Duanmuci ran too far, and she didn't realize it until her body suddenly lost her true energy. She fell from a high place and was hit by pain. At this moment, she felt that she was just a mortal woman.
She is only flesh and blood, her heart is also made of flesh, and the blood flowing in her body is the warm blood of human love.
She actually liked this feeling of pain, real and ordinary. She looked at the scratched area on her arm and smiled for some reason.
When he came back, Duanmuci walked back step by step.
If you walk slowly, you can always see the scenery in front of you for a long time, giving you time to appreciate and reverie, but it will not pass by in a flash.
She looks at the lush greenery, smells the fragrance of the grass and trees, and feels that she is one and the same with the heaven and earth. She can personally feel the infinite vitality of nature, which can make you feel edified and happy physically and mentally.
It turns out that if you walk too fast, you will miss so much scenery.
At this moment she longed to be an ordinary woman.
It was almost dusk when I came back, and the grass, trees, and mountains in front of me seemed so familiar.
She has known Xie Fu for more than three years, and has known him for more than three years in total before and after giving him the Wangyou Seal.
Xie Fu has become a part of her life, and this place is like their home. This home was built by the two of them.
Home is a place that makes people feel nostalgic. At this moment, Duanmuci was in a state of confusion. She was a little resistant and troubled.
His brows also wrinkled, and when he saw the man sitting cross-legged and practicing Qigong under the setting sun, Duanmu Ci felt a little relieved.
Duanmuci gathered his mood and began to prepare dinner.
The food was still the same noodles, which was the best thing they had ever eaten.
When they were having dinner together, Duanmuci lowered her head and ate quietly, seemingly giving Xie Fu a stingy look, but in fact she was secretly paying attention to Xie Fu and felt uneasy in her heart.
What happened in the morning was too intense. She hurt Xie Fu severely and said many ruthless words to hurt him severely.
When he grabbed his palm and pressed it gently on his chest, Duanmu Ci's heart almost broke.
Fu'er, the pain I have endured is no less than yours, but you are a man, and you cannot be inferior to the master or a little girl.
This pain is only temporary and will pass soon. You will fall in love with another woman and you will gain happiness.
But you can't love me, this is a pain that can never be resolved in life.
From today on, I will be a strict, cold, and ruthless master. I will not love you anymore. I will make you hate me, or even hate me.
In the midst of depression, Duanmuci felt a little bit of relief in her heart when she thought of this.
There was a squeaking sound in the silence. Duanmu Ci looked over and saw that it was the sound made by Xie Fuchi who was in high spirits.
The lively energy was like a ray of warm sunshine shining on Duanmuci's heart, which instantly turned into ice and snow, and she burst into laughter. The joy came from the bottom of her heart.
When Xie Fu heard the laughter and looked up at her, Duanmu Ci immediately turned cold and pretty.
Mr. Xie didn't say anything and continued to eat noodles, making the same squeaking sound again.
Duanmuci noticed that the corners of his mouth were slightly raised, as if he was smiling.
Why can he still laugh? Is it because the noodles are delicious or...
Duanmuci asked: "Why are you laughing?"
"I'm not smiling."
Zhiliu Zhiliu~
Duanmuci said directly: "You were snickering just now."
Xie Fu responded with a smile: "I'm happy."
Duanmuci was stunned, "You are happy!"
"Yes, I am happy. I feel like I can let go of everything, and my body and mind are so relaxed and comfortable."
Duanmuci asked: "Are you looking away?" He thought to himself, maybe you are deliberately showing a happy face to prevent me from feeling uncomfortable. You are so kind, how can I be so cruel to you?
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Duanmu Ci felt conflicted in her heart. She felt that facing him was the most difficult thing in the world. She was helpless and didn't know what to do.
Xie Fu said with a smile: "I thought about it carefully. My love is so small and ridiculous. It's because you, Master Duanmuci, are the only woman here, so I fell in love with you. If there were other beautiful women, maybe I would too."
Fall in love with them."
"Master Duanmuci, you are right. I will meet the woman I love, and my heart will beat passionately for her, and she will love me and beat passionately for me."
When Duanmu Ci heard this, her heart suddenly felt sour and full of loss. A voice suddenly fell in her mind, "No!"
No! She doesn’t want to!
Immediately, Duanmuci felt so cheap again. She should be happy. What was she missing? Wasn't everything just as she wished?
Maybe after staying with him for a long time and being influenced by him, I am no longer the Duanmu Ci I used to be. I wonder what things could easily arouse her emotions in the past.
Master Xie pretended to be engrossed in eating noodles, but he was secretly observing Duanmuci. Sure enough, he caught a glimpse of disappointment in her eyes, and was secretly happy in his heart, Master Duanmuci, you can no longer hide it from me, no matter how cold it is when I bump into you.
Let me stir up your proud and stubborn heart.
Duanmuci forced himself to smile: "Very good~" but his voice was hoarse for some reason, with an extremely hard-to-detect tremor.
Xie Fu continued: "When I meet her, I will love her with all my heart, I will treat her as the most precious treasure in the world, love her, protect her, and make her the happiest woman in the world.
