The girl had never read her best friend's diary. When something happened to her best friend, the girl's family came to school to collect the girl's belongings.
Yang Xinlei didn't know what she was thinking, so she kept a diary of her good friend, maybe she wanted to keep it as a souvenir! In a flash... two years passed. In the first few months, the girl still had sexual intercourse frequently.
I wanted to look at the things left by my good friends, but as time passed, I gradually forgot about them...
Today, by chance, this diary fell out of the stack of books again. Yang Xinlei felt that her best friend had been missing for two years anyway. Today, let's open her diary and take a look.
I don’t know why, but Yang Xinlei accidentally opened her good friend’s diary for the first time...
In the front, there are some very simple diaries, recording life, mood, and every bit of things in school. Some of them are really detailed. She even wrote down the new friends she met one day and so on.
In the diary.
She scrolled back and found that this was her accounting area. She also remembered how much money she spent at what time every day. It seemed that she was a very frugal and good child who knew how to control spending, and every day she spent money.
She remembers every amount of money, even a small amount of money, clearly.
Further on, there are some private little secrets.
Yang Xinlei knew that it was not good to pry into some personal privacy, but Yang Xinlei could not resist the idea of seeing it.
Finally... gritted his teeth and made a decision! Don't look...
Lost to look! Embarrassing
Yang Xinlei still opened the private personal records behind the other party.
But when she casually opened a page and read on, Yang Xinlei had an incredible feeling.
This diary is written like this...
The weather is sunny on xx, xx, 2010
Today, I did something bad. My classmate Li Ming had his newly bought pencil case stolen by me. The next day, although I secretly returned it to classmate Li Ming when no one was paying attention,
went into my desk, but...
His pencil case, I really didn’t mean it, I don’t know why? Looking at his new pencil case, I felt an inexplicable impulse in my heart, an inexplicable impulse!
I wanted to suppress all this, but I couldn't. I found that I seemed to be a sinful person. I was a sinful person. I gave my classmate Li Ming a new pencil case that he had saved up and saved money to buy.
Broken.
The next day, I wanted to go to him and apologize, but when I saw how angry he was and how he was crying secretly, I knew that if I told him all this, he would never do it again.
Forgive me and never be friends with me again. I don’t want to lose my friends. I don’t want to... I really don’t want to. I just want to break away from who I am. I want to break away from who I am…
Recalling the previous scene, Yang Xinlei did remember that someone had scratched off all the paint on the surface of Li Ming's pencil case, which made Li Ming angrily swear: "If we find out who did this, he will
He must have peeled off the other person's skin!" Of course, all the students just thought Li Ming was saying harsh words. Even if they were really found, would Li Ming actually peel off the person's skin? It's impossible!
…
Seeing this, Yang Xinlei couldn't help but sigh. She didn't expect that Xiao Ni, whom no one had ever suspected, had done this. Indeed, Xiao Ni was recognized as a "good person" in the class at the time. Who was she with?
They all had a very good relationship, but someone had scratched the paint on Li Ming’s pencil case. He first thought of the boys from Bailin Village in his class, but there was no evidence. Although in the end,
In the end, the matter was settled, but the few Bailincun students in the class were still identified as "murderers". How pitiful! These guys all took the blame one by one, until Xiaoni was gone.
The secret has always been hidden. It was not until today that Yang Xinlei saw Xiaoni's diary and realized that Xiaoni, who no one had ever suspected, had done all this...
…
Thinking of this, Yang Xinlei sighed. She turned over this page, turned to the next page, and continued reading.
xx, xx, 2010, cloudy and light rain
It rained today and the weather was gloomy. I was so scared because I did something that scared me to death. My classmates in the same village discovered the bad thing I did.
When no one was paying attention, I secretly tore out the first page and the last page of the homework books of my classmates. I don’t know why this happened. I just knew that I was discovered.
.
It's a classmate from the same village. He threatened me. He said he wanted everyone to know that I was a bad girl. I don't want this. I don't want...
He threatened me, and in order to prevent him from telling others about it, I made a very stupid decision.
The rain outside the window is very cold. My parents are resting at home, but they don’t know that their daughter...
I went out and looked for him under an umbrella. His parents were not at home and had gone to the town to do errands. I was afraid they wouldn't be back for the next two days. But stupidly, I chose to take him away just because of such a trivial matter.
This precious first time was given to a despicable person who threatened me.
