There is no brain trauma with split headaches, nor the mental decadence of drinking and sleeping.

But it is undeniable that Buck still has quite serious post-war traumatic sequelae, which is the post-traumatic stress disorder called PTSD.

He himself is a military doctor and is responsible for the psychological regulation of other comrades, so he is clearer than anyone else about the harm and treatment procedures of this mental illness. A person who has experienced long-term fighting, flesh and blood, and death will inevitably be troubled when he returns to normal society.

Even the reason why he chose to be a military doctor in the rain of bullets was due to the first killing of Buck who brought a rifle to the battlefield of mercenaries, which made him at a loss and a storm.

Most ferocious birds and beasts in the animal world will not attack their own kind, and killing people is not an easy task for humans. Except for the war period, most people still cannot have such experiences. The scene of taking similar lives, stabbing the tip of a knife into the body, and shooting the beginning of the gun and causing blood to burst out from the chest will cause many people to collapse.

Zhou Xiaoli's mentality when she was defensive and committed crimes in most cities was actually similar. They were all passionate crimes, which was fundamentally different from the need to calmly calculate and kill an individual on the battlefield.

What's more, Zhou Xiaoli was already in a semi-coma and even had her nerves and emotions not under her control at that time, so she would not leave a deep impression in her mind. After waking up, there was no excessive psychological harm except for blood. Of course, Buck filled in at the right time, which helped her turn her attention away. This is why Buck had to find her mother to accompany her as soon as possible, and even later offered the house she just bought for them to live in. If she was not careful in this mentality, she could easily turn her murderous aura into a hostile aura, and this person could easily go on the evil path.

And Buck will never forget the first person who fell down in front of his gun, an Eastern European gunman dressed in civilians. In that extremely complex Caucasian ethnic intertwined area, a river and a mountain may be the hot spots of competition among different ethnic groups. Moreover, political forces incite planning behind the scenes, the dispute actually broke out in two days. Putting down the gun is a farmer, and picking up a gun is a killer. This is the true portrayal of those areas.

It can be said that for seven years, Buck didn't dare to go home because he knew what he had become.

Only by hiding in the company he is familiar with and surrounded by mercenary partners can he survive normally. This is the same reason why many murderous soldiers would rather stay in the military camp for the rest of their lives, because they no longer believe in the outside world. Originally, Buck planned to start a family and start a business there, and was used to having children outside the battlefield before returning to China to pick up his parents.

The countless re-experiences of damage to the battlefield, the subconscious avoidance of familiar scenes, and the unconscious activation of many small details are the three standard symptoms of PTSD.

So when the final thing happened, I couldn't return to the company, and it was hard to imagine that Buck, who returned to his original environment, chose to walk long distances, hoping to use this ascetic behavior pattern to get rid of this symptoms.

But now, from the kidnapping of Mou Chenfei, he has just suppressed that emotion. Once stimulated by certain environment, he will definitely make a very fierce reaction, and may even be a reaction to society, just like the earliest veteran Rambo in "The First Blood", so Buck subconsciously avoids the police. He just wants a peaceful lifestyle.

Zhou Xiaoli is that lifestyle.

The black girl walked into his healing world kindly and fiercely. Even Buck was willing to recall his past passionate hobbies and faced the emotional contact and decoration. The biggest reason was Zhou Xiaoli. This had nothing to do with the length of time of getting to know her or her profoundness. Compared to Fang Lingying, who was actually more in line with her in communication, Mou Chenfei, who was far more suitable for her condition, only this girl happened to give him such courage. At least Buck felt that he had the possibility of trying love now, and he might be able to treat his mental illness without hurting this kind of kind girl.

A military doctor who often acts as a killer from all walks of life and death, such as the storm of the sky and rain, feels that he is actually a little schizophrenic and cannot figure out when he is the real self and when he is playing the role he deserves.

The filial son of a filial son, a cheerful eldest brother, a silent friend, and a passionate lover, so Zhou Xiaoli was a little at a loss, and Fang Lingying found that he had many changes, all from this... Well, mental illness.

In a sense, Buck is a mental illness.

A patient who is self-adjusting and self-repairing is not even sure whether he will devote himself to the feelings of this kind girl, because the loss of love is the most severe re-experience of hurt. Perhaps he himself subconsciously regards love as a yardstick to test whether he has escaped from nightmares?

That's why Buck was a little obedient to Zhou Xiaoli: "Then buy some marshmallows... When will you dye a chestnut color?"

Miss Zhou could already sneer: "Why did you know that I looked good when dyeing chestnuts?"

Buck pretended to be ignorant: "I have really studied abroad and met many other women with hair colors. It suits you very much. My mother will definitely show you the story of me studying in Pheasant University."

Zhou Xiaoli glanced at him, completely doubting the authenticity of the words, and hummed twice: "It depends on your performance. Now I think there are many places worth investigating."

Buck was diligent in making himself more involved: "Would you like to eat some barbecue? Why don't you go back to our slice and eat barbecue? My brother is driving."

The black girl refused to answer at all: "Okay, okay, when it comes to eating, we'll go back, mom is waiting." The two of them, a somewhat ambiguous shared family, said this as if they were a couple, and finally smiled on the girl's face.

Buck naturally obeyed the order.

But after the motorcycle rushed back to the community and parked in the garage, the two of them went upstairs from the garage elevator and leaned in the car and looked up at the flashing floor numbers. Zhou Xiaoli suddenly turned around: "Let's go climbing this weekend?"

Buck actually felt a little grateful: "Okay! Why? Do you like climbing mountains?"

Zhou Xiaoli didn't smile on her face, and turned her head and carefully touched the gap in the black helmet lock from the two helmets that Buck was carrying, and pulled out a long hair!

"Whose hair should be this?"

Just as Buck was about to explain, Zhou Xiaoli reached out and waved her hand: "No matter what the reason, another woman wore your helmet, it was not something to be happy about in my opinion."

With a ding dong, the floor arrived, Zhou Xiaoli walked out with the gladiolus. Buck wanted to make her sweat a little coldly on her back, but the weak physical stress system really didn't respond to such a small stimulus!

Alas, patient.
Chapter completed!