, this is the love that belongs to me, are you right? Master Duanmuci."
Master Xie deliberately provoked her, which was a bit revengeful. Master Duanmuci, do you know how many days and nights I have endured the torment of missing you? You are clearly right in front of me, but I can't touch you.
If you don't want to love me, I will love others. I will love others and let you have a taste of it.
"right."
Duanmuci found that her lips were trembling a little. Listening to Xie Fu's words, she felt envious and eager, and at the same time she felt uncomfortable and sad.
Xie Fu looked forward to future happiness and said: "I will have a child with the one I love, no, many children, and the family will be lively and happy."
"Probably, this is true love, Master Duanmuci. Thank you for letting me grow up and letting me understand how naive my previous love for you was."
No! Duanmuci didn't want to listen anymore. She wanted to yell selfishly, you are mine, you are not allowed to love others, you are not allowed to love others, and you are not allowed to care for others.
At this moment, she became an ordinary woman full of jealousy, hatred, and selfishness. There was nothing special about her.
"Master Duanmuci, you don't have to worry about it anymore. I can face you calmly."
When Duanmuci heard this, he looked over, and Xie Fu looked directly at her, his eyes magnanimous.
This magnanimous look was like a sharp sword that instantly cut her heart into seventy or eighty pieces. Does Fu'er no longer love me?
Duanmuci suddenly felt that there was no meaning in living and had no expectations for life.
It turns out that she was so confident when she was cherished, but once she completely lost it, she realized that she couldn't let go at all.
Thoughts of death actually appeared in my mind.
Duanmuci packed up the dishes and walked out of the cave. The sunset, which was about to set, shone on her face. The weak light made her feel dizzy and about to collapse.
It turns out that she is also so cowardly, she seems to be selfish.
But in her mind, the look of hatred shown by Xie Fu when she pierced his shoulder blade came to mind, and she secretly told herself, for you, I will remain as strong as ever.
very good.
Duanmuci walked forward tremblingly.
In the dead of night, on the top of the mountain, Duanmu Ci sat cross-legged on a stone, carving a stone statue with golden light flashing in his hand, and the flying stone fragments were as dense as falling snowflakes.
She is like a woman embroidering clothes. She seems not to be tired and carves one statue after another.
In his absence, the golden light suddenly cut his finger, and blood spattered on the stone statue.
Duanmuci stopped and hugged the stone statue tightly in his arms, but this time he could no longer feel any warmth.
I don't know that I love you so much, I don't know that I am so cowardly and ridiculous.
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For the past few days, Duanmu Ci had been in a state of despair, like a zombie. Although she had been deliberately concealing it, she could not be as calm as water at all. She could only try to avoid Xie Fu and prevent him from seeing anything strange.
Sometimes, Duanmuci couldn't help but wonder, if he saw something strange about me, if he saw that I was heartbroken for him, would he be happy and would he care?
Duanmu Ci felt that she was just like a girl who fell in love, worrying about gains and losses, but she had never had such an experience.
The first time I fell in love with someone, it was so hard, so entangled, and so sad.
On the other hand, Xie Fu didn't seem to be affected at all. He concentrated on practicing every day, and even used the half hour he spent to relax to practice.
Everything went as she wished, he did what he asked and did it better.
After finishing the meal, Duanmuci gently asked: "Fu'er, is it delicious?"
Xie Fu hadn't spoken to her much these days, and Duanmu Ci really wanted to hear his lively and excited voice.
Xie Fu smiled and nodded, as if he cherished his words like gold.
Duanmuci pondered, but only made a sound.
Master Xie put down his bowl and chopsticks: "Master Duanmuci, I'm going to practice kung fu."
Duanmuci raised his hand and wanted to say something, but Xie Fu had already walked out of the cave coldly.
Duanmuci looked at Xie Fu's cold back, his thick and long eyelashes trembling slightly, looking a bit pitiful.
Xie Fu practiced martial arts cross-legged under the moon, as if the meaning of his life was to practice martial arts.
Duanmuci walked out of the cave, glanced at him lightly, and left.
Xie Fu opened his eyes and looked at her lost and beautiful back, feeling both happy and distressed.
He was happy because he felt that Duanmu Ci cared about him so much, and felt sad because the sadness in his back was so deep into his bones that it was just a trace of black hair hanging down his back.
It has grown a bit over the past year, but when will it grow to the waist and hips, so light and graceful?
Master Duanmuci, I'm not as cruel as you. I won't let you suffer for too long. I just want you to understand that you can't let me go.
At night, Xie Fu came to the spring pool. The quiet sound of the water was like the sound of bells swaying in the breeze, so pleasant to the ear.
Duanmu Ci, who was bathing in the pool, heard the noise, and immediately ducked into the water with his fragrant shoulder head. The water where he dived had a layer of slight ripples, as if it was just a fallen leaf falling onto the water.
Was it Fu'er who wanted to peek at her taking a bath?
For some reason, this thought actually made Duanmu Ci feel ridiculously happy.