At this moment, I really want to ask Zhang Yao if she has ever loved me.

If so, why are you so calm when you say this? If not, why do you smile so sweetly when you are together? They are all complex sensory animals, but Zhang Yao is far from this boundary.

Stubborn and indifferent.

At this moment, I seemed to understand why Dong Shuhan turned from her friend to her enemy.

She is too rational. Whether it is love or friendship, when dealing with these emotions, she is not like a person. Only the high-ranking god can remain sober enough when dealing with problems that arise in the emotions.

I really want to smile and say to her softly, girl, stop making trouble, we still love each other, why should we say what is suitable or unsuitable?

But the muscles at the corner of my mouth were no longer under my control, and the same was true for my throat. I could only maintain my current expression, looking at her with no sadness or not, opening my mouth and blurting out the sound was so hoarse again:

"You're kidding, are you?"

Self-esteem and reason are no longer important at this moment. I only want her, as long as the woman in front of me can give me a hug and tell me that those just now were just angry words.

But, Zhang Yao didn't.

She shook her head and said calmly: "Chen Mo, I'm tired, you're tired too. At this time, only separation is the most responsible decision for each other. I hope you can meet a girl who is truly suitable for you in this city, not a woman like me who is blank and extremely sensitive in the emotional world."

"I just want you, okay?"

There was a burning pain in my throat. This feeling only happened after I hangover. The pain at this moment was not caused by external forces. After saying this, I swallowed and began to look directly into her eyes.

I can't escape, and I don't want Zhang Yao to escape too.

This is to retain it, and it is also a plea.

For the first time in history, I dedicated it to Zhang Yao. In the autumn two years ago, the night when Tong Xue left, I didn’t say this, but at this time, I said it.

Because I love her, I love her to the point where I cannot accept the loss.

The things I let go earlier were enough to be sad. If I let go this time, I am really worried that my parents in the small town would receive news from the police telling them that I had left this world.

I thought of death, and after she left, I would die.

This feeling is very strong, and it will only appear after you love it thoroughly.

"Our biggest mistake is torture each other." Zhang Yao's voice finally fluctuated and she began to choke:

"Now, we realize this problem, why do we still have to stick to it? You just asked about the meaning of my circle of friends. Now I will tell you that I am saying goodbye to you. I want to say goodbye to you, Chen Mo, goodbye."

I wanted her to laugh, but she burst into tears at this moment.

I want to give her a future, but we seem to have no future.

In my heart, she is my home in this glitzy city, but she is finally going to become a passerby in my life.

"I understand, don't cry. I came to you today because I was just worried about what stupid things you did. Now, seeing your safety, I feel relieved. Don't cry, please."

Watching her shoulders gradually trembling, my heart hurts more and more.

If we are separated is the best decision, I have to accept it.

Two people torture each other, it’s better than me licking my wounds alone, right?

"goodbye."

After saying that, I dare not stay for one more second, turn around and leave.

It’s not because of dignity, not because of being unbearable, nor because I don’t love anymore, just because I simply don’t want to make things difficult for her and don’t want to see her tears.

The moment she cried, I realized that if we continue to make trouble like this, the bonds and torture between us will be even deeper. I can't give her what she wants. We have all pursued purity, but it's not

After our two definitions of pureness, they are two extremes.

I was very sad and didn't dare to look back at her.

I don’t know if she turned around and left like me, I don’t know if she wiped away all the tears, and I don’t know that, and they have nothing to do with me.

I finally lost her.

At two o'clock in the morning in Beijing, there were only a few vehicles on the road, and there were no one on the sidewalk. The moon was very round and the stars were blocked by neon lights. All this had nothing to do with me.

I don't know which direction I'm walking, I'm lost.

My heart and the way home have lost their direction.

Finally, I began to collapse.

Without anyone, I can cry loudly and completely vent the heart-wrenching pain. I am like an abandoned child, in this huge city, without a sense of security and no sense of belonging.

I don't belong to anyone, nor do I belong to myself.

Her reason and my stubbornness all turned into tears.

I didn't show off, and at such moments, I don't need to show off, right?

At this moment, I had something left. There was no one around me, and there was nothing else except the neon lights that squinted my eyes. I raised my head, letting tears flow down my cheeks, and then stared at the bright moon.

It is really like her, all so pure and so fire-free.

I pulled the corners of my mouth and said to myself, "It's so fucking embarrassing. Isn't it just a broken heart? It's not like this at all."

I raised my hand and wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, but I felt so fucking uncomfortable. When the taste of something coming out of my body came again, I realized that I had been in this city for five years, and the girl around me left and came again, but in the end I had nothing.

Should I leave?

But what should Wang Yuxuan do if I leave now? She is like my sister. Now no one can take care of her except me. This sense of responsibility gives me a reason to stay.

But, it's not enough.

Can anyone tell me what to do?

I needed an answer, but the person I unilaterally recognized as the answer gave an answer that I could not accept.

Buzz”

The phone vibrated at this moment. I didn’t have to look at it. I knew it would be the silly girl waiting for me at home. After thinking about it, I still didn’t have the courage to answer it. At such helpless and fragile times, I didn’t want to face anyone.

Even if she is someone close to me, she is no exception.

Shaking my head, I no longer paid attention to it and let it vibrate in my hands.
Chapter completed!