When Gu Can finished crying and said those words, the woman's head was lowered and her whole body was shaking. She didn't know whether it was sadness or anger.
Chen Ping'an gently put down his chopsticks and called out softly, "Gu Can."
Gu Can immediately wiped away her tears and said loudly: "Yes!"
Chen Pingan said slowly: "I will beat you, scold you, and tell you the truths that I have figured out, the truths that make you feel that they are not right at all. But I will not ignore you, and I will not just leave you.
you."
Chen Pingan never turned his head, and his voice was not strong, but his tone was firm. It seemed as if he was saying to Gu Can, but more like saying to himself, "If I leave one day, it must be the one in my heart."
The hurdle has been crossed. If I can't get over it, I will stay here, at Qingxia Island and Shujian Lake."
Gu Can burst into tears and smiled, "Okay! Keep your word, Chen Ping'an, you have never lied to me!"
Chen Pingan suddenly said: "Then we may make an exception today."
Gu Can's heart suddenly rose to his throat. His body, which had just relaxed slightly, became tense again, and his heartstrings were even more so.
Chen Ping'an said: "On the way here, I told you that at the dinner table, I would only listen to you and I would not say it anymore. But after eating this bowl of rice, I felt that I had some strength again, so I planned to talk about it again, but it's still the same.
The rule is, I say, you listen, and if you want to say something later, it is my turn to listen. No matter who is speaking, the person listening, the person speaking or listening, don't be impatient."
Gu Can smiled brightly, scratched his head and asked, "Chen Ping'an, can I go back to the table? I haven't eaten yet."
Chen Pingan nodded, "Eat more, now is the time for you to grow taller."
Gu Can wiped his face and walked to the original position. He just moved his chair and moved it closer to Chen Pingan. He was afraid that Chen Pingan would regret it, turn around and leave the house and Qingxia Island.
, then he can stop Chen Pingan faster.
Then Gu Can ran to fill a bowl of rice by himself. After sitting down, he started to lower his head to eat the rice. Ever since he was a child, he liked to imitate Chen Ping'an. He ate like this and held his sleeves like this. At that time, it was freezing cold.
In the winter, two paupers, one big and one small, who have no friends, like to wrap their sleeves with their hands to keep warm. Especially after building a snowman, the two of them will wrap their sleeves together, shiver together, and then laugh and laugh at each other.
.When it comes to the ability to curse and hurt others, Gu Can, who had two runny noses at that time, was already much better than Chen Pingan, so it was often Chen Pingan who had nothing to say to Gu Can.
Chen Pingan glanced at Gu Can, then turned his head and said to the woman: "Aunt, if there is another child lingering outside the door today, will you still open the door and give him a bowl of rice? Will you still follow him deliberately?
He said, this bowl of rice is not given for free, but must be repaid with the money from selling medicinal herbs?"
The woman carefully considered the preparation.
Chen Ping'an thought to himself and said, "I don't think I know how to do it anymore."
"Of course, I don't think Auntie is wrong. Even if we leave aside the environment of Shujian Lake, and even if Auntie didn't do this that time, I don't think Auntie did something wrong."
"So I will never forget that bowl of rice in my life. It also gave me, Chen Ping'an, a little peace of mind. I felt that I was not the beggar my mother told me not to be. Instead, I owed money to my aunt first, and then I had to eat it."
After dinner, I will definitely be able to pay it back."
The woman turned her head and wiped the corners of her eyes.
Chen Pingan asked calmly: "But Aunt, have you ever thought that without that bowl of rice, I would never give that loach to your son? You may still be living in Mud Bottle Lane now, and you feel that it is very difficult."
Poverty is a difficult life. Therefore, good will be rewarded with good and evil will be punished with evil. We still have to believe in it. We cannot just believe that good will be rewarded with good and forget that evil will be rewarded with evil when we are living a stable life today."
"What I said today, do you think it's right?"
The woman still wept silently and did not say yes or no.
She was afraid that no matter what she said today, it would be bad for her son Gu Can's future.
So she would rather not say a word.
Chen Pingan understood this, so even when Gu Can told the woman about her choice regarding the little loach, Chen Pingan still didn't have any resentment.
If you should be grateful, be grateful for the rest of your life.
Whatever happens later, whether it is right or wrong, cannot cover up the earliest kindness. Just like a heavy snowfall in my hometown, no matter how thick the snow is on the dirt road of Mud Vase Lane, after the spring comes, it is still the same Mud Vase Lane.
The familiar road at the door of every house in the lane.
The only difference is that Chen Pingan has gone a long way and learned not to impose his own principles on others.
That's why he was willing to listen carefully to all Gu Can's teachings and all the inner thoughts of the little slug at the dinner table today.
Chen Ping'an squeezed out a smile and said, "Don't worry, Auntie, I won't force Gu Can to learn from me. There's no need to do this. I don't have the ability. I just want to try and see if I can do something, something that Gu Can and I can do today."
They all think it is 'right'. I will stay here and I will not delay Gu Can's protection of you, nor will I ask you to give up your hard-won wealth."
Chen Pingan asked: "Is it okay?"
The woman looked hesitant, but finally nodded with difficulty.
Chen Ping'an just sat like that, without picking up the pot of Wu Ti wine on the table or taking off the sword-raising gourd from his waist. He said softly: "Tell Auntie and Gu Can some good news. Although Uncle Gu is dead, in fact
...It’s not really dead. He is still alive because he has become a ghost, but this is a good thing after all. I came to Shujian Lake this time because he took a big risk and told me that you are not here.
