How wonderful it would be if life could only be like the first time we met.
He is still his most famous master, and she is still her most beautiful woman. The beauty of the country and the country cannot interfere with each other.
Without a beginning, there is no end.
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I stood in front of the lonely grave, looking at the smiling face on the bluestone tombstone. Four years later, I wondered whether she was well in that world. I still remember the look back and smile when she threw herself at the bomb. At the end
, it was still me who failed her.
I placed a large bunch of brightly blooming white chrysanthemums in front of the tombstone. The strong white color complemented her smiling face. Love, we have too many ups and downs in this life, right and wrong. I hope that in that world
, you can still smile happily like this. In this life, I cannot repay your kindness. If I can be reincarnated as a human in the next life, then let me be your brother and take care of you for the rest of my life.
It was late autumn when I looked up, and the vast maple leaves dyed the vast mountains red.
After returning from the cemetery, I suddenly wanted to go somewhere for a walk.
I drove aimlessly on the road until the buildings in front of me gradually became familiar.
I parked the car on the side of the road, leaned on the car and looked up at the simple building in front of me. This is the largest civilian residential area in the city. I spent two unforgettable nights here. Looking back at it, I still can't help but
Live the sweetness and happiness in your heart.
Meeting her in the back garden of the White Marble Palace seemed like a secretly arranged encounter.
She was like an angel flying into my life, spreading her pure wings in front of me and shaking off her white feathers. In an instant, my dark world felt bright for the first time.
It turned out that I just wanted to seal her dishonest little mouth before I kissed her, but I didn't expect that the kiss would be out of control. She resisted with her eyes wide open, but it made me want to tease her even more. Those eyes were like stars in the dark.
Suddenly and dimly, I thought that this must be her first kiss, because her whole body was stiff and panic radiated from every inch of her skin.
She is a little white rabbit full of temptation. I really want to peel off her shiny white fur and peek into everything about her.
When she was escaping, she stubbornly opened my hand and jumped up to the balcony neatly. She was used to seeing the delicate women around her, so she was really impressed by her. What surprised me even more was that she was so thin and slender.
The girl actually knows martial arts, and she seems to be quite powerful. Looking at the white figure jumping in front of me, I suddenly want to forcefully dominate her by my side. I proposed to go to her house, but it was also an impromptu idea. I saw her shaking her little body like a wavy drum.
Head, I am even more sure, I want her.
This house in front of me seems to contain all my happy memories.
I bullied her on her bed until she was about to cry. A second ago, I just regarded her as an ordinary beauty, but her tears made me soft-hearted and wanted to take good care of her and prevent her from crying.
For the first time, I had such a strong idea in my heart.
That night I had a high fever, so she took care of me by the bedside all night. When I woke up in the middle of the night, I saw her sleeping soundly on my hand. The moonlight shone through the gap in the window on her smooth and soft face, and she smiled in her sleep.
The look reminded me of the cherry blossoms I had seen many years ago. Unknowingly, I found that my lips had fallen on her face. I was not sure that I could be so gentle, just because she was so quiet and peaceful.
Sleeping appearance.
The next day, she went to work and left a note. Her handwriting was so ugly and crooked that it didn't look like her beautiful face at all. It turned out that her name was Zhong Yuxi. I suddenly remembered the poem: Water Patterns
Thoughts on the precious silk are long, and the good times of a thousand miles rest in one night.
Her refrigerator was empty, and I endured my anger and starved myself all day long. When I came back in the evening, she brought back some snacks, which were street food that I had never eaten before. She was a big eater, so she ate what she had in her hand, and...
She was thinking about me, but I just didn't want her to succeed. Seeing the disappointed look on her face, I felt happier than ever before.
She has never read any books, and she doesn’t know many complicated words. When I taught her to write, she was very reluctant, but she was also very afraid of me, so she could only swallow it, hold her soft little hand, and smell it.
The fragrance of her hair made me smell a sense of happiness.
The sound of a car horn came from behind me. It turned out that my car was blocking other people's way. I drove away from this small building and turned up the sound in the car to the maximum. It seemed that only in this way could I suppress the feeling of lovesickness in my heart.
Arrogant.
At the wedding, her sweet smile fell into my eyes, tearing open the unhealed wound again. I wore a blessing smile, but my heart was bleeding.
I once asked her: If I make a mistake once, I will never recover from it?
But she never knew the wounds in my heart.
At the place closest to the heart, there are several eye-catching scars staggered on it. They are the marks left on my body every time I hurt her. Only in this way can I reduce the pain in my heart to a smaller size.
The pain is in her body and in my heart.
When I really gave up everything and wanted to follow her, she was no longer willing to wait for me where she was. Seeing her leaning into someone else's arms and smiling like a flower, I knew that everything between me and him had become memories, and it was me who was cruel.
It was I who fixed them as the past tense with my own hands, and it was I who pushed our love into the abyss.
I watched her raise her little chin among the flying pigeons, and the perfect arc shone with the light of happiness. She had found someone with whom she could spend her whole life together, and what was left to me was only the past.
When I returned to the palace, Mu Nan had been looking for me for a long time. I only took a break, but there were a lot of things waiting for me to deal with.
I took various documents from his hands, but I didn't have the intention to read any more. Today, I really wanted to be lazy.
"Your Majesty." He looked at me without moving for a long time and reminded him in a low voice: "The floods in the south have been alleviated, and now a large amount of funds are needed for reconstruction."