That night, I told my parents that I was staying at a good friend's house and studying with them. My parents thought that the classmate I was talking about was a girl, and they didn't even notice that my expression was wrong.
Maybe it was fate! I finally arrived at his door.
When he saw me at the door, he was so happy!
I never thought that I was very beautiful, but there were indeed quite a few students in my class who were chasing after me, and I was able to take advantage of this despicable guy.
He warmly invited me into the house, got me some fruit to eat, and even helped me light the stove, maybe because he was afraid that I would be cold.
At night, I took off all my clothes and slept on the same bed with him. He seemed to be going crazy. As soon as I got on top, he pounced on me desperately and pressed on me. Immediately afterwards, I experienced something I had never experienced before.
The feeling I had experienced, he tried hard, hard...well...I don't know how to describe it, in short, that night, I was...
Yang Xinlei knocked on the table angrily. This despicable guy never expected that xxx was such a shameless person. However, Yang Xinlei couldn't understand why Xiaoni did this? Why did she tear up her classmates' homework books?
With a curious attitude, Yang Xinlei read Xiaoni's next diary...
On xx, xx, 2010, the weather was sunny, but my heart was filled with rain.
I'm pregnant. I didn't expect that just that time, I was pregnant. I didn't know what to do. Last night, I cut my fingernails. I hated myself! I hated myself so much! I used scissors to cut my nails.
All the nails were cut off, and blood was flowing down the tips of my fingers. I was in pain, but the pain in my body could not cover up the pain in my heart!
I didn’t know what to do. I hit my stomach hard, but it didn’t take long. It seemed impossible to kill the child. I was naive, I was stupid! I was helpless, I smiled helplessly.
, although I am laughing, my heart is bleeding...
What should I do? How should I face my parents? How should I face my classmates? How should I face everything?
I was at a loss. I went to find xxx, but he shamelessly said that I was pregnant because of my bad luck. This guy actually blamed me? I simply couldn’t live anymore. Why did God do this to me?
Me, it's not fair! It's not fair...
I thought about death. Maybe death is the best relief? I don’t want this skin anymore. It’s all it, it’s all it hurt me. Without a beautiful appearance, how could I be insulted by that shameless guy?
Maybe, mom and dad are right, humans are animals that live in skin, and the human heart is completely covered by skin, whether it is a black heart or a red heart, they are all covered up.
I don’t want it anymore. It is the source of all sins. I want to get rid of its control. I want to get rid of its sins. Let me leave easily...
——Xiao Ni’s last words
…
When she saw this diary, Yang Xinlei was completely stunned. She could not have imagined that there was such a story. It turned out that Xiaoni's death was actually related to xxx. It was xxx who forced Xiaoni to do that kind of behavior with him.
That led to Xiaoni becoming pregnant and then having a mental breakdown, which she couldn't bear.
Thinking of this, Yang Xinlei became angry, but now that they have graduated from high school, Xinlei is at home and has no job yet, worrying about finding a job all day long.
If this matter is made public, I am afraid that the fact that I have "collected" Xiaoni's diary will be in the spotlight and will be announced two years later. At that time, I may not be able to explain it.
What's more important is that when the time comes, you will become a focal point and a problem person, which will not only cause trouble for finding a job, but will even cause trouble for your own life in the future.
Yang Xinlei hesitated, should she expose this matter? On the one hand, Yang Xinlei began to worry again. xxx is from Bailin Village, and the people in Bailin Village are all lunatics. If he offended his classmate xxx, he would
Wouldn't he go crazy and take revenge on himself?
The more she thought about it, the more depressed she became, but she continued to hide this secret? Yang Xinlei thought of her former friend Xiaoni, and she felt dissatisfied with what happened to her old friend! No way... How could Xiaoni suffer such a great grievance in vain? Today's
Xiaoni, she's dead...
A dead person cannot even get back the justice she deserves. Yang Xinlei will have nightmares. What if Xiaoni comes to find her in the middle of the night?
After all, Yang Xinlei was still just a girl. When she started thinking wildly, she was frightened to the point of being confused and confused.
What should I do about this matter? How to make a decision? Yang Xinlei has never been helpless before. She doesn't even dare or want to tell her parents, but besides her parents, who else can help her? Who else? Still
Anyone?
...By the way, isn't there him? Yang Xinlei's eyes lit up. At this moment, she thought of Qin Hao.