"Mom, did Dad sleep with you last night?"

I just felt a choking throat.??                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          

I don't know what to say, so what can I say?

Seeing that I was standing still but didn't say anything, Li'er gently pulled me: "Mom, did Dad live here last night?"

“…”

After all, I couldn't deceive my child, so I nodded gently: "Yes."

Li'er looked at me for a while and asked more carefully: "Then, did you sleep with my dad?"

"……Um."

A look of astonishment immediately appeared on Li'er's face.

Although she is just a child, she is so old and knows a little bit. When she heard me say this, she seemed to look at me anxiously: "But, mom, shouldn't you sleep with your father?"

It's getting harder for me to speak.

I never told her what I had had with her father and where I am now, but for her, her father and mother should be together, and there should not be such a relationship between Pei Yuanxiu, so she is anxious.

The child, especially the little girl, has a sensitive and fragile mind. Looking at her anxious eyes, I tried to make myself not sadder than her. After calming down my mood, I said softly: "Yes, I should have slept with your father, but Li'er, some things should be known to you."

"What's the matter?"

"Your father--has already ruined my mother."

"Bad? What is Borrowed?"

"That's right, let's go. Mom is no longer his wife."

Li'er's eyes widened, as if she was disbelief. She looked at me blankly for a while and grabbed me more anxiously: "Why, mother? Why do you want to be useless? Are you going to have to divorce?"

"Because of some...misunderstanding."

Only two misunderstandings are certainly not enough to explain everything between Pei Yuanhao and I, and not enough to let Li'er understand why her father wanted to divorce her mother. She lowered her head and thought for a long time, then raised her head to look at me, and said sadly: "Mom, do you don't like you?"

Don't like me?

When I heard this, I was a little surprised.

In fact, since I met Pei Yuanhao, I have rarely or never thought about this issue. For people of his identity, it doesn’t matter whether they like it or not. Whether they want it or not is the most important thing.

Of course, this situation may be the only exception for some special people.

but……

Looking at Li'er's clean eyes, I still said softly: "No."

"That--"

"It's just that your dad has someone he likes more."

"ah?"

I gently hugged Li'er in my arms, stroked her heart, and said softly: "Your father has already given a lot of happiness to my mother, so now, he is going to give happiness to others."

Li'er looked at me stupidly: "What happiness did he give to his mother?"

I smiled and said, "It's Li'er."

“…”

"With Li'er, it's my mother's greatest happiness in her life."

Li'er's ignorant little face was originally full of anxiety and sad expressions. When he heard this, he seemed to have a flower blooming and laughed.

However, her smile lasted for only a moment, and suddenly she looked at me with anxiety again: "Where is mother and dad?"

This time, I hesitated.

I know she likes her dad, but it is different from knowing that her dad and her mother sleeping together.

Children, especially girls, should give her the most correct understanding of the ethical principles and will only be self-respecting and loving when she grows up. I don’t do well enough and can’t do better. Pei Yuanxiu and I were not right last night, and I don’t want to cast such a shadow in Li’er’s heart.

So, I said seriously: "Lier, I have one more thing to tell you."

"What?"

"you--"

I hesitated for a moment, looked at her clean and clear eyes, gritted my teeth and said, "If my mother and your father are married, would you like?"

Li'er's eyes opened for a moment, and then there was no sound.

I lowered my head and looked at her carefully, looking at her face with a wooden face and her big eyes flashing. For a moment, I couldn't tell whether I liked or was angry.

I held my breath and waited for a long time, but she still didn't react. She just felt that the small body in her arms was extremely stiff.

I said softly: "Li'er?"

When she heard my voice, she moved in a daze and still stopped talking.

"Li'er, you'll tell your mother no matter what you think."

“…”

"Mom wants to know what Li'er thinks."

She still didn't speak immediately, but lowered her head and was silent for a while. She raised her eyes and looked at me, but did not answer my question. Instead, she asked me: "Mom, during the Mid-Autumn Festival, you said that my dad will have his own family in the future. He wants to marry and have children, but why, it's you?"

I didn't expect that she still remembered what I said to her that night.

But now, this sounds like this, but I feel sad. The expectations I used to be hastily, and my departure finally became a joke. No matter how I escape, it seems that I can't escape.

I smiled bitterly in my heart, but my face was still calm and I said softly: "Because, your father chose me."

"Does my dad like mother?"

"……Yes."

Li'er fell silent again. I thought she would have to be as silent as before for a long time, but after a while, she raised her head and looked at me: "Where is that mother?"

I was stunned for a moment: "What?"

"Does mom like dad?"

“…”

"Do you like it?"

When I heard her question, I was stunned for a moment. Only the tender voice was heard in my ears, but I asked a deafening question-

Do mom likes dad?

Like it?

I suddenly remembered that in my half of my life, in just a few decades, I have experienced so many things, and I have gone back and forth around me, all kinds of people have even married twice, but no one has ever asked me, do I like that person?

What everyone cares about is whether I should marry, whether I can marry, whether I can marry, whether I am worthy or not; what everyone considers is what will happen if I marry, and what will happen if I don’t marry; what everyone sees is how good, bad, worthy, and unworthy that man is... What they see is what my other party, but no one has ever really cared about me.

No one has ever asked me if I like it or not?

The first person to ask this question was my daughter!

Looking at Li'er's eyes, I felt a little sad and a little relieved. Tears were almost pouring out of my eyes. I couldn't help but hug her: "Li'er..."

"mother."

She seemed a little dull in my arms, but she seemed to feel something. A pair of tender little hands reached over and surrounded me.

At this moment, no matter whether what Pei Yuanhao once gave me happiness or misfortune, I am really grateful to him and for giving me such a daughter. With her, even if I experience all the pain in the past again, I don’t care!

We mother and daughter have been together for a long time before we slowly separated. Li Er held my face with both hands and asked persistently: "Mom, haven't you answered Li Er. Do you like my dad?"

“…”

After a long silence, I reached out and carried my daughter into my arms again.

A trembling voice sounded above her head—

"Mom, maybe I'll fall in love with him."

.

Since I learned that Pei Yuanxiu and I will get married, Li Er has been in a quiet mood. I can't say whether she is happy or sad. Such a young girl can't see through her joys and anger.

Sometimes, she even gives me the illusion that I grow up overnight.

I even see my daughter sitting in the house and being tragically tragically for a while.

I also know that such a young child suddenly knew that his mother had been retired by his father who had never met, and that his mother was going to marry his adoptive father who had raised him since childhood. No one could appreciate the taste of this, only she herself knew. But - I could feel that she was hit and even had some sensitive injuries.

And only she can relieve these things herself.

Pei Yuanxiu and I can do now, with caution, and no longer let anyone or anything hurt her.

After taking my horoscope that day, a few days later, Pei Yuanxiu came to the inner courtyard to tell me that our wedding date was scheduled for the second day of March.

I was drinking tea with a tea cup when I heard this day, I looked up at him, and he smiled and said, "Something I've asked them to go down and prepare."

I smiled and said, "Why is it on that day?"
To be continued...