"Do I understand? I don't understand at all?" Mu Yan smiled at herself, looking melancholy.

Li Zilong stopped and turned around and looked at Mu Yan in a daze.

Mu Yan continued, "You have never given me any promises, and I have never even said a word you like. For me, eight years, I am also willing to wait for you wholeheartedly. Even if you have no promises or confessions, I am still willing to wait for you to come back to me one day, because at that time, I was full of you in my bones. I followed you to Jiangcheng and thought you would return in the end, but I couldn't wait for you in the end. This is my fate."

They passed by a park, and Mu Yan simply found a lawn and sat on it. Li Zilong bent down and sat down opposite her.

"Do you know? When I first entered the workplace, I was bullied. Every night I went back to my rental house. I wish I had a warm embrace to hug and a shoulder to lend me a little, but no. Do you know, I am a girl, a girl who is at the age of marriage and will be affected by the surrounding environment. I can withstand the seven aunts and aunts. I can wait for you year after year without a promise, but I will also be tired. Do you know, I have moved four times in less than a year and lived in five different houses. I am so poor. The thief refused to let me go and stole my only valuable notebook. Do you know, I will still wake up in the middle of the night." Mu Yan said tears unconsciously.

"I ask myself where you are? When will you come back? The first thing you do after you come back is to think of marrying me? One time, when you called me drunk, I had to carefully test you whether there is anyone you like now. You have never said that you asked me to wait for you, but I am willing to wait for you, but I am also afraid, afraid that you can't wait for you, afraid that you will just like your wishful thinking, afraid that you will put pressure on you, and make you feel that I am a burden." Mu Yan's tears were like a waterfall, and she wiped more and more, and she simply stopped wiping, and her voice began to choke so hard that she couldn't speak.

The night was hazy, and he watched her bury her head between her knees and choked in a low voice, and a lot of emotions surged in his heart.

Silence, endless silence as deep as the night.

Under the faint street lights in the distance, the shadows of pedestrians are stretched long, and they are each in a hurry, just like lonely souls. Will every lonely soul find a habitat that makes him feel warm?

After Mu Yan calmed down, he said, "I'm sorry, I've been waiting for you for a long time. Maybe I was too selfish at the beginning." He looked at the crowds of people on the side of the road and frowned slightly: "Actually, I was sorry for you at that time. I lied to you. That year you came to me. Actually, I was not taking the postgraduate entrance examination, but preparing to study abroad."

Mu Yan recalled that he and his classmates were cooking outside, and his computer was turned on for her to play casually, and there were many English speeches stored in the computer. At that time, she just thought that it was his hobby, and most of his books were also in English. Now it seems that he trusted him too much at that time, and he never doubted it. She was still lying on her lap and waiting for the following text.

"You know, I am the only son in my family. My parents invest almost all their money in me. I don't want to disappoint them. How do you ask me to make a promise to you? Could you tell you that I want to study abroad for a few years, and wait for me? Of course, I also admit that I am hiding your facts and I am afraid that you will not wait for me if I go abroad." He paused and sighed a long time ago.

"I was afraid that you would wait for me, and you wouldn't wait for me. I was afraid that you would wait for me, and I wouldn't wait for me in the end. I wasn't sure about my own path, so how could I guarantee you? If you miss something better than me, would you hold a grudge against me? What if you find that I am not suitable for you after I come back? Concealing you was a decision I had been struggling with for a long time. When I saw you coming towards me, I couldn't help but want to have you. I wanted you to wait for me. I said I took the postgraduate entrance examination, at least you would see the future. But if I said I had gone abroad, I would probably feel that we had no chance, so I'm sorry, it was me who was selfish at that time..."

There was another silence, and only the occasional voice of pedestrians on the road came over.

"But, I don't understand." Li Zilong said helplessly: "You have been waiting for me for so long, and I have come back too. I even called you and said I was coming back, but you left. In fact, the first thing you did when you came back from abroad was to find you. Because some subsequent things have to be handled, I called you in advance. You didn't tell me at that time that you had a boyfriend. If I remember correctly, you told me that you were still the same person..."

What he said was indeed right. She vaguely remembered that day he called her and told her that he was going to come back to find her soon. Wherever he went, he also asked her tentatively if she was still alone now. After he arrived in Jiangcheng, could her family take him in? She said welcome. She still remembered that she hung up that day and considered moving out of Qiao Hai's second bedroom, renting a one-bedroom and two-living house, and waiting for his return. She didn't sleep all night.

The next morning, she told Qiao Hai that she had just gotten up and opened the bedroom door. She was even moved by her hard waiting for the past few years, and finally she could see the moon brightly. She didn't expect that things would develop like this.

Mu Yan was silent. She didn't know how to tell him this. She even lamented that she had been teased by God. Did she tell him that she was accidentally slept by her roommate?

The silence was still a long silence, and Mu Yan wanted to get up and walk back.

"Do you love him? Is he good to you?" Li Zilong asked suddenly as if he had thought of something.

"I don't know, I don't know, I only know that when it's cold, the eggs he stewed are delicious, I only know that the snacks he bought for me are delicious, I only know that you don't have to worry about the lamp breaking down when it's broken... Maybe I'm not outstanding enough and not independent enough to match you. Even God thinks I'm so arrogant, so we're destined not to be together."

"Mu Yan, as long as you think, as long as you say you want, we can be together every minute. I don't care about everything else, I don't care about your marriage, I don't care about how others view us, whether I'm a third party, I'm destroying other people's families, I've been waiting for you for so many years, and I have thought of finding someone to marry, but I can't do it." He said so affectionately that Mu Yan's heart floated outside.

"But I care...I care..." she screamed in a low voice.
Chapter completed!