All my memories of the age of four are gone.

What they were taught since childhood was that they were chosen, and were chosen to serve the royal family and serve the supreme emperor. In a white room, there were many children like him, who received rigorous training from walking to sitting posture to speaking. If they showed even a little aggressive behavior and unstable state, they would be considered as unqualified and sent away.

No one knows what will happen after being sent away.

Their bodies have been transformed and will not develop sexual desire, and they will feel weak in their feelings about happiness or pain. Loyalty to the empire and royal family is firmly engraved in their spirits. If it is the order of the master, even if he dies, he will not hesitate at all.

But this kind of engraving will gradually loosen as you grow older. Once you gain enough knowledge and experience, you will doubt and resist. Humans are such creatures.

At the age of twelve, he left the white house and was sent to the palace, becoming the most ordinary errand eunuch. The lowest errand eunuchs are almost all children of similar age. They imitate adults and have divided the high and low status within. He was divided into the lowest and was bullied.

He didn't quite understand and found it boring.

At the age of sixteen, he was sent to the Hidden Palace to serve the widow of the late emperor, Concubine Mei. Concubine Mei had a son and a daughter for the late emperor. She was only thirty when the late emperor passed away. She was the best time for a woman, but she was locked in the Hidden Palace and could not even meet her biological children again.

Waynedu thought she was pitiful.

But she didn't think so.

She likes to watch soap operas on the light website, likes to buy things randomly, and likes to cook some strange dishes by herself. She also shoveled the flowerbed in the yard and transformed it into a vegetable field to grow the cabbage she likes to eat.

She bought a lot of messy things and transformed the Hidden Palace into a mess. The Hidden Palace was equipped with an automatic temperature and humidity regulator, and there were automatic cleaning robots everywhere, there were smart assistants in the kitchen, and the housekeeper-type artificial intelligence robots that were with her for 24 hours... This made Wayne and the others embarrassed because they had almost nothing to do.

But she said, since it is something that machines can do, why do people need to do it?

She also said, if you are bored, you can go to Guangwang to play, just like she is missing a few younger brothers when playing online games.

She always looks so happy.

But Wayne Du knew that she was actually very lonely. She would also be drunk and hid secretly by herself, and would buy clothes for boys and girls that were not available at all.

Later, he discovered that the people in this palace were actually very lonely.

Even the supreme emperor, Emperor Yu Wen, was surrounded by only a few eunuchs when he died.

After Emperor Yu Wen's death, several of the personal eunuchs who served him committed suicide, but only Wayne Du did not. The new emperor was very interested and called him to ask him why he did not commit suicide?

Waynedu said that he didn't know, but he seemed to not want to die.

There is no rule in the palace that if the master dies, the eunuchs will die with him, but most eunuchs will lose the will to survive after the master dies. Generally speaking, the longer the service, the more common this phenomenon is, but Waynedu violated this law twice in a row. When Concubine Mei died, he did not die, and when Emperor Yuwen died, he did not die.

Wayne Du thought the new emperor would send him to "repair and repair". This is a self-deprecating statement between their eunuchs, meaning that they are like machines. If something is found to have a problem, they will be sent back to the factory to re-commission and repair. When Concubine Mei died, he had been sent to "repair and repair" once, and was not unfamiliar with that process.

The new emperor promoted him to be the eunuch in charge, the eunuch in charge in the empress's harem.

Everyone knows the love between the emperor and the empress, and Wayne Du also becomes a "popular person".

After so many years of experience in the palace, he has long been calm and unlucky, and has been living a stable life with his duty of being cautious and cautious. Even if he saw with his own eyes the terrifying love and hatred entanglement hidden under the appearance of the emperor and empress, he never explored the queen and was drowned in despair and pain day after day, and would not meddle in other people's business. Sometimes Wayne Du would think with a self-deprecating self-deprecating thought, maybe he was the eunuch who was most afraid of death in this palace.

Three years after giving birth to the prince, the queen finally died.

Waynedu still didn't want to die. The great palace maid who served the queen accused him of being a heartless monster before his death, and he had no special feelings. His Majesty the Emperor was in pain, and Waynedu could see that it was painful... So he never understood why His Majesty the Emperor sent him to the Queen, knowing that he was a not loyal slave, and for his life he could ignore his master's pain.

Then the emperor handed over the little prince to him.

Waynedu thought that it would be better for him to change someone, because he did not have the "sincerity". The child is sensitive, and the prince is neither close to him nor dependent on him. This is exactly the result Waynedu wants, because in this way, he can calmly ignore the other party's pain and be his slave.

The prince grew up and there were many people around him. The other palaces became no longer deserted, and the prince had a real smile on his face.

Wayne Du was very distressed.

He had been trying to keep a distance, but before he knew it, he seemed to be pulled into the circle full of happiness. Unlike pain, the happiness radiated from the prince easily penetrated his defense and infected him.

One day, the prince suddenly told him that you smiled much more naturally than before.

Wayne was shocked.

They are eunuchs, transformed machines, slaves, not humans. Human emotions will cause problems. If they cannot receive "repair" in time, they will die.

The prince didn't understand that the happiness he shared with him was the greatest poison [drug]. Wayne Du respected Zhu Yan not only because of the kindness of the clothes. Among them, there were a very few outstanding people who could withstand unimaginable pain and pressure and transform into humans. Wayne Du knew that he did not have such a weapon. The only difference between him and other eunuchs was that he was better at evading danger than them.

Waynedu thought that he might have applied for 'repair'.

However, the White Queen was dead.

The tiny happiness belonging to the prince collapsed overnight. Looking at the little prince who was in pain, Wayne Du seemed to have returned to the past. It was also him, watching the queen's despair and pain indifferently... He is a slave, loyal to the empire and the royal family, so he can't say anything or do anything.

Humans are really strange.

They have all kinds of intense emotions, they will cry and laugh, and love and hate that they cannot understand. Eunuchs like Wayne Du who have enough experience will try to disguise themselves as humans, because they are ‘anomies’, among humans, ‘anomies’ will be rejected and disgusted.

But no matter how disguised he is, he is not a human being.

After many years, His Majesty the Emperor summoned him again. Waynedu didn't know what he was capable of. Even if he wanted him to die, there was no need for this supreme emperor to come to see him in person and tell him--for the sake of the prince, I want you to die.

...Are you worried that he doesn't want to die yet?

Wayne dug the ground and took the order.

He carefully and cautiously carried out the orders of His Majesty the Emperor, and then calmly waited for his death to come.

He welcomed death with joy.

It was not until this time that he truly realized that all along, he was not afraid of death.

——He just doesn't want to become a human.

"Machines" will not commit suicide, only people will.

It is man who turns them into machines, and it is man who turns them into humans. He has no choice in the former, and he would rather die than follow the latter.

ah.
Chapter completed!