When I was young, I used to think that the world was just and that one day in the future, there would be a magnificent picture of my family and country waiting for me to display my ambitions. But then I knew... some ideas will slowly fade away over time, until you come back again
Also out of reach.
Because of that decision, my father called me a traitor and said that I had lost the dignity of my ancestors.
I used to think so too, and my guilt made me afraid to face him. It wasn't until I became a father that I realized that my father had always cared about me...
Faced with everyone's contempt and doubts, I tried my best to explain myself and give him a calm reason when the prince wanted to kill someone. I hypnotized myself like this, but in my heart, I knew that I was still trying to escape my words.
Lin Weiyan, I remember when she was little, she always liked to chase after Ouyang and me, clumsy like a fat bear. I don’t know when, she changed, as if all the beauty was concentrated on her, attracting people to follow unconsciously.
Her footsteps.
Maybe it was my failure, but when I clearly realized my heartbeat, she was already a childhood sweetheart who was cared for by my brother.
When Ni Yu came to me and told me about the plan, I had no objection. We were terrified at that time because no one knew what was waiting for us.
Weiyan likes Niyu, so there is no point in me being here.
Standing in front of the warrior who won after fighting the beast, I once hated the world, hated the injustice this country had done to me, and hated the evil man smiling in front of me even more. He was the one who pushed me step by step towards the edge of enlightenment.
![
Gradually, I have forgotten what I should stick to. When all the efforts I have made are not recognized by others, when I look at the people I have saved, who disdain me and die at my feet, I can't find my own direction, "confused"
Lost in the face of so-called righteousness and morality.
I numbly endured all the humiliation that the prince acquiesced to me. I only vaguely remembered that I couldn't let the prince hurt Ouyang Niyu, and I couldn't let down the woman who was waiting for Niyu wholeheartedly.
But I failed even at this point. Ouyang Niyu still could not escape from the clutches of the prince, because he had a family and responsibilities, and he could not defeat the cruel prince.
After escaping, he came back and stood in the main hall, neither humble nor arrogant, taking revenge on Su Yi who took the lead.
The prince treated him very special. Only then did I know that the prince had intentions, but he gave it to Ni Yu.
Later, Ni Yu and the others decided to kill the prince, that cruel tyrant, that murderous devil who should not have existed in the world. Although I still don't want to accept such a treasonous decision in my heart, I will never choose.
They asked the prince to leave his east palace so that they could attack easily. I don't have that ability. After following the prince for six years, I have already made the prince lose his sense of freshness. Maybe it's not just me, but Su Yi, who has always been favored, can't do it either.
Because the prince was afraid of death, he would never leave the prince palace, which was built to protect him.
Ni Yu decided to tell it in person.
At that time, I felt that Ouyang Niyu couldn't do it, because the prince cherished his life so much.
But the prince actually agreed to Ni Yu and went to Heji County! I smiled bitterly. It seems that love can really make people blind. Even the prince who loves his own life like a treasure cannot escape this disaster.
After the prince left, I stayed in the courtyard, playing the familiar piano in my hand, and looking at the place where I had lived for six years. I thought that the prince would die and die in a foreign land. Even if the attack on the house could not kill the prince, those who wanted the prince to die would
people will continue to do so.
Looking at everything around me and listening to the faint noise coming from next door, I know that we are all poor people. If the prince dies, we will have no place to stay. What awaits us is only being buried with him or even being punished for treason.
Lian, I feel sorry for my father, who worked so hard to raise me, but I repay him with this.
Bitterly, Ouyang Niyu's plan failed and the prince came back, which was even more shocking than the prince's death.
He actually brought back Zi Che Yexue, a wooden genius whom Qi had praised highly, the third young master of the Zi Che family? At that moment, I thought the world was crazy. How could Zi Che Yexue willingly follow the prince back to the palace?
However, the prince was very different after he came back. I couldn't tell the difference. The things he liked in the past had all changed. He no longer drank alcohol, no longer killed people, and even smiled pleasantly. The prince could laugh!
What a fallacy![
The prince seemed to have changed. I heard that he had achieved political success in Heji County. He brought back an army that belonged to him. He began to sympathize with the people and even began to save money and use the remaining money for state affairs? The prince changed
It's just that she is indeed the prince, otherwise who would be qualified to pretend to be Yan Zhoutian!
But the change was so incredible that he actually wrote good calligraphy. Facing the envoy from the Moon Kingdom, his calmness and magnanimity made all the officials couldn't help but applaud and praise him. Under the years of accumulated hatred between his family and the country, he finally gave Yan Kingdom a chance to feel proud.
.
But he was still flamboyant, because of Miss Song, he drove away the Yue Kingdom envoy mercilessly.
The ministers were silent, acquiescing that the prince was always the prince, but they couldn't help but feel happy that at least he had restrained himself and finally vented his excess energy on outsiders. In the past six years, I have exhausted my fighting spirit and looked down upon the many holes outside the luxurious palace.
