Today I am thirty years old.☆→

As usual, I write an essay on my birthday every year. When I am thirty years old, I have no idea what to write. Until this morning, I don’t have anything to write, but there is too much to write. Not long ago, I told someone

, When people are ten years old, you are the self who is ten years old, when you are twenty years old, you are the self who is twenty years old, and when you are thirty, you will find that you are ten years old,

The twenty-year-old self and the thirty-year-old self all stood together. They left so many traces that they could not separate them.

Then, I have thirty years to write about.

In the past, I wanted to write something as easy or pragmatic as possible, which is not difficult to understand, but then I think about it, at the beginning of today, let’s write something metaphysical and fake.

When talking about three concepts and combining them, perhaps most of the me, there are some strange things in the middle and second place. If you continue to look at them, you will understand the reasons.

One:

At the end of 2014, I went to Beijing Luxun College of Literature for two months. One of the classes was taught by Professor Dai Jinhua from Peking University. During this period, Professor Dai Jinhua mentioned a concept, she said, in the process of origin of the text.

In this article, Chinese characters express meaning, while European characters express sound. This is the difference between the two.

Teacher Dai Jinhua did not study language at Peking University. She studied films, mass media and other directions. When it comes to this concept, it should be because the content is slightly touched and the past is casually spoken. I have heard of this concept in the past, and after the lecture is over

As usual, there was a time to ask questions. I first arrived at Luyuan and raised my hand to ask questions. The question was probably: The basic meaning of the existence of words is to convey thinking. Immediately, the invisible thoughts in my mind are to convey them to others, so that others can receive them.

In "The Three-Body Problem" and many science fiction works, it has also described a group similar to the Ant Family whose entire race is ruled by a mother, and it is believed that it is a way for organisms to evolve to a high point. Our text is expressed directly in graphics

Meaning, while Western characters first turn the meaning into syllables, and then use icons to express the basic syllables. After entering the brain, they interpret it through a set of conventional methods. Is it going through another process? The differences between these two developments,

Are there any objective factors and the inevitability of development?

This question is a bit messy, because it has nothing to do with Professor Dai Jinhua's course content, and he just chose a topic on the scraps to extend it. Professor Dai Jinhua was stunned for a moment and then said: This may not be inevitable.

I asked: Maybe it was just an accidental difference?

She said: Yes.

I have a lot of ideas about this issue later, but I won't discuss it here. The reason why I said this is because, this question seems casual. But to me, it is so important that I

It's in my mind anytime, anywhere.

For me, the most charming thing is the transmission of thinking.

I was thirty years old and did not go to college. I still can’t be considered truly recognized by society. Of course, I went to Lu Academy to study and attended several meetings, but I didn’t attend.

Writers Association. My grades are only spread in a small range. I am just an online novel author who is neither up nor down, but if you ask me seriously: "What exactly are you doing?" I might answer:

"I do the transmission, the transmission of thinking."

There is a myth in the Bible. Old Testament. Genesis. I have always liked it very much. In ancient times, because humans had no language separation, were extremely powerful, and worked together to build the Tower of Babel together, trying to seize God's authority, but God was not destroyed.

They just made all of them start speaking different languages, and then humans fell into mutual suspicion and war, and could never unite again, and the Tower of Babel collapsed.

This is really a very simple and profound philosophy. All human differences and problems almost all come from the opacity of each other's thinking. In my essay at the age of twenty-seven, I wrote about the relationship between wild boars and morality, in terms of interests, morality, and deception.

On the triangle, deception comes from this, and thus a colorful human world has been born, all comedy and tragedy, all rules and status quo.

Language and writing are the most important way to make up for human beings. They are used to convey the ideas and intentions of others and carry the wisdom of others. Whether it is the understanding of scientific laws or the perception of life, we can accumulate and pass it on to

Later generations allow them to grow rapidly, but they may not need to experience it one by one. Therefore, when they experience the same challenges, they may make better choices and have a better life.

Human society has thus achieved evolution.

After I first came into contact with the concept of "words have limits and cannot express all thinking" in Haruki Murakami's book when I was in my early twenties, I almost felt enlightened. In the next ten years - probably not

In the past ten years, what I have been thinking tirelessly is how to transform my thinking into words that are as accurate as possible. I throw away the gorgeous unnecessary styles that I don’t even understand, leave simple branches, and then turn the leaves into

I have to flourish and then trim it again and again. Now, now that I continue to trim this style of writing, I am thirty years old.

Some people think my writing skills are good, while others don’t. Of course, each has its own reasons.

Second:

Talk about my personality. As far as I am concerned, I have great personality flaws.

Such personality defects originated from the fact that they went through the wrong order and made the wrong structure when they were receiving education. During the enlightenment, my grandfather taught me a very correct and upright way of thinking. Later, when I was studying Lu Xun and studying

,I imitate Lu Xun's writing style in composition. My writing style is not good, and the teacher said that my thoughts are not good. I was wondering, I was criticizing bad things, why is it me who thinks badly? After thinking through it,

, This is the initial disagreement and incompatible - each of us, more or less, has experienced these.

What I went through next was an era of rapid change. A reader once said in a book review that I had witnessed the afterglow of that era. Indeed, when I was a child, I had witnessed the afterglow of that era when the change was not yet severe.

Then there were drastic changes, the impact of various concepts, and the worldview I established myself was out of place with the world. Then, due to family difficulties, I gave up on university. When I gave up on university, knowledge was in my mind.

There is no longer weight in the room, and without weight, there is no awe. I dismantle everything at will, and all orthodox knowledge has lost its meaning.

I often tell people that the so-called "meaning" comes from the "feeling of ritual". When we were young, we played houses seriously. Everyone discussed how to place the bowls and chopsticks, how to sit and feed them. We visited the tombs on the Qingming Festival and knelt on our knees.

