People say that when a person wants to leave this world, he will let the lantern be in his mind. When I recall his life, I was not serious enough to death. At most, it would be a concussion. But at this moment, the lantern is in my mind.

My revolving lantern only recalls some clips, each clip is about her and about us.

Tong Xue said, let’s get together again.

How should I answer?

Those memories of youth, love, beauty, pain, growth, and separation are like floods that have opened the flood gate, quickly occupy my mind, a little dizzy and a little messy.

I have thought of countless possibilities, but I have never thought of this one.

Because it is a dream, a fantasy, and something that I only think of when I lick my wounds alone after being drunk, sleepless night!

It is now growing in front of me, naked without any concealment.

Tong Xue sat next to the hospital bed and looked straight into my eyes. But I couldn't say a word at this moment. Everything came too abruptly. She didn't prepare for me at all. I even wondered if the woman in front of me was Tong Xue or the rational girl.

Agree, refuse.

These two choices are in front of me.

I'm very scared.

My mind is running: is she serious or joking? Will there be conflicts after we get together? Will we return to the original feeling? If there is any unavoidable difficulty again, will we separate or can we overcome it together?

I have loved her for seven years, but now, do I still love her?

These problems are simple and complicated. I am like a person who has been walking in the desert for a long time. Without water, I lose my direction.

Those vows and those beautiful things are frozen in my mind, but what appears after it is the autumn night when we break up, the cold autumn night in Beijing, the cold room, the empty double bed, the beer and cigarette butts discarded on the ground.

I can't deny that we have loved, nor can I deny that I still have feelings for her now, but this is not the answer.

After being separated for so long, I don’t know what I have had in her. Similarly, she doesn’t know what I have. With her simple emotions at the beginning, she cannot maintain a real marriage.

It's like crystal, it looks transparent and pure, but it's really fragile.

I am not a realistic person, it is her departure that makes me realistic, and now, she wants me to be naive.

Everything looks too ridiculous.

But all of this is happening again.

There was expectation and embarrassment in her eyes. This woman, who has always been stubborn, was biting her lip, waiting for my answer.

"I" opened my mouth, but I still couldn't say a complete sentence.

"I probably know the answer."

Tong Xue suddenly smiled, helplessly, and she said, "Chen Mo, am I stupid? I can't even find the lost things, let alone people."

"I did not mean that."

I struggled and sat up from the hospital bed, "It all came so suddenly, just like a person who had never won the lottery for a hundred times. When he decided to give up, he suddenly saw the news. The number he bought last time won the first prize in the new issue."

"You are a rational girl and a realistic girl. When we first arrived in Beijing, you said that we must have our own house in Beijing in the future. I said that later, the facts proved that even if I was in my life, it would be difficult for me to give you a home in that city. If you saved up enough disappointment, there was a person who was willing to give you a house. The Third Ring Road is the Third Ring Road! I never thought about it."

I stared at her and asked, "Can you really put down those things? It's something you have thought about for a long time, and after seven years together, I know you."

"Chen Mo, I have never done anything to sorry for you." Tong Xue interrupted me and said excitedly: "I had my own difficulties at the beginning. I was clean, both in body and soul."

If someone told me that a woman and a man who was willing to give her a house on the Third Ring Road, and later found her ex, saying that she was clean and asked her to get back together. I would definitely ask if the person was a fool with a smile, and I would believe in this kind of thing.

But now I was born in me, I believe that because the person who said this was Tong Xue.

"Can you talk?"

Tong Xue opened her mouth and let out a long breath. After a long time of silence, she finally said, "It's not that I want to hide it from you, it's not the time."

"As long, I won't ask."

I pretended to be calm and smiled, picked up half of the cigarette left by Liu Lei from the bedside, lit one, and fell into deep thought.

This is a multiple-choice question. The multiple-choice question I fear the most is very similar to the math test in the college entrance examination. Each choice has four answers, and each answer is so similar. There is only one really correct answer.

The college entrance examination can determine a person's destiny to a large extent, so when making a choice, I am very distressed and cautious. Now, when choosing a life path, I should be more cautious, because it will determine who I will start a family with and run my life together in the future.

After taking a deep breath with the cigarette in my arms, I made a decision.

A decision that I don't know if I will regret it.

"Today is 547 days apart. In more than a year, I have never loved anyone, nor have I held any other hand. After you left, my mouth was not kissed and drunken night. When I closed my eyes, I could still feel your hand and your lips, as if you had left for a while, just went to the kitchen to pour me a cup of honey water. I thought that as long as I opened my eyes and called you, I would see you again."

Twist the cigarette with your fingers, and the tingling nerves can keep me awake. "But I was wrong, especially when you returned to that rental house that day and took your stuff away, you were really cruel, and you didn't even leave me any thoughts. I have loved you, loved you very much, and hated you very much."

"Chen Mo" she called me.

"Let me finish." I waved my hand and continued, "When we met again, it was still because of work, and it felt very special. I couldn't help but wonder, can we take this opportunity to go back to the past. Later, Du Cheng gave me the answer, the past is the past, life is not an animation, there is no Doraemon's time machine, and it can only stay in the past."

"I know what you mean."

Tong Xue stood up, turned around, and her slightly trembling shoulders proved that she was not calm. "You are right, just pretend I have never said anything." As she said that, she had already started her steps.

"etc."

"Is there anything else?"

"You know, what I'm most annoying is making choices. It will make me anxious and make me crazy. Now, you gave me a multiple-choice question. Can you give me some time?"

"Half a year, I'll give you half a year."

"good."

She left the hospital and left Wuzhen.

Half a year is enough for me to make a choice, and I also know that those words were definitely not something she said in an impulse. As time goes by, I have become timid.

Living in that city in Beijing is really tiring and it really makes people feel hopeless. I am no longer young and I dare not say it to the oath that I once said to be together forever.

A person, standing by the window of the ward, looked at the distant north, there was a city there, which could make people see all the prosperity in this world, and also make people feel the coldness that they had never felt before.

It is called Beijing.

There, a girl once looked forward to the future with me. She said half an hour ago that she wanted us to be together again.
Chapter completed!