In the Flame Kingdom, I no longer have the luxury of returning to the previous dynasty to realize my former ambitions. I always thought that I would die in the courtyard where I lived.
But the prince actually asked me to serve as an official. Are you happy? No, facing so many pairs of eyes, I have already forgotten how to deal with it. Isn’t this supposed to be me? But why do I still have a vague expectation, and my heart has not jumped for a long time?
My pulse actually had the urge to try.
Maybe I'm not as competitive as I thought.
Over the years, Weiyan has always been a scar that I don't want to touch. I won't touch it, and Su Yi is not allowed to touch it.
But I slowly discovered that the prince no longer cared about Ouyang Niyu. Even when Su Yi mentioned that Weiyan and Ouyang Niyu were together, the prince didn't react at all.
Almost every time I read the memorial, I saw that in the middle of the night, the prince became industrious and did not like to get close to others, and he rarely hired people to sleep with him. This made me relieved, but it also made people more surprised. He said that he had been kidnapped.
, knowing the suffering in the world, I feel it is too ridiculous, who can kidnap him! But we can only believe what he said.
Because he is Yan Zhoutian, a man who will become insane at some point!
…
Over the past six months, the prince's change has also changed our situation. I have become accustomed to thinking about him, speculating about him, and even being surprised by his decision-making.
The prince actually wants to stay at my place tonight. This is something that has not happened for a long time. His heart is lifted very high, and his instinctive panic is probably something that every man in the backyard cannot bear. All the pain from the past is unfolding before his eyes.
After turning over, not only the physical pain, but also the humiliation in the heart.
The strange thing is that the prince is very gentle, so gentle that it makes people scared. My consciousness is drifting away. I know it must be the effect of the medicine, but even though my consciousness is no longer clear, I still know the prince that night.
It's a tenderness I've never experienced before.
Maybe this night was too weird, or maybe I was guessing something. I stopped trying to expose him and focused all my energy on government affairs. It seemed that I had regained the dream I had when I was young and frivolous. He was busy for the winter,
The country of Yan was suffering from hunger and death in winter, which made him anxious all the time, but we, as ministers, could not do anything about it.
The prince wants to go to Duan Jinyi Killing! I suddenly stood up, where is Jin Yi Killing, where he is allowed to break in like that!
However, he still overbearingly believed that Jin Yi was on his territory and he had the right to take back everything that belonged to him.
When I stayed in the hospital, I saw the bloodthirsty prince again, his clothes were flying, and he was as beautiful as snow. I stroked the piano in my hand, feeling calm like never before, hoping that he could calm down the blood evil in his heart, hoping that he could calm down.
.
At this moment, although I didn't want to admit it, I really felt a little nervous about him.
The prince succeeded and regained the Four Seasons City with his domineering power and wisdom. I laughed because of his success and the look of pity on his people outside God Bless City.
But he actually wanted to leave alone. God knows how many people were waiting to kill him. I felt a little anxious. At this time, Ni Yu's presence was undoubtedly the best choice.
"Prince, let General Ouyang accompany you to protect you!" I have long forgotten Ouyang Niyu's shock. I only know that the prince cannot be harmed. He is the monarch! He is hope!
For the first time, the prince is worthy of the title of monarch in my eyes!
But the prince objected. He did not take the opportunity to get close to Ouyang Niyu, and he did not keep Niyu for such a good opportunity.
Afterwards, Ni Yu was dissatisfied with my approach, so I didn't say anything, or I blamed Ouyang Ni Yu for not protecting him. He put the country first, so what reason do we, the ministers, have for not trying our best to help him?
Ni Yu looked at me with a complicated look. I pretended not to see it and left. In fact, I couldn't really sort out my thoughts. Am I just willing to be loyal to him?
…
Su Shuiqu moved into my courtyard. As a staff member, it was clear that the prince liked him. Apart from Ouyang Niyu, it was the first time I saw the prince care so much about someone. It turns out that there is someone other than government affairs who can make him so serious.
Things, in so many years, he has never cared half as much about us as Su Shuiqu, and he felt a little unworthy for himself for no reason. He lowered his head and tried to live his life as usual. Su Yi's way of punishing those princes I
Fa agrees. Just because the prince suspected someone of treason, Su Yi was able to be so cruel. I just don't want anyone to talk about the prince being cruel, even though he was only equated with cruelty in the past.
So when the prince came, I told him that just because I mentioned that matter, he left my place to find Su Shuiqu.
At that moment I wanted to keep him, but why should I keep him? I smiled bitterly, maybe he was just angry to find a reason to go to Su Shuiqu.
Yanguo is gradually getting on the right track, and the prince is getting busier and busier, but the courtyard is getting more and more unpeaceful. In the past, there were people who were afraid to avoid the place. Perhaps this is not surprising. After all, if you abandon the past
, he is really excellent.
