Even though I know that there are some things I don’t say now, I don’t have the chance to say them, but I also know that I will say those words now, and after we are together, she will be the one who will be hurt in the end.

I am a mediocre man. If we have a result, then our love is destined to be unwilling to be blessed by others. She is so outstanding, dazzling like the brightest star in the night sky now. Beijing is one of the most realistic cities in this real world. Instead of facing those things in the years that follow, it is better to make me suffer alone now.

My choice is not unhappy, and I even feel a little selfish, because I no longer have the courage to move forward and face everything, especially after seeing Dong Shuhan's methods today, I found that I was very insignificant and could not help Zhang Yao at all.

So, I can't tell her what I think or confess to her.

After saying this, I was silent, and so was Zhang Yao.

I clearly saw the disappointment in her eyes. She was as smart as hers and must have guessed something, so she chose not to say it.

We just looked at each other. The sea water was less than one meter away. It was very wet. The beach at our feet was soft and there was a little coldness. No one moved.

She was in front of me, and when the sea breeze stopped, I could even feel her breath, which was so far away that it was within reach.

I was a little annoyed, but my rationality made me unable to do anything.

With the wind on my back, I lit the third cigarette of this night. I took a deep breath and sucked into my lungs. Not only was there a faint nicotine that could calm people down, but also the unique salty and fishy smell on the coast, which was refreshing and unable to make people not feel sad.

Whether men or women, they should be emotional at this moment, unless there is no love in their hearts.

Finally, when I was halfway through a cigarette, Zhang Yao moved. She turned around and faced the sea, put her hands together at her mouth, shouting and venting to the other side of the sea.

The voice was hoarse and harsh.

The waves slammed on the beach, like following her, playing a rock music with a sense of despair.

After shouting for a while, she squatted down and held her head with both hands, especially helpless.

At this moment, my heart hurts very much. It was a kind of pain that involved the soul. The fingers holding the cigarette kept shaking off their fucking reason and fucking reality. The best way to love someone should not be fulfilling, but to face it with the courage to face everything on the long journey of life, good and bad.

He sucked the remaining half of the cigarette in one breath and threw it on the beach. When he came, he promised Mr. Qin to protect the beach environment. I left it behind. My mind was empty and a little dizzy now, but I knew what I should do.

I approached her.

He bent down slowly, leaned into her ear, and said softly: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done this."

She didn't say anything, and I continued, "I'm thinking too much, it's ridiculous to say that it's a little bitch who has nothing to do, and I'm worried about losing a lot of things."

At this moment, Zhang Yao finally raised her head and looked at me in confusion. The weakness in her eyes was the first time I saw in her eyes since I came into contact with her!

Taking a deep breath, I looked straight into her eyes, "Our distance is like a sea, I am on the shore, you are on an isolated island in the sea, I can climb up the lighthouse to see you, but I can't touch you, because I don't have a ship leading to that island, I'm very scared and panicked, but I have to admit that I love you very much."

"At this moment, I should admit that I am a greedy man, because I have her in my heart, but that is she who has nothing to do with love. Some of them are just memories, about youth and beautiful memories, ridiculous and hateful."

I paused, straightened my waist, walked forward a few steps, and just stepped into the sea. Maybe I would only say the next words when I turned my back to her.

"The city of Beijing is really big. I have expressed my feelings to my friends more than once that people like us who struggle to survive in this city are like an ant. We can't have any ideas. We can only fill our ants with endless work. We can't love, hate, cry, or laugh. We can only grit our teeth and walk step by step in that city and endure it.

This is the gap between us, so when I faced the choice you gave me, I was stunned. Girl, we are people in both worlds. Although everyone is talking about equality for everyone, except for birth and death, when did people in this world achieve equality for everyone? No, at least, I have never seen it."

As I was talking, the corners of my eyes were moistened by the sea breeze. When facing my beloved girl, I said something that had been accumulated in my heart for a long time, very depressing and helpless. How difficult it is, only those who have experienced it will understand.

"So you've been scared, right?" Zhang Yao's voice came from behind my ears. I knew that as long as I looked back, I could see her delicate face, but I didn't dare.

I nodded without saying anything.

When I took out the cigarette box and was about to add another cigarette, Zhang Yao spoke again, "Smoke less, it's already very hard, don't tear your body down."

I hesitated for a moment, stuffed the cigarette into the cigarette box, and then threw the remaining cigarette into the sea. Seeing it gradually disappear, I said quietly: "I'm waiting for a woman who is willing to persuade me to quit smoking, are you willing?"

“s?”

This time, I turned around and saw her pretty face with a smile, "That choice, I have the answer, and this afternoon, I have the answer. Everything in this world has passed is the past, and the sun can rise as usual. What reason do I have to not welcome a new love?"

"I love you, let's be together." I smiled and said, "If you don't dislike me as a mediocre man."

"Are you a confession?"

"What about that?"

"Then why don't you have a rose, a diamond ring?"

"I"

Yes, this confession was a bit abrupt, without any preparation, and even these words were tangled for a long time before they could say them.

"However, your method is very strange." Zhang Yao showed a smile that was enough to make the moonlight in the sky lose its color, and said, "Chen Mo, when I let you make a choice, it is enough to prove how much I like you. I am a real woman and have passed the age of naiveness. I have been thinking about you for a long time. If you want to ask me why, I can only tell you that this is fate."

As she said that, she opened her arms and said, "Let's be together."
Chapter completed!