Chapter 494: Panic and Uneasy
"No need to say anything, after all, I am not yours either."
Tong Xue hugged her shoulders with her arms, stood in front of me like this, and said in a very calm tone.
This indifferent look made me instantly turn into a deflated balloon. The courage had already dissipated in the wind in the night. I couldn't understand why Tong Xue was like this.
Crying or laughing, quarrel or making a fuss; it should be the most normal state she has after hearing what I said, rather than the indifference she is now.
Before I came to find her, I performed many scenes in my mind, but I never thought of this scene.
Does she care?
In my opinion, no. In this world, except herself, no one knows her better than me. The reason why she shows such a calm look must be that something in her heart is difficult to express, so Tong Xue makes herself look like this.
Thinking of this, I let out a long sigh and finally spoke to Tong Xue:
"What I said really has nothing to do with you now...but it has a lot to do with you and us in the future."
"What are you talking about?"
Upon hearing this, I asked Tong Xue directly: "What I said is not clear enough? Or are you pretending to be confused by it?"
"I......"
Tong Xue opened her mouth and finally stopped her words.
Furthermore, we fell into silence in front of the Inn in Water Town. In this long and short time, many people passed by us: there were tourists who had just come to Wuzhen to visit and handle accommodation, and there were also residents who went out of the Inn to prepare for nightlife...
Perhaps because he realized that he was being watched, Tong Xue finally took action.
She started her steps towards the street next to the inn, and said as she walked, "Go to the bridge and bridge."
She didn't turn around and return to the inn! This was the thing I was most worried about just now.
I felt happy in my heart.
I followed her and walked towards the bridge.
......
The bridge is still those two bridges.
The mottled traces of time are vicissitudes and quaint, and the night casts a veil of mystery on them. Several couples have walked past them, and for hundreds of years, they have become accustomed to it.
I have witnessed the breakup and reunion of countless young men and women, including me and Tong Xue.
For the third time this year, we have stood here again.
In this situation and this scene, I unconsciously opened my mouth and said to Tong Xue: "Xiaoxue, I know you must be disappointed in me... But I, Chen Mo, can guarantee that I have not done anything that goes against my conscience or loses the bottom line in the past few days."
When Tong Xue heard my words, she turned sideways. The breeze gently blew her tips, and she raised a slightly helpless smile:
"You should know that I proposed to come here just because I didn't want us to be in front of the inn like a monkey show. I've already told you very clearly, you don't have to explain anything to me."
"I expressed it clearly. I am explaining to you in the future... To be precise, you will be in three months." I maintained my stubbornness, looked straight at Tong Xue's eyes that were moist in the night, and said firmly.
"The future is too far and I haven't come. It's too early for you to say this now."
"What do you mean?" I looked at her in confusion, and unconsciously became angry. "I can understand what you mean, even after three months, everything I do has nothing to do with you?"
"Isn't it? Even if three months later, I will tell you, what can I do if I stick to what I am going to do? ... You are still you, and I am still me."
"Tong Xue!"
I called her in dissatisfaction, and my chest was fluctuating violently.
At this moment, I finally couldn't control my emotions. I rushed back from Qinhuangdao, and before I could eat a bite, I went to Wenbin to inquire about some news, and then came to find her.
Even if the courage is sometimes lacking, she was not made by me by myself, but isn’t the established facts that are currently unchangeable?
I can understand Tong Xue’s initial indifference because I understand her. But now, I can’t understand her... She is really a bit indifferent.
This kind of indifference is obviously resisting me.
I can't figure it out. Tong Xue had told me almost directly before that she would let me know what she was going through now in three months, and then we would join hands again.
But, what is what I am experiencing now? Are you dreaming?
I am sure that I am extremely sober and also know that we are in the middle of reality. What is Tong Xue talking about? She said that even after three months, she told me what I was suffering, it does not mean that she is still her, and I am still me!
This is a thousand miles away from what I imagined, about the future, about the rest of my life.
Even everything I have lived now is not as I thought in my old days, and it completely out of my control... The initiative has fallen into Tong Xue's hands.
Before I knew it, I became a suspect waiting for the verdict, and she was a judge sitting in the center.
In this lawsuit about love, I lost, and I lost in no way.
Tong Xue used the most direct and unconcealed method to directly sentence me!
With difficulty, I asked Tong Xue directly: "Are you still each other? ... Then why are you willing to be morally kidnapped by my mother? Why are you staying in Wuzhen and devoted yourself to my career?
Tong Xue, you can deceive others, but you can't deceive me... If your thoughts are really as calm as you appear, you will have left long ago."
"I'm just doing what I want to do, and if you misunderstand, then sorry, I'm causing you trouble."
"What's the meaning?"
"I'll leave."
"You said you'll stay here for a long time."
"I also said that I will be with you for the rest of my life... Do you think I did it?"
Tong Xue smiled and continued, "Chen Mo, we are all adults, don't be so childish. Promising such things is really not that important."
She is enlightening me?
That's right, she was just enlightening me, to be precise, preaching!
In the middle, what kind of process went wrong? Or did Tong Xue have something happened to me during the period when I was not in Wuzhen? She had to show this way?!
I have absolutely reason to speculate in this way. After all, the conversation between us has turned from what I did, to what I have done, to what is about the future, about three months later, between us.
The change is so fast that it catches people off guard.
Chapter completed!