Chapter 39: Empty Heart(1/2)
"Are you two free?"
A slightly dissatisfied voice sounded in the car, and then another voice responded, "It's really free. There is nothing that needs to be done these days."
He went on to add, "Jeffrey gave both me and Burlogo permission to leave until this guy was promoted to a power bearer."
An arm was stretched out from the driver's seat and he patted the co-pilot's shoulder hard. The co-pilot's eyes were looking out the window, and Boluogo was not interested in joining the conversation.
"The one with the power?"
A surprised voice came from the back seat, and Church poked his head over, looking at the side face of Boluogo in surprise.
"Are you going to be promoted to the person in charge of power?"
Boluogo turned his head and replied, "Well, haven't I mentioned it before?"
"No," Church was silent for a moment, "Maybe you said it and I forgot."
"Bologo can rely on his undead characteristics to do whatever he wants, and this guy's soul is surprisingly stable. Coupled with his previous achievements, and the new... training plan proposed by the Bureau of Order."
Both of them hate doctors, but for different reasons. Church knows that no matter how little or how detailed I talk to the doctor, when I release my secret power, we will forget everything.
"Sometimes you will feel sad and sad. You feel that you agree to something because it is 'meaningless'. It is really disgusting. But when things really come to you, you can't find any motivation.
There's no point in denying that."
"Instead of scolding you, it's his...it's his turn to perform, Church."
Palmer nodded, "I understand Church. Every time I go to see a psychiatrist, I feel like I'm on the execution ground."
Church paused and asked Palmer something else, "Palmer, does he remember what kind of person he was when he was a kid?"
Afia parked the car, rolled up the window and looked towards the street. The fragrance of flowers hit her face. I turned to look at the front seat and said, "He said you talked about it all the way. He couldn't even think of running away at that time."
Palmer sighed deeply, "I don't know when I will become the person in charge."
He Lihao was silent. I know that all training plans are fake. This is just what Nathaniel said to the outside world. I am good at lying. The worst way to deal with it is not to remain silent.
He Lihao thought that He Li was able to break through that obstacle at the psychological level, but only Qiu Qi knew that I was bound by my own secret power. The more I know the true information about myself, the more likely I will be the last time my secret power was activated.
Sometimes, forget things that have nothing to do with you.
"Don't look so gloomy. He's going to see Gardel soon. Smile."
"It doesn't mean that outside of that period of time, you will haunt you like a ghost."
"Your advice on this is to seek professional advice," Church said. "It's hard to get around that kind of stuff by yourself."
Qiu Qi said, "You gradually develop a habit of coming to buy a flower every once in a while. When the frequency becomes less and less, He Lihao starts talking to you, and you become more and more unfamiliar until you find that feelings have emerged.
changed.
"What?"
Afia's voice lowered, and I took a long breath before saying, "Hey, you thought there was nothing wrong with you mentally."
"So that's what it is!"
"It's difficult to understand yourself. Very few people can see clearly what kind of person they are in their lifetime."
"Why?"
Palmer said, "It's a very irrational analysis."
"What you don't have is time."
As Church talked, he seemed to have let go of his psychological defense, and chatted with Palmer about my mood at this time.
"You thought he left the city."
As if by chance, Church muttered to himself, "He guessed this was the first time you and Afia had met."
"That sounds so vain."
"Yes, there is something."
"You think emotions are emotional and blind, and overly rational thinking will make you more utilitarian..."
silence.
He Lihao's eyes flashed, "Have you ever been to such a far place?"
"Well, I've been struggling with some psychological issues recently," He Lihao said, "You should buy some books and try to understand yourself."
"Of course, what Crow's Nest teaches is not to teach you how to become a psychiatrist, but an interrogator. In a very short period of time, you can overcome the target's psychological defenses and dig out what you want. If necessary,
There will also be some incentive measures.”
Church's voice was full of meaning, "meaningless."
Church recalled, "On this day, you were under very little pressure. It would be very wrong to hear others say that it would be wrong to buy yourself a flower and feel the good and bad of life."
Church is a man trapped in lies.
"What is he saying?"
"You go and say hello first."
Palmer felt the emptiness lingering under Church, and I said, "Is that considered a confused sinking?"
"Well... that's right."
It is said that a large number of corpses of soldiers are still hidden in the corners of Iron Ruins, waiting for no one to discover them.
He Li opened the car door, and at this moment Afia walked out of the flower shop. I held a bouquet of flowers in my hand and waved it hard to Qiu Qi. In front of Afia was He Lihao, who stuck his head out.
You looked at Church in surprise.
"Then you left the flower shop and I met you."
Palmer asked rhetorically, "Does he know himself?"
Before he finished speaking, Palmer felt a cold gaze. I looked in the front-view mirror and looked into the eyes of a completely identical face.
Palmer babbled, "You have to deal with things like that on your own. You have tried very few methods, but it still seems to be wrong."
Afia smiled, and I saw through Church, "Just tell me, that guy needs someone to force him, so he will just stay where he is."
Afia was so excited, as if she was the one who wanted to ask He Lihao out next, and it was Qiu Qi. He Li had a serious face, as solemn as a piece of ice just taken out of the freezer.
"You were afraid that you would become an interesting villain, but you ended up becoming that way."
Palmer is very open about his heart to people he knows, and even to strangers and close people, he has a lot of words. Sometimes Palmer will feel that he has the ability to speak.
"What about now?"
As Palmer and I talked about, Church was unable to determine whether his feelings for Gardel were love, or loneliness and futility, a comfort he chose to vent his happiness.
"Hmm... What is the difference between this special place and the outside world? People just live in their own strange land and spend a long time."
"Are you too vague? Is it just vain thoughts or utilitarianism? You have ended some things that you think are meaningful, such as Gadel. There are many problems between you and you. Even if we successfully hold hands, then
How long can it last?"
He Lihao meant that, just as I said, the terrible emptiness lingered deep in my heart. Even if I said those words, my emotions would not change at all.
He Li looked at the flower shop, "You know your problems and you know how to solve them... As long as you don't have a cold love for life, it will be bad."
It felt very strange to chat with the psychiatrist. He had to take the initiative to put down his guard and bring out the most sensitive and dark things... It was difficult for Palmer to do that.
He Lihao raised his eyebrows.
Afiya was in a wonderful mood that night. I even told He Lihao that I might not be depressed anymore, but when I woke up, she was still the same as before.
Palmer said with an envious look in his eyes, "In short, the Bureau of Order has provided him with the resources needed for promotion. Just wait until everything is ready, and Bologo can be promoted."
That big city is not Gardel's world. The Kobolog Empire is as far away as a legend outside the story.
"We didn't know each other in a special way."
"That's right..."
"What happened next?"
"That's right."
Every Ninghua person knows that being a person with power is a clear dividing line. Only when they become a person with power and their body begins to etherify can they truly enter the transcendent realm.
Church knew that Afia knew what those words meant. It was more like when I thought about it, I mentioned, "He has been studying knowledge that has nothing to do with psychology recently?"
All that is in vain.
It’s not like that, there’s no love at first sight, there’s no simple twists and turns, it’s just accumulation over time.”
He Lihao refuted the two people's comments. We often quarreled over similar things. Afia felt that those two guys always looked preoccupied and that their lives were too tiring. Those two people
He felt that He Lihao's carefree lifestyle was too stupid.
say something.
Palmer said, "He can't show his true face to others. It's just Gadel, and Afia is also looking forward to that."
Palmer asked, "And then he met you?"
"Alas for those who have power."
To be continued...