Xiao Xin is such a young child and is seriously ill. When he was not in good condition before, he lived in an ordinary ward. The ward was noisy all day long, and even normal rest could not be guaranteed.

In order to save money on food, clothing, and food, she could only provide him with the best food, but in fact it was extremely simple.

But Xiao Xin was so obedient and sensible, and never complained, but instead comforted her and understood her.

Because I couldn't keep up with my nutrition when I was young, and because of the illness, Xiao Xin now looks much thinner and shorter than normal children of the same age.

Whenever she thinks of this, she feels sorry for Xiao Xin. Such a cute and well-behaved child, if no one saves him, he will not be able to live long.

Now, all the decisions are in her hands. If she can agree to be with that man with her eyes closed and become the man's woman with her eyes closed, then Xiao Xin will be saved.

But……

But, she really doesn't want to!

I don't want it from the bottom of my heart!!!

I felt extremely disgusted at the sight of that man, let alone having a bed with him every day, and having to have close contact with him and fulfilling his husband's obligations?

Jian Anan walked to the bench in the corridor in a daze and sat down, covering his face with his hands.

What exactly should she do?

If she doesn't agree to that man, she will watch Xiao Xin die, but she can't do it.

After promising to that man, she felt that her life was not as bright as death.

Jian Anan bent her head helplessly into her arms.

"What are you doing here? Why don't you go in? Xiao Xin just asked you when you will be back. He misses you very much."

A low and magnetic voice suddenly sounded in his ears, with a smile in his tone. Jian Anan hurriedly raised his head and saw Li Shaoting looking at her with a smile on his lips.

"I... I'll go in and accompany him now." Jian Anan suddenly realized that he seemed a little embarrassed at this moment. He hurriedly cleaned his hair, cheered up, and then wanted to get up and go to Xiao Xin's ward.

"No need, Xiao Xin is already asleep. I plan to go back. If you are fine, can you go and see me off?" Li Shaoting said with a smile.

There was a gentle smile in his eyebrows and eyes, which made Jian Anan unable to refuse.

"Okay, then I'll go see you off." Jian Anan tried hard to pull the corners of his mouth and said with a smile.

She knew that her laughter now was really not much better than crying.

She turned around and walked in front, Li Shaoting looked at her back. He deliberately asked Jian Anan to send him off. He just wanted to take this opportunity to chat with her.

Her recent condition is too abnormal and seems to have encountered a lot of trouble, but she doesn't want to show it, and he can even feel it. She doesn't want people to know that she is in trouble now.

When he came out of Xiao Xin's ward just now, he couldn't forget the scene he saw. Her whole head was buried in her arms, and she looked so fragile and helpless.

Her body was thin and thin, and she shrank into a ball. On the wide bench, in such a quiet and uninhabited environment, she looked very pitiful like a small animal looking for protection.

Just one glance made his heart suddenly hurt. He wanted to know what happened to her.

"I think you are in a bad mood. Have you encountered any trouble? Is it because of Xiao Xin's disease?" Li Shaoting and Jian Anan walked side by side. He spoke first to break the silence between the two people. He looked at Jian Anan and asked, "I heard from Dr. Wang that Xiao Xin's condition has shown signs of worsening, right?"

The two words deteriorate made Jian Anan's heart sink.

After a while, she nodded, "Yes, Dr. Wang said, Xiao Xin needs to have surgery as soon as possible, but I still can't do it for him..."

Halfway through, Jian Anan couldn't continue talking.

After a while of silence, he continued to say, "It's all my fault. Xiao Xin is caused by me. At that time, I didn't want this child and tried my best to abort him. Maybe it was God's punishment of me, a cruel mother, that made Xiao Xin suffer so much and get this disease as soon as he was born."

"How could it be? You are a very dedicated mother and a very great mother." Li Shaoting said to Jian Anan.

Jian Anan looked at Li Shaoting. She was under great pressure. She felt that she was really about to collapse. She had a desperate desire to vent. If she didn't vent, she would really drive herself crazy.

Looking at Li Shaoting's handsome face made her feel relieved. She suddenly wanted to talk to her. Li Shao was the best choice because he was the one who could let her down and trust her.

"I am not a qualified mother. When Xiao Xin was only three months old, she suddenly had a high fever one day. The fever subsided and repeated. I didn't know what was going on at that time. I always thought that I had no experience in taking care of the child and let the child have a fever and cold, so I treated him according to the cold. Later, I felt something was wrong and took him to the hospital for examination. The doctor said he suspected it was leukemia. I felt that the sky was falling at that time."

Jian Anan swallowed even more. Now when she thought of that period, she still felt extremely desperate, as if the whole world had become dark.

After adjusting her emotions, she continued, "I will never forget that day in my life. I took Xiao Xin to have a diagnosis and examination. Seeing that he was so small, lying on the operating table, the doctor used such a thick needle to give him anesthetics on his spine, perform bones and draw the spinal cord. He cried so heartbrokenly, my heart was about to hurt. I didn't know what to do. Xiao Xin was crying in the operating room, and I looked at him through the glass outside the operating room, crying so hard that I couldn't help myself. I kept praying that Xiao Xin would not get this terminal illness, but it didn't go as expected. When the examination results came out, I was completely collapsed, and Xiao Xin was diagnosed with leukemia. At that time, I was alone with Xiao Xin, no one helped me, and no one could even tell me about the panic and fear in my heart. That feeling was very painful when I thought about it now. At that time, I was really desperate and in great pain."

Jian An'an's face was full of sorrow. It was really a mood that she would never forget in her life, that kind of despair that was in a dim sky and the earth.

Li Shaoting looked at her face and felt distress emerged from the bottom of his heart. He could not imagine how Jian Anan survived that time.
Chapter completed!