How to kneel down and kowtow several times - For pure materialists, are these related to ghosts and gods? No, they are only related to ourselves. When we do this seriously, "meaning" will be produced.

weight.

In the simplest explanation: When we make great efforts for a thing, we will automatically convince ourselves that what we do is meaningful.

So later, when some book friends who don’t want to study come and ask me if I want to go to college or continue my studies, I will advise them to continue, not only for knowledge, but more for them to enter society.

Feel the efforts they have made, the heavy thing, and then they tell themselves: "I'm ready."

I entered society without being prepared, and then I lost all the awe. I thought everything could be structured with basic logic, and my brain was still working. When I encountered something, I

The brain will automatically go back thousands or even tens of thousands of years ago, from the original social construction logic, and then push it one by one to the present, looking for all the causes of this matter. If you can find the cause, your brain can

In the past, as I told the story of wild boar three years ago, the cause of morality.

For a while, I suspected that I might have some kind of mental illness called Asperger's syndrome. Such patients use logic to build emotional thinking. During the period when I was the least good at communicating with people, I even tried to form it with logic.

A set of guidelines for talking to people...

There is no doubt that I tasted the bitter fruit.

If there are only the above problems, maybe I wouldn't have written something like I am now. Half a year ago, I saw a sentence, which was probably like this: The most important quality of an excellent author is sensitivity, and others still have some things.

They didn't feel any pain. They were already in great pain. If they wanted to endure the pain, they had to be humorous...

I often tell people that I have no literary talent, but I probably have sensitive qualities. Sometimes I see that we born in the 1980s and after entering society, I don’t know what to do, change our three views and distort our spirit

, In the struggle, no one knows what is wrong with these, until one day - most people - regard money rights as the criterion for everything, as the criterion for success, constantly pursue, and those who pursue it, feel that

Not satisfied, I always feel that something has fallen out. People begin to miss their youth. When they are young, it has led to a large number of popular "Soon of the Year". But looking back, even if money and power cannot satisfy themselves,

I had to continue pursuing it. Some of them are sing high-profile here, right?

Sometimes when trying to deconstruct yourself, deconstruct the entire human race, put it on the time of the entire earth and even the universe, and then you can see the wind and sand rolling up, and in an accidental moment, you draw a beautiful pattern, and we produce the so-called wisdom, and we adapt.

The world, change the world, and finally destroy the world, will eventually perish... I can't find the meaning of eternal existence - I'm a secondary school student again, right?

If I think of these things when I was eighteen and my three views were not yet complete, it would be a secondary second-year mood that could be changed. When I was thirty, I would go back to this issue, and it would be serious.

This passage may be about the ultimate nihilistic proposition, and I don’t really want to discuss it with others. In ordinary cases, it hits the second time and has a shame. I mentioned it to enter the third point.

After declaring these two points, we enter the third point: Tell us about online articles.

I have been writing online articles for many years. Although when I went to Luyuan, I insisted that there was no distinction between tradition and the Internet in literature, in fact, there are indeed some. Some call them traditional literature and popular literature, and some call them traditional literature.

We think there is such a separation between elite literature and popular literature.

I write books very seriously, and I still dare to say this with confidence to anyone. I once had a dream of a writer - but the definition of a writer is a little different.

Two days ago, Hunan Province held the sixth Youth Writers Conference, which is said to be once every five years but only lasted ten years later. I went to attend it. It happened that the reporter from Hunan Economic Video interviewed him and there was no draft or preparation at that time. I was

When it comes to online literature, I said that online literature today may not be the future of literature, but its middle contains the most important part that traditional literature is missing in the current difficulties.

They are: attraction, persuasiveness.

I used to define literature. Habitually say this: Traditional literature focuses on the exploration and thinking of self-spirit, while online literature focuses on transmission and communication.

In this definition, traditional literature digs deep into itself, and its depth determines the height. Even if many people cannot understand it, people with high ideological realm can see it, and they communicate in a very high place.

, I don't think they have no value. On the contrary, these ideas can be said to be the most shining treasures in human development, and I am convinced.

What online literature cares more about studying is how something in our mind can be transmitted to readers' hearts. In the years of online literature development, we have accumulated a lot of experience and techniques. Of course, there are good things and whether it is better or not.

OK. There are benign and bad ones. Online literature is still a discipline with varying quality.

While studying at Lu Academy, one day, I accidentally met a teacher on the road and talked about topics about differences. The other party was a good teacher. But after all, I didn't know much about online literature, so I talked about some things.

It seems to be said: I have seen many authors who cannot make money and are forced by life. When they want to make money with words, they will go into the most extreme direction of the past and draw their original thinking.

All gave up. People will go to extremes like this.

The other party said: But we do have many authors who are sticking to the declining trend of society. They are not for money, they try their best to resist the influence of social trends. Their thinking is, for society,

Very important, it cannot be without...

The first thought that popped up in my mind at that time was: the impact of reform and opening up over the past 30 years has led to the decline of spiritual civilization and the impact of more than one billion people, can we explain it by saying "do your best"?

Perhaps there are such persistent authors, one or two, who are respectable, but over the past thirty years, aren’t there any responsibility for the weak and powerless literary circle?

Literature is the beginning of spiritual civilization!

I didn't dare to say it.

In the interview the day before yesterday, I mentioned the best literature and asked, what is the best literature? I actually don’t have a very specific concept. I said: It can really make people’s spirits perfect, when we said: “

You shouldn't be just for money and power in your life." People will truly believe that it can have real persuasiveness, it can educate and infect the people of the most, rather than letting people feel like they are singing after they finish speaking.
To be continued...