But the existence of Zi Cheshi made the prince no longer set foot in the backyard. Although there are occasional exceptions, it is not my place.
The prince's wedding was something I had never thought of before. But now, it seems that as long as the prince is willing, nothing is a problem. Just like now, we can coexist peacefully with the prince.
She is worthy of her name. The people of Yan Kingdom have placed too much good things in the Crown Princess. She is the expectation, hope and future of all ministers, while we are moths, threats and hidden acne of Yan Kingdom.
The whole backyard was filled with a sense of energy that I had never experienced during such difficult days.
Actually, that's right. I used to hate you, but now, why don't you leave now?
…
The prince of the past has become the emperor of today. The country of Yan is peaceful and the people are in peace as everyone expected. After all, it has begun to prosper. I am finally standing in the position I thought about when I was young. The power in my hands is greater than expected.
.
So I have tried everything that should be realized and should not be realized. The commitment I made back then seems to have been gradually forgotten now, but why haven't I left yet? The slightest words are no longer enough to be an excuse, so what am I still insisting on?
Looking up to the sky, I feel a sense of emptiness and confusion.
What I feared most was not leaving, but not wanting to leave. Being able to watch him work hard up close, standing next to him had become a barrier to escape. When I was at a loss, I sadly discovered...
She is a woman, she is actually a woman! It seems that her life in the past seven years has become ridiculous, but she is also indescribably happy.
Because unconsciously, I loved her!
She is beautiful, intelligent, and even more domineering and majestic in the court. She is an emperor, and she will be the emperor of the Yan Kingdom for eternity. Don’t say that I have selfish motives. Even if I don’t, I will not expose her. She should sit on the dragon throne.
God, she deserves to be worshiped by all the people.
That night, I was awake, taking advantage of people's dangers, and the bad qualities of men. Everything was over. She didn't pay much attention to me. I thought, if she gets angry, my days in the backyard may be over.
I forgot how stunned I was when I heard that she was pregnant. Eunuch Lu said that I was scared to death. No, my heart was trembling. I couldn’t believe that she dared to give birth. Yes! There is nothing in this world that she wouldn’t dare to do.
Her ambition is to dominate the world, and her martial arts skills make the leader of Jinyi Kill fearful. What is she afraid of? She is so proud that men dare not take a step forward.
Zi Cheshi came back and had a big quarrel with her. I suddenly discovered that she only looked like an ordinary person and more like a woman when she was with people brought back from Jicun City. She could be angry and laugh.
Make those people fascinated.
Jealousy, I am jealous, I am jealous that she is pregnant with my child, why is Zi Cheshi taking care of her!
The first time I fought, I also learned to play tricks just to get her a supplement.
She occasionally stares at me in a daze, but she doesn't care about Fengyue. She mostly discusses national affairs with me. I know she wants Yanguo to be stronger, so I will do better. I will do my best and use what I have learned.
, to create the balanced and prosperous life she wants.
He was a little boy, very beautiful, just like her. The queen regarded him as a child and loved him very much. It was obvious that Su Yi and Zi Cheshi rejected him, and they even mentioned naming him.
I hug him occasionally. I am too busy to fulfill my responsibilities as a father. Watching him smile and watching him grow up, I feel that this life is enough.
Zhou Tian was very strict with his children. At first I didn't realize anything was wrong, until my father deliberately told me that the eldest son of the emperor, the emperor might intend to make him his heir apparent.
I was so frightened at the time, how could it be possible, he is my son! He is a bloodline of the Sun family!... Yes, he is not only my son but also her son.
She has a high and powerful position, and her children are kings and princes. Even I cannot touch the future of her children.
After coming out of the government office, I couldn't believe that one day this vibrant territory might belong to my children...
"Master Sun, do you also like the art of war? Haha, just like me, my father said that we must practice both internally and externally. From now on, Master Sun will be my master of the art of war, and I will never let my father down."
He smiles so cutely, but saying "Master Sun" cuts off too many ties between us. He is attached to me, but he is even more attached to the Queen.
Looking at Song Yise's figure waiting outside the school every day to bring him food and warmth, seeing Song Yise's gentle smile towards him, and his figure throwing herself into the Queen's arms and acting coquettishly, I laughed, this little thing...
I believe in Song Yise's character, and even more in my son's understanding. I am willing to quit the fight and give him a more suitable life.
Everything back then is far away from me. Now there are people who need my care more for me to work hard. Yan Guo, you should have been prosperous, you would have jumped to the first place, just because there are women and children I love here...
－－－－－－Digression－－－－－
The new article "Rebirth after Poison", it's not that I couldn't remember it because I wasn't in the old article.
This extra chapter was not released in the physical book at that time, and some parts that are inconsistent with the actual book have not been changed. Since I can't update "The Poison Queen" tomorrow, I will post it here for everyone. Those who haven't read it can read it.