddenly he learned Java programming and became a

I became a Java programmer. Although I always worked overtime, I was still "laying bricks" with my hands. A year later, I suddenly found that I had hair loss symptoms and my face looked much older, so I quit my job in a panic.

From "highly paid IT elite" to a large company as SEO, full name Search

EngineOptimization is a search engine optimizer. The company has branches in BJ, Nanhua, CQ and other cities. During the period of great success, it had more than a thousand employees. Most of the employees claimed to work for "small pornographic websites", and a small number of them were proficient in Japanese.

Playing Japanese games and watching raw meat shows, this is the company with the most lively working atmosphere that Limu has ever seen.

But... it still doesn't work. It's probably because I worked too hard when I was working on Java. I quit my job and didn't take a long break before joining a new job. I've only been working for an hour or two, and my eyes and shoulders are so sore. I waited until I took a break.

Sometimes, I feel very uncomfortable when sitting, standing or walking. To put it more accurately, it can be said that pepper powder keeps flying into my eyes and my neck is severely stiff all day long. Both parts of my body are sore and unbearable.

Li Mu resigned again, this time taking a half-year break, and obtained a teacher qualification certificate. He successfully became a health teacher and psychological counselor in a middle school. To be honest, China's psychological counseling system is not perfect, and even the political teacher spent a year

During the year, he can also take the national second-level counselor certificate, which is the highest level of counselor certificate that can be issued in China. At this time, Limu is 24 years old, which is probably too young and has little experience, so he can only provide free consultation to middle school students.

To put it into perspective, Limu worked part-time as a telephone customer service person, worked as a health care product salesperson, studied Java and worked as a programmer, worked as a search engine optimizer for a large Internet company, worked as a health teacher, and a psychological counselor, spanning all walks of life.

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Being a teacher is too busy for Li Mu, especially since there are two holidays a year. This is something Li Mu, who is accustomed to a busy job, cannot adapt to.

Not long after, Li Mu left his teaching position, accidentally married a wife, and had to find another stable job. In the past five years, he finally settled down under the "Nanhua Queen Bee", specializing in selling honey that is healthy for all ages.

The sales price ranged from tens to thousands, and there was an endless stream of people from all walks of life talking to him, consulting, and buying. At this time, he had a beautiful wife, a pineapple daughter, and a bear son who made trouble all day long.

However, Li Mu was not happy. This was his life, but it was not the life he wanted...

In such depression, he celebrated his 30th birthday.

His wife Lu Hui gave him a birthday party in the courtyard of this small villa.

Limu, who had just gotten off work, took his briefcase, walked out of the car with his head lowered, and walked into the courtyard. He was surprised to hear a burst of cheers.

"Surprise!"

"Happy birthday!"

"Happy birthday hubby!"

"Happy birthday dad!"

No matter how depressed he was, Li Mu tried his best to smile like a guest, dropped his briefcase, held his two children in small circles, and attended his birthday party with his relatives and friends. However, his heart was gradually sinking.

As if his soul had left his body, he saw himself drinking and socializing while floating in mid-air.

The people attending the banquet included his boss and some of his old customers, some of whom were relatively rich and powerful. All the people present had ample food and clothing, and everyone had their own life. If God allows him to do whatever he wants,

If you choose someone to replace him, he probably still won't be satisfied. What is the shortcoming?

"I saw" myself lying on the rocking chair on the porch after three rounds of drinking. Looking at the noisy women, a group of chattering gentlemen, and the children rolling on the grass. This life should be perfect, but Mr. Li Mu

I feel like something is missing, something very important is missing.

Heartbeat seems a bit fast?

He wanted to close his eyes and rest for a while.

When he was a child, he lived in an urban village in Nanhua City. Life in an urban village was no worse than in the city. His grandparents had three buildings for rent, and they lived a more prosperous life than urban residents without having to work. The rural cooperatives paid dividends at the end of every year.

On his sixth birthday that year, when asked by adults, he threatened to become a great cartoonist when he grew up. Although his family greatly praised him, they actually had no intention of sending him to learn to draw, so Limu could only

Drawing in books, almost every page was full of drawings. What he got in the end was naturally a lesson from his teacher and parents. Limu still remembers that the teacher complained in front of his parents that he had seen students graffiti in the textbooks.

As for homework, I’ve never seen him look so serious.”

Paper, exercise books, book covers, and pencils were all bought by his mother at that time. Even if he had pocket money, Limu didn't know how to buy stationery at the time. Now that he thinks about it, he really feels that he is a bit stupid.

During the sports meeting in the second grade of elementary school, he was found to have heart disease. According to statistics, one in every 50 people suffers from heart disease. Unfortunately, he was affected by it. The last few diagnoses were congenital arrhythmia.