I rubbed my temples and sighed in my heart, I will still be busy after all.
"His Majesty the Sixth Prince has allocated a large amount of cash from his company. How do you think your Majesty will use these funds?"
I stretched my body and had to concentrate on the thick documents in front of me. Fortunately, I was not alone. The third, fourth, sixth, and even the fifth, they all gave great help.
They were busy until the sun turned west, and when Mu Nan came in, she brought Luo Xi with her.
As soon as he came in, he playfully climbed onto my legs, put his arms around my neck and asked me, "Uncle Huang, haven't you eaten yet?"
Seeing him, my mood improved greatly. I pinched his little nose and asked him: "Then did you eat?"
"I've eaten." After he finished speaking, he mysteriously took something out of his pocket and gave it to me. He lowered his voice and said, "Uncle Huang, this is the lollipop that Luo Xi secretly brought. Mommy said
I'm teething and I'm not allowed to eat. Since Uncle Huang hasn't eaten, I'll give it to Uncle Huang."
I took it and rubbed his head to express my gratitude. He raised his innocent little face and waited for me to eat the candy. I couldn't bear to brush off his kindness, so I tore open the candy wrapper and put the red lollipop into my mouth.
inside.
He clapped his little hands happily and said, "Uncle Huang, you are going to get cavities too. Mommy will scold you."
I raised my eyebrows and pretended to be angry, and he immediately became frightened and lay meekly in my arms and said nice things.
Luo Xi has liked me since he was a child. Maybe it’s because I love him so much. His father has always been strict with him. Children at such a young age are often punished to stand outside for a whole day. Maybe it’s because of his life since he was a child.
In such a harsh environment, that's why he wants to hone Luo Xi's strong will. I don't object, but I hope he can get more care. Our childhood was already very unbearable, and I don't want our
The next generation continues our old ways.
After eating the candy, I asked him: "Did you practice calligraphy today?"
He responded obediently: "I've practiced."
"Then write a few words and show them to Uncle Huang."
Mu Nan hurriedly brought a pen and paper, and Luo Xi sat on my lap, lying on the table and writing seriously.
From time to time he would bite the tip of his pen and think, and when he couldn't write well, he would secretly turn his head to look at me, which looked very much like her mother.
He did not inherit the purple eyes, the pupils were black in color. He actually looked more like Lao Liu, and he was very smart like him, but he was just as naughty as his mother.
He held up the written words in front of me.
I nodded appreciatively. In any case, it is surprising that a three-year-old child can write such words.
He shouted: "What words will Uncle Huang teach Luo Xi today?"
I thought for a while, gently held his hand, and then naturally wrote a poem on the pen: "The water pattern is like a precious silk, and I think about it for a long time, and the good times of a thousand miles will rest in one night."
He frowned and asked me: "Uncle Huang, what does this mean?"
I didn't answer, I just studied the words under my pen for a long time, until Bai Zhi knocked on the door and came in.
Four years ago, she reached the age to leave the palace, but she begged me to keep her here. Although she is no longer my maid, she will come to Munan every now and then to ask about my daily life, and then she will come again.
I told the maid on duty one by one about my habits and hobbies.
Now she is Luo Xi's maid, and Luo Xi always calls her aunt affectionately.
Seeing Bai Zhi, Luo Xi hurriedly opened a big smile, jumped out of my arms and ran to Bai Zhi's side, holding her hand and acting coquettishly.
Bai Zhi first saluted me, then gently leaned down and wiped his little hands that were dirty from writing with a handkerchief, with a hint of reproach in his tone: "Did you steal candy again?"
Luo Xi quickly became embarrassed, shook her arm and begged: "Auntie, good auntie, please don't tell daddy, he will make me stand in the corridor again."
Bai Zhi sighed helplessly: "Next time, I will definitely tell him."
"I promise it won't happen again." Luo Xi raised his little hand and swore.
She was about to pick him up, and I suddenly said: "Bai Zhi, I have something to tell you."
She was stunned for a moment, and Mu Nan quickly picked up Luo Xi, walked out and closed the door.
Bai Zhi stood at the door, her face as calm as the breeze. Many years have passed, and she is no longer the young girl who showed her youthfulness. Her smile always had a distant look.
There is an unhappiness in my heart. I know why she must stay in the palace. Although her feelings for me have never been revealed, they are obvious in our interactions. I don't want to delay the rest of her life. I hope to set her free.
Before I could speak, she had already snatched my words and said quietly: "Do you want to drive me away from here again?"
I'm speechless and don't know how to answer the question.
She laughed angrily, "Actually, we are all the same, but we are just idiots. You have stayed for her until now, and you have never married and had children. The same goes for me. I will stay for the rest of my life for the person in my heart."
She said nothing more and turned around and left.
I sat in the large chair and looked out the window.
Luo Xi's mother came to pick him up. She held the child's hand and kissed his forehead lovingly. She half-lowered her body, her slender silhouette was enveloped by the sunset, and a few naughty strands of hair hung down by her ears.
That face looked even smaller, and time suddenly returned to many years ago. I held her in my arms and sat in the dusk light. She lowered her head to write, and I looked down at her.
Xixi, if you promised Xiaofeng in this life and Liu Jin in the next life, then I would like to believe that in the past life that no one knew, we should have been the happiest couple in that world.
On my flute lips, you dance gracefully.
It turns out that everything was just a dream I had. When I woke up from the dream, you were still by my side.
I hold your hand and grow old with you. This world is stable and the years are peaceful.