That night, I slept with a rare peaceful sleep. In the long and quiet dream, there was finally no sneering faces of those people, with ferocious expressions, nor the coldness of the snowy and windy weather, but a little warmth. When I woke up the next morning, I realized that the sun was shining outside. A ray of sunshine was casting from the dilapidated window frame, shining on me, bringing a warmth.

I didn't move, blinked and looked at the dust flying in the light column. In the sun, they had nowhere to hide, but as soon as they left the sunlight, they immediately disappeared without a trace.

After watching quietly for a long time, I slowly got up.

As soon as I got off the bed, I saw the figure of a nanny coming to deliver food at the door.

She didn't usually come so early.

I didn't care when they came or what food they were going to deliver. I just turned my head and looked outside the door, but saw the nanny carefully took out a bowl of rice from the food box, covered with a chicken leg and some vegetables. She looked at me, her eyes looked a little strange, and she said, "Come and have a meal."

I frowned slightly.

Usually they either beat or scold me, and they never say hello to me, a "crazy man", so why today?

I walked over slowly with some confusion. The nanny looked at me again, said nothing, turned around and left quickly. I stood at the door, stunned for a moment, and looked down at the bowl on the ground.

If I hadn't been hungry, I wouldn't have eaten what they sent me.

I slowly picked up the bowl, and the things inside were still not so good, they just filled my stomach. After smelling it, I carefully picked up the chicken leg and took a bite. The aroma and fat of the cooked meat immediately filled the whole mouth. The taste made me feel a little exhausted. It was really a long time since I ate it.

What surprised me even more was that there was no medicine in it, no grass, no vines, and no money. This is a bowl of rice without poison!

What's going on? Why did they send me a bowl of unmedicated meal? Nangong Lizhu had clearly told them before that they could not go against the meaning of Concubine Li.

Looking back on the strange expression of the nanny just now, was it because someone asked her to send it?

Who is it?

My brows frowned and I raised my head nervously. I was the only one in this small courtyard. The gate of the courtyard has been closed. Outside the courtyard is a path that no one else has passed by for many years. This place is like an isolated island, in the already deserted cold palace, it is so lonely.

A gust of wind blew, and only the fallen leaves were rolled to the corners of the wall to make a rustling sound, which made the place even more lonely.

But I vaguely felt that this loneliness was about to end.

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The days in the cold palace passed quickly. Every morning, I watched the sun shining light from outside the wooden fence move little by little. When it moved to the corner of the wall, the day passed. I spent almost this way in the past two years, and it didn't seem to be difficult.

However, these five days have been longer than the past two years.

However, the days of these days have passed a little better than usual. The best thing is that I can finally eat enough. However, I also remember what Mu Hua once said that if people who have been hungry for too long eat a lot, they will cause stomach and intestines to explode and die. So even if there is no problem with the food, I dare not eat too much, but my spirit is much better than before.

Even Xiao Nianshen could see it.

Early that morning he sneaked into the cold palace and whispered to me on the wooden fence: "Grandma."

I walked to the door and saw that he was wearing a new red little red jacket today, making his face look white and pink. If a jade doll was so cute, I smiled and said, "Why did Your Highness come here so early today?"

"My mother said she would take me to Yuhua Palace to celebrate the birthday of the imperial concubine today. I'll see you first."

"Your Highness is really a fool. What if the Empress is caught?"

Speaking of this, he lowered his head a little lonely and said, "I don't know how to do it."

I understood as soon as I heard this: "Empress, did you lock yourself in the studio and not come out?"

Xiao Nianshen nodded gently.

In fact, after listening to the deep thoughts for so long, Chang Qing has done this for not once or twice, and everyone around her is used to it, but the child is the child's nature after all, and she still hopes to get the most attention and warmth from her mother. No matter how Chang Qing is used to being indifferent, she will still make the child feel cold.

Thinking of this, I gently stretched out my hand to caress his soft heart and smiled gently at him.

Xiao Nianshen looked up at my smile, and seemed to be stunned again. After a while, he murmured: "Grandma, your eyes - it looks so good when you smile, it looks much better than usual."

I looked at him with my eyes bent and said, "Is that true?"

"Yeah." He nodded seriously and said, as if something suddenly appeared, "Really, grandma, your eyes are so beautiful, and they look better than the others I see."