Due to various reasons, Limu stayed away from elementary school for a while. It was not until junior high school that he learned how to take a bus to the bookstore and book market by himself, and then he used his New Year's money pocket money to buy "Comics Encyclopedia", "Comic Character Analysis", "Character Drawing Method", "

"Dialysis of Sight" and other introductory books, and based on what the book said, I purchased cloud rulers, manuscript paper, D pen nibs, round pen nibs, G pen nibs and other tools. At that time, I was practicing hard!

During this period, his academic performance plummeted, and he was scolded at home at night.

His grades dropped significantly because he was at fault. He didn't refute when he was scolded, so he went to school the next day with the attitude of studying hard during the day and drawing hard at night. He used the time between classes to complete previews, reviews and after-school homework.

But when I went home for dinner in the evening and prepared to practice drawing comics, the "Encyclopedia of Comics", "Character Analysis" and "Street Scene Drawing" on the desk all disappeared. A stack of straw paper in the drawer was cut and stapled into mathematics

The draft book. In addition to pencils and ink, D pen nibs, round nibs, and G pens were also thrown into an unknown trash can. Those things cost him a year's New Year's money, and he could no longer afford to buy another set.

I remember that I was crying and searching at the same time. After searching at home, I went to look through other people's trash cans and rummaged through the garbage dumps in the entire village. I didn't find anything until eight or nine o'clock in the evening. At that time, I really thought about not going home and wandering outside.

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But he sat quietly by the garbage pile and considered various situations, and finally he was brought home by his mother who found him.

In the second grade of junior high school, I had heart bypass surgery. The doctor said the operation was perfect.

I successfully entered the third-ranked high school in Nanhua City, but my studies became more arduous. After I was admitted to the top class in my second year of high school, I studied until one o'clock in the evening. I breathed a sigh of relief when I was admitted to college. I guess it was because of the word "society"

With the influence of my classmates, I became utilitarian throughout the university. I foolishly followed the advice of my seniors and participated in club activities in order to increase my "social practice experience". I often went to the welfare institution to accompany autistic children.

Recruiting new members in the club, applying to join the party, almost failing in the exam... It's not about studying, it's about being so busy looking for boredom. Looking back, the little "social practice experience" in colleges and universities can be regarded as social experience.

Yes, it’s just that some of them are dispensable.

All in all, I still found time to write two works during my "busy schedule" when I was in college, and submitted them to Taiwan Dongman Publishing House twice, but unfortunately they ended without success.

I also find time to paint for an hour or two a week after work.

However, this is his current life, but it is not the life he wants. "He" has lost his dream and his soul...

——I lost my dream and my soul...

Li Mu, who was sitting on the recliner, could no longer distinguish between "him" and "me". He didn't know if he would still have such shortcomings when he died at the age of 6 or 70. If so, it would be too painful and heartbreaking.

Tired... my heart is too tired.

Bang bang!

"Mu Mu, this is your birthday party. It's rare for you to have distinguished guests. How long do you plan to stay in bed? Get up quickly and greet the guests."

——It’s my wife’s voice.

Bang bang!

Li Mu was speechless, shaking his hands and head in discomfort. His wife tried to pull him up to attend the banquet several times, but he was like a heavy corpse lying on the recliner. Until his wife left angrily, the chair was still there.

The inertia of the pull swayed back and forth, as if he was sitting there leisurely watching his wife get angry.

Bang bang bang!

"I'm so angry that I can't even scream no matter how hard I scream!"

"Hey! Boss Li is tired from work today. Let's leave him alone and continue the barbecue. Continue the barbecue. I want a skewer of saury. What do you want?"

"A bunch of grilled corn."

"Okay, please wait a moment, ladies!"

Bang bang bang bang!

"Dad, my sister beat me."

"That's weird. He was the first to complain. He was the one who stole Sister Lin's hairpin."

"I didn't steal it, I just asked her to borrow it for a look."

"If you borrow something and don't return it, you're robbing it. Dad, you'll be the one to judge."

"Asking and taking it is to borrow it."

"If you don't agree, you are robbing me!"

Two four- and five-year-old children shook their father's hands hanging on both sides of the recliner.

——‘Ask and take something to borrow’? Have you read too many Xiongzi’s novels? ‘It’s not difficult to borrow again if you owe something.’ Do you know? Mr. Lin’s daughter... son, only by playing a long game can you catch big fish.

Li Mu pursed his lips, unable to speak.

When the two children saw that their father ignored them, they ran to find their mother for comment.

Bang bang!

"Wooden wood, get up, the guests are leaving, hurry up and see them off..." the wife's voice said.

"Sister-in-law, what's wrong?" the neighbor's voice said.

"Mumu, get up, I'm really angry!"

"Something's wrong, let me tell you, how long have Li Mu been lying here?" the voice of Nanhua Queen Bee said.

"Wood? Wood! Husband——!?"

"No... no heartbeat. Call me for 120. What are you doing in the cold? Call me for 120!" The voice of the guest.

"Lu Hui, don't worry, it's okay. The ambulance will be here soon."

"Mom, what's wrong with dad?" the child's voice

Bang……
Chapter completed!