It's about childhood.

"...At that time, my mother didn't like me very much because I was a girl." Looking at the sky, Su Tan'er spoke softly after laughing, "She has always hoped...

Dad thinks the same way if he can give birth to a boy for his father in the future, but at least he is a little warm to me. He said that I am smart and that he will definitely be smarter if he has a younger brother in the future. Dad always sees the way his younger brother looks in the future. Mother doesn't even want to see it. At that time, I was old and stuck with my mother, but my mother ignored me,[]

Sometimes when I do something wrong, it makes her annoyed, she doesn't hit me, but just waves her hand and asks the wet nurse to take me away. My husband, this is the biggest contempt in the world...

Later, I knew that my mother always wanted a younger brother. At first, I even hated my younger brother a little, and I didn't understand the difference between a girl......" The wilderness on the hillside was spotty, and Su Tan'er put her hand on her lower abdomen and watched the white clouds disperse in the evening. Ning Yi originally closed his eyes and smiled, and then opened his eyes: "It's okay, they don't like us, and we don't like her either." "Ha, I can't like my mother, my husband can't do it, otherwise I will be stung by someone and say that my son-in-law is unfilial." Ning Yi turned his head, looked at her for a while, and said seriously: "They can't scold me." "Puff" Su Tan'er couldn't help but cover her mouth. After the carving, she looked at the sky and spoke again.

"I was quite strange among girls. Later, I read some books. I didn't think it was human nature like those ladies. Instead, I felt that my father and mother were not good to me and were not fair at all. I grew up with the wet nurse in that big house. On the one hand, I felt that I wanted to be a boy who made my father and mother regret it, and to follow up the business at home. On the other hand, I felt that I was a girl and I had to learn everything the girls should learn well, otherwise it would prove that I actually envy those boys, wouldn't I lose?"

Ning Yi reached out to pick up a stem of grass that was dry on her head. Su Tan'er's voice was leisurely: "Growing up in such a family, the wet nurse was kind to me when she was a child, and she always said that we are rich families, and I am a lady from a family, and everyone envied. But when I was sensible, I felt that there was nothing to envy. My father didn't like me, and my mother didn't like this either. If it were a small family, there would be no such distress. In fact, I also understood that if it weren't for the big family, and if there was an older brother above me, my father and mother did not have such great pressure, I wouldn't have been neglected. I don't like my father and mother during the time I was with my father and mother. Later I found out that I had become the same person as them. That family... was unkind..."

"I... I am not a lady from a wealthy family, but I just learn from others. I don't like poetry, but I don't know how to read it well. I told myself that I had to learn at that time, and there was too much business experience. I didn't have time at all. I don't like poetry at all. I just like the feeling of being sought after by others. Sometimes when I think of this, when I see my father and mother, I think not to have children in the future. If I give birth to a child and cannot raise it well, she will be like me, blame me as a mother, but what should I do..."

"The standard is too high, no one will simply like poetry. You will be a good mother." Ning Yi interrupted.

Su Tan'er shook her head and smiled: "When she was 145 years old, she didn't want to get married, so she kept dragging her down, and then when she really couldn't hold on, she chose her husband." She turned her head and looked at Ning Yi lying next to her: "But she wasn't sincere at that time, so she let Xiao

Chan went to take care of her husband. She ran away on the day of her wedding and came back several days later. Although she lived together, she didn't respect her husband too much..." "Isn't it already good?" Su Tan'er shook her head on the grass, her expression had become calm, just a little natural smile: "No." When she said this, her voice was slightly choked. "It's not very good, that's just that I'm pretending to be a lady from a family, pretending to be very conscious, just like I pretending to like poetry. I... I'm just thinking about myself, thinking about keeping my husband steady, making this family look like a home, and not being stung by others, it's enough. I haven't thought about my husband,..."

"It's really troublesome for women..."

“………………………, but now I think about it.”

The two people's voices sounded together, Ning Yi muttered boredly, and Su Tan'er whispered slightly in sobs.

After saying that, he couldn't help but chuckled at this. Ning Yi closed his eyes and pushed his palm across, almost hitting Su Tan'er's cheek. Su Tan'er turned his head, closed his eyes slightly, leaned his cheek against his hand, feeling the touch of his fingers.

The two of them have always been decisive people and do not like pretentiousness. When they were together, there were certainly conversations that seemed romantic in this era. But in fact, Su Tan'er was very emotional. When they first spoke in the small building, they were always talking with a natural attitude. There were not many sweet words. Later, the Su family suffered a major disaster, and their relationship rose rapidly. Then when Su Tan'er burned the building and completed the house, although there were occasionally a few sweet words, it was basically between the two.

Su Tan'er's youngest daughter is not often seen. They are both powerful people. Even if they are really flirting, they will stop. However, in the past two days, after learning about her pregnancy and knowing Ning Yi's injuries, although she was silently with Ning Yi and didn't say much nonsense, she was only then that she really spoke out these things she thought she didn't care about.

