What exactly Tong Xue has experienced? As long as she doesn't say it, I will never know

I would rather believe that all this is just my imagination. Her departure is really just a matter of not loving her, or that she is an extremely realistic girl who can no longer live a hard life with me in the city of Beijing.

Instead of being for the father's illness or filial piety.

This is too bloody and too inconsistent with my logic. If this is true, I will never get out of this vicious circle in my life. I can’t even get the money for my woman’s father to treat her. What qualifications do I have to say I love her?

Love in reality will never be as perfect as in movies and TV dramas. When two people are together, they will face the trivialities in life sooner or later. When an accident comes, how many people can survive?

Money is not omnipotent, but for young people like us, it is omnipotent. It is really unimaginable. How did Tong Xue spend that time? She must be very entangled and uncomfortable, right?

I stopped at the bus stop not far from her home, and my eyes couldn't help but wet again. I hated, hated myself for not having money, hated myself for delaying her seven years of youth, and hated even more hated my long-term misunderstanding.

I really don’t understand her, otherwise why would I blame her in my heart? Why didn’t I dare to mention the love between us to others? People who are too selfish are not worthy of saying love, but I really love her and have been in love for a long time.

Looking up slightly and trying to make tears flow back to my eyes, I lit a cigarette for myself. The strong nicotine can calm me, and I can only calm myself down in this way and I will never solve any problem.

I really want to turn around and go back, run to her house, hold her tightly in my arms, and then elope with her, never go back to Beijing, and leave here, find a small city where no one knows us and start over.

But I can't.

Because we can't go back, misunderstandings, complaints, and a faint hatred mean that we are destined to be people on both roads.

Once upon a time, we walked together on the road of longing for love, called love. Now, one to the left and the other to the right, at the intersection in life, has become a parallel line that can never be intersected again. Perhaps the only thing I can do is pray silently, or pray to God so that she can live better, hoping that the man can be better to her, at least, better to her than me.

He can give her enough material life and hope he can give her a sweet love life, otherwise, I will be really unwilling to give up.

But I can't express my unwillingness to do so.

In fact, Beijing not only changed Tong Xue's reality, it also assimilated me, especially during the period when I changed jobs, only I know the well-being of life, and only I can survive it by myself.

On the second day of the Lunar New Year, I grew up instantly because this was the first time I was facing her departure.

Sad and helpless.

Life is just a bitch, an actor, give it all the filthy words full of slander, sooner or later it will turn people into frogs in warm water

I couldn't remember how I got to my home, and I was even more lazy to pay attention to my mother's concerns. I went straight back to the room, locked the door, and threw myself on the bed, closing my eyes.

How good would it be if I could not sleep for a long time?

With a smile on my face, I fell asleep and used this way of escaping reality. At least, we would not meet in our dreams. Even if we met, we would not have so many helplessness. There were so many choices that made me confused.

"Ding Ding Ding"

A rapid and regular phone ringing woke me up. I was impatient and hung up without even looking. Now, I don’t want to pay attention to anyone, as a tragic person as I am, it’s better not to bring bad luck to people on this festive day.

"Ding Ding"

"Is it still fucking over?" I cursed in a low voice, rubbed my face, and looked at it extremely reluctantly. It turned out to be Lin Jiayi who called.

What did she contact me for? New Year's greetings? Obviously not. Even though I don't have much contact, as a friend, I still know her better. This girl never pays too much attention to vulgar etiquette.

With doubts, I answered the phone and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Xiang Xiaoan is critically ill." Lin Jiayi said in a low tone: "If

If you can come back, come and send him a trip. After all, there are not many friends in Beijing."

"What did you say!?"

Even though I have only met Xiang Xiaoan once, he is my real friend. The reason why I can keep staying in Beijing is because of what he said.

Now Lin Jiayi called and told me that he was critically ill.

This is something I cannot accept, absolutely not!

I asked in surprise: "Didn't it recovered well before the New Year? Why? Why?"

“I want to know why too”

Lin Jiayi choked up a little, and she said, "He didn't want to tell you about the past few days, for fear of delaying your family, but this fool's friend in Beijing can count it with one hand, and I don't want him to be lonely even if he leaves."

"I'll book a ticket now."

I seemed to be talking to myself, and asked, "Where is the doctor? There should be a miracle, right? He is so good and so young, how could there be no miracle?"

"Chen Mo!"

Lin Jiayi shouted: "Don't talk about miracles, there is no miracles in this world. If you can come back, please wait for you to come back as soon as possible."

"Um."

Until the earpiece was filled with busy sounds, I couldn't get out of my surprise. How long did it take? That stubborn and optimistic man was about to leave this world? It was him who made me lose my misunderstanding of Beijingers. It was him who told me that there was warmth in that city, and it was him who made me and Lin Jiayi become friends, so how could he leave?

But today is not April Fool's Day, and Lin Jiayi is even more unlikely to joke with me with such things!

I feel very panicked.

I want to go back to Beijing.

I quickly got out of bed and walked out of the room in a panic. After seeing my parents, I said incoherently: "My parents, I have to go back early. My friend is leaving."

This is my first close contact with life and death separation. It turns out that life is so fragile

"What's wrong? Who's leaving?" my mother asked with concern.

"Xiang Xiaoan, my buddy, why are you so fragile?"

"Don't worry, Mo'er, don't worry, your friend will be fine."

"I know I know."

I nodded repeatedly, and I couldn't believe it until now. I wanted to go back to Beijing quickly, meet him quickly, and then expose the lies Lin Jiayi said! Yes, that's it!
Chapter completed!