Indeed, she was very repulsive for a long time. She was afraid, maybe it was an instinctive reaction.
Mu Renxiang pushed up the glasses frame on the bridge of his nose and said, "Whether you want to know or not, you must tell me your true thoughts. Think about it for a while before answering me."
Mi Ruo bit her lower lip gently, was silent for a long time, and said: "I'm sure I want to know. But to be precise, I want to know but I'm afraid to know... I want to restore my memory at once, instead of being like now.
A little bit of it always pops up from time to time, and I don’t want to know the truth from other people’s mouths, that would be hard for me to accept.”
To say that you don't remember the past is to deceive yourself and others.
After experiencing so many things, she wanted to know more and more what kind of life she had lived before. A life without memories really cannot be considered a complete life.
What's more, the memories of the past always come up bit by bit, completely out of her control, making her seem very passive, so no matter how much she rejects them in her heart, she still has to accept the reality.
This process may be really uncomfortable, but if you can recover immediately, even the pain will be bearable.
Seeing her frown, Mu Renxiang tried to calm her down by joking, "Aren't you afraid that I will know some of your ulterior secrets? For example, the password of your bank account."
Mi Ruo burst out laughing when she heard this, "If you are afraid that the secret will be leaked, why should you find a psychiatrist?"
"Then have you ever thought about what to do if you think about the past and you can't bear it for a while?" This is what Mu Renxiang is really worried about, so his expression is very serious.
Mi Ruo fell into her own thoughts, "I think I should be able to bear it. During this time, I have also clarified a lot of things, and I can predict some things."
She laughed bitterly. Didn't she know enough from what she heard from Anyara Rou and Dean Wang? Although her memory had not recovered yet, she already knew certain things in advance and was mentally prepared in advance. No matter how big the situation was,
The blow should not be able to stop her.
After listening to her words, Mu Renxiang finally nodded, "Okay, then first tell me what you have done during this period. You can tell me everything you are happy or unhappy about.
Listen."
As he spoke, he reached out and took out a coin from his pocket, put it between his fingers and began to turn it over intentionally or unintentionally.
Mi Ruo took a deep breath and slowly told Mu Renxiang everything from when she saw Li Yan in the hospital to everything that happened after that.
While speaking, her eyes were inadvertently attracted to the coin that was constantly flipping, as if the coin was alive.
Positive...negative...negative...positive...
From left to right, then from right to left, continuously, beating and rolling between his fingers...
Gradually, Mi Ruo felt sleepy, yawned loudly, and said, "I feel a little sleepy, I really want to sleep."
Hao Miaomiao, who was sitting quietly on the side, stood up worriedly. Mu Renxiang gestured for her to sit down quietly, then turned to Mi Ruo who was yawning and said, "If you're sleepy, then take a good rest.
When you wake up, we can continue talking."
"Oh, okay..." Mi Ruo watched the coins flipping between his fingers dully, then closed his eyes unconsciously and fell into a deep sleep.
Next, Mu Renxiang helped her do a deep image mapping.
Let her enter her inner world that is forcibly closed by consciousness, and present her truest desires in front of her out-of-body soul.
During hypnosis, she went to a place.
It was a two-story unmanned swimming pool built against the mountains and the sea. The pure blue water that she had never seen before flowed from the high ground into the low pool, and then merged into the boundless sea. The surrounding scenery was as beautiful as if she were in the middle of nowhere. In heaven, the flowing transparent water color makes the soul cleansed without dust, every cell in the body is filled with peace and joy, and the whole person is filled with comfort from every hair to toes.
At this time, a man appeared on the beach.
His figure was so clear that she could see the stars in his eyes even standing on the mountain. He stretched out his hand to her. Although one hand was missing a finger, the fingers seemed to be smeared with the warmth and afterglow of the sun. She Walking slowly towards him through the water.
But before she could reach him, she had already watched him walk towards the sea. The water flooded from his ankles to his knees, and then spread from his waist to his shoulders.
Suddenly, there was a big change between the world and the world. Suddenly, a gap was opened out of the sea by lightning. Another man slowly rose from the deep sea like a sea god. He rode a beast and galloped through the rolling waves, and forcefully dragged Luo Yuan away. into the sea, and then the two began to fight fiercely...
She turned pale with fright, but no matter how much she yelled, the two men refused to look back. Her heart felt like a triangular bloody hole had been stabbed by a sharp awl, and the pain was indescribable.
She recognized the figures of the two men and shouted their names loudly. When one of them was about to be mercilessly submerged by the sea, she also jumped into the sea. The cold water seemed to come from all directions and swallowed her. Life seems to be disappearing little by little...
"Luo Yuan——" Mi Ruo suddenly sat up from the recliner, opened her mouth wide, and breathed hard.
Hao Miaomiao rushed up and supported her body, "Mi Ruo, how are you? Can you still bear it?"
Mi Ruo was at a loss, was she dead? She looked at where she was. Her clothes were not wet, but she was in a room that was only thirty square meters in size.
She subconsciously touched her cheek and found that her face was covered with wet tears.
"I...what's wrong?" she murmured to herself.
"How are you? Are you okay?" A strange voice woke her up. She raised her eyes and looked at Mu Renxiang with a solemn expression. It took her a long time to remember who he was.
"Doctor Mu, did I fall asleep just now?"
Mu Renxiang shook his head, "No, you are undergoing hypnotherapy. I have helped you with image mapping just now. Do you remember your previous memories now?"
Mi Ruo lowered her head, tears falling down.
Hao Miaomiao was watching anxiously from the side. Seeing her bursting into tears, she became even more worried, "Mi Ruo, please speak quickly. Have you remembered anything?"
Mi Ruo paused for a long time, then finally nodded and said, "Well, I remembered it. But please don't persuade me now, and don't stop me. Let me cry as much as I want..."
When a heart is cut into pieces by a sharp knife, even if you put it back together, it will still be riddled with holes.
In such a long period of amnesia, nothing has actually changed. No matter she was before amnesia or after amnesia, she still couldn't help but fall in love with Li Yan, and he would still hurt her again and again. A man was hurt intentionally or unintentionally because of her.