"I know that my husband is always in my heart about what happened at that time. I probably can't hide the twists and turns of my wife's mind. It's really embarrassing to think about it... At that time, I thought my husband was a stupid scholar. I read a few stupid books and couldn't think about things and could not deal with people. I just thought... As long as I could control my husband, I would not be my opponent, such a stupid scholar."

Ning Yi smiled: "Not now."

"My husband is open-minded, maybe he thinks that is normal. But now I think, if this can be repeated, I must treat my husband well, I... I want to learn to be a real lady from a family and want to take care of her husband and children, but I don't want to marry her husband at the age of 18, so I let others say that my husband married a stingy old girl. If I marry her husband at the age of fourteen and fifteen, that's fine... In that case... everything is different, I won't let my husband come to Hangzhou..."

Su Tan'er was still calm when she said the previous words, but when she said the last sentence, she finally cried. She clenched her fists and placed them beside her, trembling slightly, and cried violently. This woman was always arrogant, although she was reserved under the gentle appearance, but the outlook on life she had developed by the shopping mall was almost as sharp as Ning Yi. Once something happened, she only wanted to solve the problem. The emotion of regret could be called summary or reflection at most. But at this time, she knew that the journey was difficult and her husband's injury was probably implicated by a long journey, so she felt guilty about this emotion.

Ning Yi sighed, moved, and leaned towards his wife, Su Tan'er grabbed his clothes and gritted her teeth and sobbed.

"The Lou people will go back with a chance." Ning Yi said.

Su Tan'er was already crying: "I want to give birth to a child for my husband and I want to take care of my husband and children. I don't want to show off anymore, I don't want to do business anymore. I don't want to think about myself anymore, but I want to have this child now. But now I don't have this child now, but I will be different now. I have seen my husband doing those things in the past two days and try hard to get out. I know that my husband is suppressed by responsibility. Although my husband who has no children will be like this, I am really scared... The doctor said that my husband's injuries need peace of mind, rest, and then rely on his own body to support him. My husband, you are working hard to escape, so how can you survive...

I was a little persuading, but I knew I couldn't persuade her at all..." She cried hard beside Ning Yi and was extremely depressed, so her body trembled violently: "The past two days, my husband has been asking about those people and planning those things. I am by my husband... I was holding back and not talking. There were many people in my heart telling me that it was useless if I said it, and it was useless if I said it, but it was more annoying to you. You can't bother you while doing things.

But I thought again, it would be great if I were like those ordinary women, and I just cried and shouted that you were not allowed to do these things, and then I wouldn't care about anything..." Ning Yi patted her on the shoulder: "You know it's useless to say it..."

"When I can't help it..." Su Tan'er sniffed. "When I can't help it, I went to hide in the tent, sat for a while, and refused to let myself cry. Chan'er and the others have cried several times. They want to come and persuade you, but I blocked them. I don't want you to talk to them and persuade them. I don't say useless words to you, and I don't want you to waste my physical strength... I didn't want to tell you these things..."

After saying this, she cried in a low voice, but it was better than before. Ning Yi waited for a while and said, "I will get better."

Su Tan'er mopped tears, but the tears kept falling. He leaned against his mouth and nodded, "You must be fine. If you can't get well, I can't meet such a husband anymore. I don't want the children anymore, and I don't want the family anymore... I was not a good mother in the past, and I did the things that caused the destruction of other people's families... Remember me, my husband, I have your child in my belly. You are very tired now, but you can't even complain that you have to hold on. But it doesn't matter if you can't hold on. Let's go down to find you..."

She stared at Ning Yi with her eyes open, and her gentle melon-shaped face was tightly pursed. She was a woman in the mall, and she always had a silent style. Because she had a delicate appearance, she was just a girl in her early twenties, not like a decisive businessman on the sofa. But at this time, only the big eyes that had just cried, she was stubborn and had been cultivated in the mall but had been restrained. She was mixed with her gentle face, and only sent a more heartwarming message to the people in front of her: this is your woman.

Ning Yi smiled and said, "Don't underestimate your husband. No matter what, I will survive. You're sure to give birth to this child."

Su Tan'er moaned her lower abdomen and then leaned against Ning Yi. She grabbed Ning Yi's clothes with her other hand, closed her eyes, and seemed to be saying something in her mouth, as if she was praying for something, but the mountain wind blew over and couldn't hear the specific words clearly.

The clouds flowed in the sky, and the setting sun burned the sky and the mountains. At night, the army began to operate in the camp of the fugitives. The next day, the camp was launched again, and the pursuers behind were actually not far away. When noon approached that day, they began to get a message from the lonely refugees. Just in front of them, the largest escape team began to fight infight...!
Chapter completed!