A family dinner was spent in a warm and plain atmosphere. Lao Wang and I drank a bottle of Red Star Erguotou. He said that it was authentic Beijing flavor, strong, and had a sense of heroism that belonged only to men.

After dinner, I sat on the sand with him, sucking cigarettes comfortably, and talking about the recent situation, Wang Yuxuan got together with my master's wife. The mother and daughter were talking about those private words, and the laughter from time to time told me how beautiful the atmosphere was.

But no matter how beautiful it is, it doesn’t belong to me. I am a passerby in this city and I am also a passerby in their city. I can’t stay in Beijing all the time. In two years, I will be thirty years old. People say that starting at thirty and starting a family and starting a career is something a man must do in his life. I am a little drifting in Beijing. Can I start a family and establish a career here when I am thirty?

This is obviously unrealistic. Beijing is a realistic city, more realistic than any other place in the country. It can make people run here with longings and ideals and run to it desperately. It can also make people leave here with loss and pain.

I am still struggling here, but now it seems that the time I can struggle has begun to count down.

When I returned home during the Spring Festival, I clearly saw that my father's temples had turned white, and my mother's wrinkles seemed to have become much deeper. They were all old, so I had to think about them. After all, I have been willful for many years and cannot continue to be willful after they get older.

Once upon a time, there was Tong Xue by my side, at least I had an excuse to be willful. Now, I am just holding on in Sijiu City.

"Xiao Mo, what are your plans?" Lao Wang sucked all his last puff of cigarette, twisted it out, and asked me suddenly.

"Intend?"

I murmured and said hesitantly: "I don't have any plans if I were more practical, I would probably work for another two or three years, save some money, go home, buy a house in that small town, and finally find a girl, get married, have children, and stay by my parents."

"Oh," Lao Wang nodded, his hands were inserted together, and his thumbs were shaking alternately. He said, "It's really realistic, and it's quite unpromising. This is not like you when you first came to Beijing."

"Master," I smiled bitterly, "I was so young at the beginning. I was not afraid of the world. I won't talk about the distance. I will talk about the nearest ones. Just like the last time I exposed the matter online, I just gave someone some advice and lost my job. You said, how can I make a fortune?"

"To be honest, have you ever blamed me? After all, as a master, I have not saved you."

"Why blame you? It's because I'm not clean in my background. Besides, it's not easy for you. It's not easy for you to buy the current home business, not to mention that I'm not your own son, so there's no need to do that for me."

"You kid." Old Wang shook his head and said, "You are good everywhere, but you speak too straightforwardly but then again. If it weren't for your straightforward temperament, I wouldn't have accepted you as an apprentice among the people you came to."

"Don't say you saw yourself in me." I waved my hand, "If I were yours, I wouldn't have been able to have this kind of virtue."

"Ha ha."

He smiled and said, "You really should learn from Meng Yang. This kid is smart and fucking smart. In a few years, he will definitely be better than your master."

When I heard him mention Mengyang, I was a little dazed. We passed the information during the Spring Festival. At that time, he told me that I would come back to gather after the New Year, but after so long, he had no news. It seemed that we were getting further and further away. However, as a brother, I was still happy for him to get Lao Wang's evaluation.

"Yozi is not easy, he has to do this."

"A man hasn't been forced to a certain extent."

The night gradually became deeper, and I walked out of Lao Wang's house, and there was a Wang Yuxuan who insisted on sending me to the car.

"You go back to the house, it's quite cold."

"You are my senior brother. As a sister, I have to make a lot of etiquette, right?"

"Wow, if you are so sensible, you may not be so fucked with your biological brother, right?"

"Can you not talk about him!"

"To be honest, I have never understood what happened between the two siblings, so that you will become strangers." I comforted me and said, "Old Wang is old."

They are so old, and I am not in good health. If you and your brother continue to make trouble, the old couple will be the ones who are in trouble in the end."

"You know?" Wang Yuxuan asked back, walking in front of me angrily without looking back, "If your brother or sister breaks up your favorite person, will you forgive him?"

"This kind of problem does not exist because I am the only son of the family."

"I mean if! You idiot." She turned around and shouted without any image.

"This question is really hard to say, but I think he is doing it for you."

"For your own good, it will always be the biggest moral kidnapping in the world. It will only make people unable to argue and cannot bring anything else."

This is the first time I heard her story, and it is also the first time I saw this playful girl so deep, and I had no answer. In my heart, I think she is right, because I understand the taste of deep love and understand the bitterness of losing love, but from a rational point of view, she was wrong again.

Everything has two sides, and only the parties involved know which aspect of choice is inclined to.

I sighed and stopped talking

It was not until I took me into the taxi that Wang Yuxuan walked home. I turned around and looked at her slightly thin shadow through the car window. I couldn't help but think of putting on a smile on my face to face everyone, but would I feel really happy?

I couldn't find the answer, just like the question she asked me, there was no answer.

As a forgetful person, in this journey called life, I am also contradictory and cannot see the end?

The rental house in the early morning is still so cold and empty. What is its use besides the expensive rent that proves its value to me? There is no lantern in this city that will light up. Where should I, a passerby, find a homecoming person?
Chapter completed!