I admit, when I first saw this girl with an angelic face and a devilish figure and a devilish heart in the Valley of Blood Dance, I was moved. Maybe it was called worship at that time.
Or maybe, at that time, it was just a good impression, but as time went by, I realized that my feelings for her became more and more out of control, and then reached a terrifying point.
She does have a lot worth learning from her. Her resilience, her perseverance, everything about her tells me that she is a person with a story. I tried to enter her world, but I found that we are so far apart.
So I have been trying to close the distance between me and her. I have told myself more than once that she is not my type.
However, I just gave up my feelings in a daze, waiting for her stupidly, loving her, looking forward to her, and then when I wanted to take it back, I realized that I couldn't take it back.
For her, I even gave everything I had for the past 9 years, my time, my energy, my love, my waiting, my youth, and my best years.
However, in the end, I still couldn't compare to the boy named Zuo Lan Yinche, and I couldn't compare to the boy named Leng Mingshuohan. I was decadent.
During that time, I left. I wanted to tell myself to give up, but when she called me, I was shaken. I picked up the phone tremblingly.
The first thing she said to me was business. I ran back to her in a hurry. I helped her complete her revenge, and in the end I was injured all over.
I wanted to leave again, I wanted to escape, I didn't want to see how she cried and hurt herself because of another boy. When she was covered in scars, I was shaken again.
My thought at the time was, just wait, just wait, maybe she will come back to me, maybe she will leave them.
So I waited and waited, and until today, I gradually began to realize that I was wrong. I should not have helped her from the beginning, helped her take revenge, and helped her hurt herself.
When I saw her stomach attack, I felt regretful and wanted to slap myself in the face. Why didn't I persuade her in the first place? Why did I let her go when the doctor told me about her condition?
I wanted to cry, but I found that my eyes were already dry. I protected her for 9 years, and in exchange I became her friend. I loved her for 9 years, but I found that we were getting farther and farther apart.
Those who are close to the water, first get the moon, I remember someone said this, but I have been close to her for 9 years, and watched her change from a cute girl, to an ignorant girl, to a powerful black and white supreme.
I asked again, why can't I face my heart, why do I want to escape, I want to say to her again: I love you. Rejection, these two words have taken root in my mind, I want to say, but I
I dare not say it, because I'm afraid that after the window paper is broken, we won't even be friends, and maybe even her subordinates will have to be replaced.
Now that I have left, I feel that Jin Xi has found her happiness. I should not have pursued her persistently, caused her trouble, and made her upset. Zuo Lan Yinche must have the same idea as me.
, Leng Mingshuohan, how much I envy you, Jin Xi, such a good girl, she chose you.
9 years, not even 1 year,...a person, a city, a lifetime of heartache.