Chapter 184: Girl, I love you, but we can't be together yet
We hugged each other lightly. All this came too abruptly, very illusory, and unreal, but the touch I felt was so real. She was Zhang Yao, an extremely outstanding woman in the city of Beijing!
A woman I can't match in every aspect.
Take a deep breath, and smell the fragrance of her head in the breeze. At this moment, I don’t want to do anything, I just want to hug each other like this, feel each other’s breathing, heartbeat, feel each other’s hormones and dopamine scattered in the air
I didn't kiss her, and I didn't even want to watch the sunrise tomorrow morning with her, because now I am content. My heart marks that have been empty for a long time are filled with her. What else do I want to ask for?
If time can stay at this moment, then this will be eternal, right?
After about two cigarettes, Zhang Yao twisted gently, broke free from my arms, her cheeks flushed slightly, and she held my face and said, "I know you still have many questions to ask, but I don't want to answer. I just need to believe that I like you, the kind you like very much is enough."
"I"
"What are you?" She smiled, as if the peach blossoms blooming in April.
"Is this too fast? It's a bit unreal?"
I truthfully expressed my thoughts.
"Then what?"
"Are we together?"
"No." She shook her head decisively, "You haven't chased me yet."
"Then I'm chasing you now?"
"Are you afraid you're stupid?"
I don’t know if she is beautiful or if Xi Shi always appears in the eyes of her lover. At this time, even her rolling eyes, I felt that God gave me a great gift from me, and a reward from someone who has been wandering in Beijing for a long time and has not had a place to live.
I can't see where the future is, but I do want to have her in the future. We'd better build a house in the suburbs, then circle a yard, put a swing and a rocking chair in it. In summer, I play her guitar and sing, so that she can sit on the swing and laugh and wait for her to be tired. We'll make desserts together, which must be the best delicacy in the world!
Regarding the future, it is all her now.
I clearly know that this is unrealistic, or that to realize the scene I long for, I need to use all my efforts in this life to achieve the possibility.
Zhang Yao is not an idealistic girl, and she can tell her many decisions in the mall. So, what can such a girl like me?
Even if she doesn't let me ask, I have to ask clearly.
I grabbed her shoulder, breathed rapidly, and asked with an unusually serious expression: "Where do you like me?"
"I knew you would ask this."
"Then tell me, otherwise I'll be in a panic, really panic."
"I like you stupidity." Zhang Yao said lightly.
"What? My stupidity? Where am I stupid?"
She curled her lips, "Here, you are so stupid now."
""
For a moment, I lost my words, felt a little disappointed and a little bit self-blame. This topic that easily makes the atmosphere awkward was just mentioned by me, but in the best moments.
I am really stupid.
"Actually, it's not your stupidity. Do you remember the first time we met?"
After a while, Zhang Yao sat back on the sand, spoke Youyouyou, and said, "That time should be the year after the case ended, right? I really didn't expect to meet you bastard again, especially when I was making a fool. To be honest, at that time, if you see me tugging with Liang Feng, would you feel that I was so beautiful? "
"No, I just think it's not easy for you."
I shook my head and sat next to her.
She wants to express her feelings for me and satisfy my curiosity. I naturally have to be a good listener. What's more, I really want to know what position I have in this woman's heart, especially at this moment when I have fallen.
"It's not easy?" Zhang Yao laughed and said with a self-deprecating smile: "Yes, it's not easy. When I was in junior high school, my father sent abroad. From that time on, I started living alone, doing homework, extracurricular activities, community activities, and teaching everyone alone. I felt complaining in my heart, but I knew he was for my own good, so I endured it and finally got to graduate from college, and I felt that I could be more free."
"But what is waiting for me is the marriage arranged by my father." Zhang Yao paused, looked at me, and asked, "I said that I have never lived together since Qi Yu got married. Do you believe it?"
"I don't believe it."
I really don't believe that Qi Yu is the man arranged by Zhang Yao's father, and Zhang Yao is a woman like a flower, so Qi Yu has no reason not to touch her.
"It's up to you." Zhang Yao did not continue to worry about this topic. She continued: "My life was arranged. Fortunately, he filed for divorce. Fortunately, although the divorce method has greatly lost my reputation, I don't care, because I am about to go crazy and can't stand it anymore. I need to be liberated. To be completely liberated, I am only suitable for living alone!"
She was like a hoarse speaker, speaking to me what she wanted to say but never said.
I am not Zhang Yao, and it is difficult to empathize with it, but I like her and I love her. I can feel that her despair was pitiful and sad.
"You saved me, even if you were the same as him at that time."
"I'm for the money," I said.
"Yes, money, what a wonderful thing."
"sorry."
"Nothing sorry, the previous case was just a drama directed by me."
"you"
Seeing that I was a little surprised, Zhang Yao gently pinched my arm, "Do you want to finish listening to me?"
"You said, you said."
"Well, it's not easy for you to struggle in Beijing, so I haven't blamed you. The only thing I hate you is that I was acting. That day in the bar, I thought you were really stupid and willing to stand up for me, a rival you once had."
"I just think you are pitiful and can't stand men bullying women."
"Oh, that's it, then I won't say it."
"Sister, it's boring to play like this."
"I'm just interested!"
Zhang Yao looked at me with a smile for a moment, "Chen Mo, let's be together."
"Well"
It is no exaggeration to say that I was stunned, because I couldn't keep up with her thinking and didn't clarify what the motivation for this relationship was. But, the opportunity was in front of me, could I miss it?
I don't want to miss it!
"Okay." I nodded heavily and replied.
Immediately afterwards, I hugged her in my arms again, then stared at her slightly light but very clear lips, and kissed her in the blank space of my mind.
I can be sure that I love her, or that the emotions Zhang Yao just showed were not fun for a while, and she wanted to tease me, even if I couldn't understand why she liked me, it was no exception.
She is stupid.
At least kissing is like this.
I seemed to have eaten the sweetest fruit in this world, absorbed and enjoyed until I started to feel dull and my heartbeat
"Chen Mo, I love you."
"Zhang Yao, I love you too."
Love words, moving.
Everything seemed to be natural. Just when I put my hand on her collar, I was stunned and blamed myself a little, and I was a little afraid of panic. I was afraid of losing her, and I was even more afraid that I would not be able to give Tong Xue an answer in half a year!
That woman has left here in disappointment. So after half a year, will I make her desperate?
Ask yourself, I really can't do it.
What's more, compared to Zhang Yao, Tong Xue may be more suitable for me. At least there is not a big gap between our two families, and her parents can accept me. So what about Zhang Yao?
I haven't seen her parents yet, but I can think of how wealthy her family is.
I am afraid that her parents will ask whether Zhang Yao is with me because of love or because she can help me work hard for thirty years. This is the most realistic question. Any emotion mixed with other things will become no longer pure.
What she wants is pure, and so is what I want.
Under Zhang Yao's gaze, I grinned softly and said, "Girl, I love you very much, but we can't be together now."
Smack
"Bastard, get out of here!"
Chapter completed!