'Everything is worry-free'. That's why I'm here. I don't hope that one day, because of Gu Can's actions, your family of three finally had a chance to be reunited, and one day it suddenly disappears. My parents
They all once said that Uncle Gu was the man in the alleys near us who was most worthy of my aunt. I hope that Uncle Gu, a good man from Mud Bottle Alley back then, who could write beautiful Spring Festival couplets, would be nothing like
Farm men, men who are more like scholars, are also sad."
The woman covered her mouth and burst into tears.
This time, it is the most sincere and the most irrelevant thing.
Chen Pingan said slowly: "Aunt, Gu Can, plus me, the three of us have all suffered a lot from others' unreasonableness. We are not those who have no worries about food and clothing since we were born. We are not those who
As long as you think about it, you can be a well-educated family. There will be times in this life when my aunt and I are almost unable to survive. Aunt must be alive only for Gu Can, and I am alive to give my parents some air. We are both
I had to grit my teeth to get through it. So we know better what the word "not easy" is. Having said that, at this point, Gu Can, the youngest, is better than the two of us after leaving Mud Bottle Alley.
This is even more difficult, because at this age, he is already living an even more difficult life than me and his mother. Because no matter how poor my aunt and I are, and no matter how hard our lives are, we are still not like Gu Can, who has to live every day.
What I’m worried about is death.”
"But this does not prevent us from asking 'why' when life is the most difficult, but no one will come and tell me why, so maybe after we think about it, we will often get slapped again tomorrow. After a long time, we will
I will not ask why anymore, because thinking about these things is of no use at all. When we are trying to survive, it seems that if we think a little more, it is all wrong, ourselves, others, and the world is wrong. The world gives me a punch, and I rely on it
Why not give the world a kick? Everyone who has been here seems to have become the unreasonable person he was back then, and is less willing to listen to other people's reasons, because he will also become indifferent and always feel that if he is soft-hearted, he will not be able to hold on to the present.
I'm even more sorry for the hardships I suffered in the past! Why did the school teacher prefer children from rich families? Why did my parents have to be looked down upon by the neighbors? Why could my peers afford paper kites? I could only watch from the sidelines.
Wait, why do I have to work so hard in the fields while so many people are enjoying the happiness at home, and when I meet them on the road, they don’t even look at me? Why do I have to work so hard for others to have it as soon as they are born?
Oh, that person doesn’t know how to cherish it? Why can other people’s families be reunited every Mid-Autumn Festival?"
"I don't know why this is the case. I don't know what it was like a hundred years ago or ten thousand years ago, and I don't know whether the world has changed for the better or for the worse. I have read a lot of books
, I know some truths, but the more I know, the less sure I am that the truths I have come up with are definitely correct and will definitely make myself and the people around me live a better life.
Before I got here, I thought I could live a better life by being with a little girl. But after seeing Gu Can, I thought maybe I was wrong. That little girl could live a better life just by being with me.
Better, not necessarily because I taught her those principles to make her life easier and better."
"Who doesn't want to live, live well, and think that every tomorrow will be better than today? I thought about it too, when I was in Mud Bottle Alley, on the way to Sui Academy, to Old Dragon City, to Xuanxuan
Mountain, to Tongyezhou, to Ouhua Paradise, and on the way to my hometown, I thought about it all the time! But there is no highest truth in the world, there should always be the lowest right and wrong, right? Even in order to survive, we must do
There are many, many things that have to be done, but there is always something right and something wrong, right?”
Gu Can stopped his chopsticks and fell into deep thought.
The woman looked at Chen Pingan, then at Gu Can, "Chen Pingan, I'm just a woman who has never read and doesn't know how to read. I don't understand so much, don't think so much, and can't care about so much. I
I just want Gu Can to live well, and my mother and I to live well. It is also because we came here that we have this opportunity today. We will live until you, Chen Pingan, tell our mother and father that my husband, Gu Can’s father, is still alive, and that
An opportunity for family reunion, Chen Ping'an, can you understand what I say? Don't you blame me for my long hair and short knowledge?"
Chen Pingan nodded and said: "It's understandable, I won't blame aunt."
The woman looked into Chen Ping'an's eyes. She poured herself a glass of wine, drank it in one gulp, poured another glass, and drank it again. "You come to see Can'er. No matter what you said, Can'er will be very happy."
, I want to have a drink, I want to have a drink too, we are all happy when you tell us this news."
The woman poured a third glass of wine, and after finishing it, she said with tears in her eyes: "I see you Chen Pingan, you have grown taller, grown up, and are safe. Auntie wants to drink a glass of wine, so I will do it for your parents."
I feel happy."
Chen Ping'an picked up the jug, poured himself a glass of wine, and drank it.
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In the high-rise building of Chishui City, Cui Chan tutted and said, "You have long hair but short knowledge? This woman from Mubo Alley is not so powerful. No wonder she can partner with Liu Zhimao and teach a guy like Gu Can."
While Chen Pingan followed the two carriages into the city, Cui Dongshan had been pretending to be dead, but when Chen Pingan showed up to meet Gu Can, Cui Dongshan had actually opened his eyes.
Everything after that, like Cui Chan, Cui Dongshan saw it with his eyes and heard it with his ears.
Cui Chan smiled and said: "What Chen Pingan said is just in vain. Even if they are both from Mu Ping Alley, they both know the taste of suffering at first. But now Gu Can and Chen Pingan are two completely different people, not only in terms of different positions
That's all, and how they view the world...the fundamental context is very different. Chen Pingan can empathize with Gu Can, that's just because Chen Pingan has taken a longer path, but Gu Can has not. For him,
To be continued...