“…”

"Except—except the person painted by the queen mother, grandma, your eyes are the best I have ever seen."

My heart moved slightly.

The person in Chang Qing’s painting has the most beautiful eyes?

Although Nianshen is young and has little knowledge, he was born in a palace full of flowers. There are many beauties here. Not to mention the beautiful concubines who are charming and the noble concubines who are beautiful and beautiful, they are just the beautiful and refined queens and those concubines. Which pair of beautiful and beautiful eyes are not moving, but he said that the eyes of the human in that painting are the best.

So, who is the painting that Chang Qing painted?

I was still thinking, Xiao Nianshen looked at the sky and said, "Oh, I'll be out for a while. They are coming to find me later. Grandma, I'm going back."

"Um."

I watched him turn and run away. He suddenly remembered something again, looked back at me and said, "Grandma, don't worry, I will definitely help you today."

I sat at the door, looked at him through the wooden fence, and smiled and said, "Thank you, Your Highness."

He smiled at me, turned around and ran away.

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The next time is waiting.

The stove was burning in the center of the room, but I sat at the door far away from the stove. The thin heat could not resist the colder temperature outside. The wind blew in with sand and dust and fallen leaves, which quickly blew my fingertips cold, but I still sat there stubbornly, looking at the hazy sky outside.

This is not the case in the sky of Chonghua Palace.

The birthday of the dignified concubine must be a feast of wine and jewelry.

I remembered the several banquets I had experienced in the palace, all of which were like this, and what impressed me the most was the night when Pei Yuanxiu married Nangong Lizhu.

I remember that at that time, the night was so deep, but there were many lanterns everywhere in the palace, which made the night sky beautiful. I walked quietly on the quietest path behind the cold palace.

I don’t know why, so many years have passed, but I suddenly remembered that night.

In the past two years, I have rarely looked back on the past. Because there are so many unbearable pasts and the feeling of regret will make my life even harder. For some reason, I have to think about it tonight - if I didn't go to the cold palace to visit Ningyan; if I didn't meet the man who was drunk for Nangong Lizhu that night; if I didn't go over and hold him desperately because he was about to fall into the lake... What would happen to me now?

Can I live quietly until the day I left the palace and spend a little life with my meager savings; maybe, after I left the capital, I would really go south to Yangzhou, because it was far away from the capital, not Shu; maybe, I would really stay in an inn because I didn’t have time to find a place to stay; then, I would meet Liu Saner, who is so kind, and will definitely help me who has no relatives; then... Then... will he fall in love with me like this, and without those experiences, I will not retreat from his feelings because of my own filth, will I also fall in love with him? Two people can have no scruples, simply get married...

When I think of this, my head is about to burst out from pain.

"Um--"

I curled up desperately, holding my head hard, but I couldn't resist the severe pain that almost exploded. I could only tell myself not to think about it, not to think about it.

I'm in pain, I... I regret it so much!

I don’t know how long I suffered from such regret and pain, and when the night became deeper, I heard a faint sound of footsteps coming from outside.

The familiar footsteps made me feel a little more awake. As soon as I looked up, I saw the door of the courtyard being pushed open.

Xiao Nianshen looked carefully and confirmed that the nannies did not come. Then he smiled at me: "Grandma!"

"Your Highness."

He ran over quickly, his face flushed and his body was stained with a lot of powdery fragrance. Obviously, all the concubines in the palace went tonight's night banquet. He was originally smiling, but when he approached, he saw my face clearly with the moonlight, he immediately said, "Grandma, what's wrong with you? Your face is so ugly. Are you sick?"

I barely shook my head: "No."

"Ah, your hands are so cold." He reached out and touched my fingers, looked at me again, and suddenly said with a smile: "Ha, I understand, grandma, you are waiting for me, right?"

I looked at him with a smile and nodded.

But he looked a little proud. He was originally just a child. He lived in Chang Qing's indifference and Pei Yuanhao's neglect. He was suddenly entrusted with important tasks by the adults, which made him feel even more proud. He clenched his hand into a fist and reached in front of me like a treasure, and looked at me with wide eyes: "Grandma."

“…”

"I did it!"

“…”

"Look!"

I lowered my head and watched him slowly spread his small palm.
Chapter completed!