There are many people in this world. The chances of one person meeting another are very slim. But fate made me meet Zhang Yao in Beijing, a city filled with people, and let us fall in love.

But reality won't allow us to be together.

I was very confused, more confused than ever. If Du Cheng or Meng Yang asked me if I love this woman, I would nod without hesitation and tell them that I was going to love crazy.

But when Zhang Yao asked me, I hesitated.

There is no other reason. I think that impure love should not be born in her. It would be unfair to her. This is the only bottom line I want to stick to. Moreover, after I cross this line, what will be waiting for her will be endless worldly ridicule and harm.

I am a man who has been hurt by love, and she is a woman who has been hurt by marriage.

We are all afraid of love and are extremely eager for the sadness hidden behind the seemingly contradictory contradiction between love and being loved, perhaps only we will understand.

Why did Zhang Yao let go of her disguise?

Although she didn't say it, I could know that she was strong and fragile, just a ripe thorny rose with a charming fragrance that needed someone to take care of. It was obvious that reason told me that I was not the right picker.

"I used to scold you bastard, probably because of teasing." Zhang Yao shook her wine glass. This time I didn't stop her and raised her head slightly. She drank all the bloody Mary, and with a bang, she threw the cup to the ground.

The broken wine glass is so dazzling and so ironic under the light. I know that Zhang Yao's dignity has been trampled on by me.

"Chen Mo, you are really a fucking bastard now." She was angry, and two lines of tears hung on her beautiful face. "If you don't love me, don't mess with me. Do you think I'm a silly girl is fun? Or do you think I can't find a man in the huge Sijiu City?"

"You calm down."

"Go and fuck you calm down!"

"Zhang Yao!"

I stood up excitedly, took a big step to her, then pressed her shoulders that began to tremble, and said softly: "It's not that I don't love you, I love you very much. Really, if you ask me when I will start to love you, I can't say this, but I know that now, even in the future, I will love you."

"But we can't be together." I curled my lips helplessly, and I let go of my hand and gestured up and down. "In this realistic city, you stand at the top, and I am just an insignificant ant. Have you ever thought that if we were together, how many people would laugh at me? How many would scold me?"

"I suffered a loss. The last relationship ended. To put it bluntly, I just had no money! I can't buy a house for her on the Third Ring Road, and I can't even pay for a house in the suburbs of Beijing. This is the saddest thing for a man."

"We are all over the age of listening to love. What a simple and beautiful picture that sounds pure as imagined does not belong to us anymore. This makes me despair, really desperate."

After a pause, my nose was a little sour, my eyes were red, and my face turned red, and I smiled dejectedly, "Girl, you are not worthy of a man like me, and you are even an existence that I can't afford. Really, don't like me."

"I don't care!"

Under my astonished gaze, Zhang Yao hugged me tightly. Her body was very soft and her head was fragrant. She buried her chest. "I once thought that I was like this in my life. I had never loved me. After getting married and divorced, I dared not love me. But I always have a habit of playing jokes with people one by one. You are different from those men."

"You are a bastard, and you are a poor little person. You have a conscience, but you like to meddle in other people's business."

"You have never hidden your desire to sleep with me, and you have never really gone to sleep with me." Suddenly, Zhang Yao's right hem pinched the soft flesh on my waist, "Chen Mo, I'm not kidding. I'm very serious. As long as I have been a sure thing since I was a child, I will definitely complete it, so let's be together."

This is the most straightforward and most beautiful love words I have ever heard in the world.

Almost, I said OK without hesitation, then

Kissed her lips naturally.

"Give me some time."

"Um?"

"I can't let her go." I said truthfully, "Some things must be clear to you. When she was in Wuzhen, she told me what to do with me again, but I hesitated. I don't know why, your shadow would appear in my mind at that time, and I was also very messed up at that time, so Tong Xue left, and before she left, she gave me a half-year deadline."

Zhang Yao broke free from my arms and asked, "What about half a year later?"

"Seriously, I don't know either."

"What would you choose?"

""

I hate choices, but everyone wants to give me a choice.

"Chen Mo."

"Um."

"Three months, I will give you at most three months to process it, if you can't handle it well."

Before she could finish her words, I spoke directly, "I will leave by myself when the time comes."

Zhang Yao nodded slightly, without saying anything.

She is a rebellious woman, and her partner will never allow her to be wholeheartedly devoted to her in her emotional world, even if she likes that person no matter how much she likes it.

Zhang Yao left, and the back left behind was no different from Tong Xue. She was so disappointed. But I couldn't muster up the courage to embrace her, so I could only stand in place, watch, and then opened my mouth and couldn't say a word to keep her.

This is my choice, not my choice.

Because I have no answer and no explanation.

Sitting down again, I lit a cigarette for myself, the beer bottle fell to my feet, and the Glenfidy in the cup was nothing left, and I seemed to have done something wrong.

It's very messy, both in your mind and in your heart.

It’s not my personality that I’m not sure about, otherwise when I was a lawyer, I wouldn’t have helped Li Zheng so resolutely. But now, what’s wrong with me?

I thought a lot, but couldn't figure it out, so I had to smile dejectedly, then slowly got up, walked to the bartender, and said to the bartender, "Brother, have a glass of vodka."

I need alcohol, and I need alcohol more enthusiastically.
Chapter completed!