Yingzi felt that the pain in her family was caused by herself.

This made her very painful and at the same time very guilty.

She actually wanted to tell her family and confess to her mother and others that she would always be a member of this family.

She will never become estranged from her family, or even become farther and farther away from her family, just because her relatives find her.

However, she finally gave up the idea of ​​confessing her love.

Because she discovered that this kind of ideological thing cannot be changed by just talking about it.

Language is pale after all.

The more you express your love to your family in this way, wouldn't it show your specialness in this family?

Wouldn't that just make it look less like a family?

Because the relationship between family members needs your confession to maintain it.

It will appear more fragile.

This is not the effect she wants.

What we want is the feeling of being a family that comes from the bottom of our hearts and has no grudges or estrangements.

If she wants to get this feeling back, she actually has a mature solution in mind.

However, she felt too far away.

Don't know how to implement it?

I don’t even know if it can be achieved?

The solution is: marry the eldest brother.

Applying the expectations of grandparents and mothers in the past, that is: consummate the marriage.

As long as you become your eldest brother, you will no longer be afraid of any relatives coming to your door.

Because I am already a member of the Lao Liang family, and my blood relatives are just my relatives.

She couldn't tell anyone in her family about this idea.

The only thing I can say is Yufen.

Her best friend Tian Yufen graduated from college last year and was assigned to a winery in the county.

Now Yufen already has a partner.

Her partner's name is Yu Peihua, and they are high school classmates.

Of course, Yu Peihua and Yingzi are also classmates.

Yu Peihua and Yu Fen were not admitted to the same university, but they happened to be assigned to the county winery when they were assigned.

Because we are old classmates, we got to know each other better when we were in school and had a good impression of each other.

My old classmates who were assigned to the winery were extremely affectionate when they met, and they became friends as soon as they went back and forth.

After the Chinese New Year this year, the two confirmed their relationship.

Before confirming the relationship, Yufen once wrote a letter to seek Yingzi's opinion.

Yingzi said she had no objection and she supported Yufen's decision.

Because Yingzi is also an old classmate of Yu Peihua, she also knows Yu Peihua very well and knows that Yu Peihua is a person with quite good qualities.

When they were in County No. 1 Middle School, because they were all children from rural areas below, they had to live on campus.

I usually go home every two or three weeks.

Every time he returns to school from home, Yu Peihua brings a lot of dry food from home.

In most cases, it is pancakes baked for him by his family.

Just fold the pancakes into small squares and fry them in a pan until they are dry.

This is easy to carry and can be stored for a long time without going rancid.

What he ate all year round in school was fried pancakes.

For meals, the family would put some oil and fry shredded pickles for him.

Moreover, there aren’t a lot of fried pickles, and they are often eaten within a few days of coming to school.

He also brought a few whole pickle dumplings, and after eating the fried pickles, he ate the pickle dumplings.

I almost never go to the school cafeteria to get food.

Because his family is very poor and cannot afford food.

Every day I just eat dry pancakes, eat pickles, and study hard.

During morning self-study in the winter, Yu Peihua is always the first to arrive in the classroom.

In order to keep his mind clear, he would wet his hair. His hair was so wet in the winter, and he read with half-closed eyes.

In other words, Yu Peihua is sensible, motivated, and can endure hardships.

His conduct is also quite upright.

So Yingzi knew that Yufen was dating Yu Peihua and felt that he was a trustworthy person who could be entrusted to him for life.

Of course I will express my full support.

What a coincidence, Yu Fen and Yu Peihua got engaged these days, and they are both in their hometown.

Yu Peihua's hometown is in another town. Yufen got engaged to him and returned to her parents' home to live.

They just took a few days off and then went back to work after the vacation.

When Yingzi knew that Yufen was back, she immediately ran to find her as if she was expecting a savior.

He told Yufen all his worries.

The point is that he expressed his long-standing feelings for his elder brother.

Especially now that my relatives have found me, this has subtly created a gap between me and my family.

She believes that only if her eldest brother marries her can this gap be completely eliminated.

But, how can I get my eldest brother to marry me?

"But, it seems that our eldest brother has never meant this to you?" Yufen said carefully, looking at Yingzi's face.

She was afraid that speaking too firmly would make Yingzi even more sad.

In fact, Yufen has been confused about the relationship between Brother Okura and Eiko over the years.

As her best friend, Yingzi never concealed her feelings for her eldest brother from Yufen.

Even when she was a teenager, not yet the age for romance, she told Yufen bluntly.

She is the child bride of the old Liang family, so of course she is the eldest brother's wife.

Later, the eldest brother got engaged to Huang Qiuyan. On the day of the engagement, Yingzi's life was worse than death. She went to the small house in the wild and cried all day long.

Fortunately, Song Qiguo caused trouble and disrupted her eldest brother's marriage. Yingzi was very happy.

But when she saw that her eldest brother's marriage was broken up and he still had no plans to marry a child bride, Yingzi hugged Yufen and cried more than once.

Later, the eldest brother almost confirmed his relationship with Accountant Zheng from the woodwork factory, and Yingzi could only hold Yufen in her arms and cry.

What happened again and again made Yufen firmly realize that Brother Okura really had no intention of marrying Eiko.

She discussed this issue with Yingzi more than once.

Yufen thinks that Brother Okura regards Yingzi as his own sister.

There is no such thing as love between brothers and sisters.

For example, Yufen has a brother. Take Fugui as an example. She has never regarded her brother as a man.

In other words, in her eyes, both brother and sister have no gender.

Brother and sister are just called differently, there is no other difference.

When waking up in the morning, the elder sister can lift her own bedclothes, and the elder brother can still lift his own bedclothes.

To be precise, there is no such concept of "sex" naturally between brothers and sisters.

Therefore, Yufen believes that the reason why Brother Okura chose to stay far away from the near and ignored Yingzi's feelings for him was because he was too close to Yingzi.

He completely regarded Yingzi as his biological sister, so he would not regard her as a woman.

Instead, Yingzi and his three younger brothers Cang regarded him as the same person.

In the past, Yingzi would occasionally be convinced by Yufen's argument.

I think my eldest brother really treats me as his biological sister, so much so that he has no concept of gender.

But the older she grew, the more she realized that this was not the case.

Of course, whether she treats her eldest brother or his eldest brother treats her, they regard each other as the closest person in the world.
To be continued...