In the library of Haiyang Medical University, the book in Su Cen's hand has not been turned for an hour. She doesn't know why the name Lan Xiaobu has been in her mind since that day. Not only that,
The name is getting clearer and clearer.
She turned back subconsciously. Subconsciously, every time she came to the library, Lan Xiaobu would sit in a distance and watch her. And every time she went out, she could always see Lan Xiaobu when she turned back inadvertently.
Su Cen shook her head vigorously. She knew that none of this existed. She didn't know whether Lan Xiaobu liked her, but she was sure that Lan Xiaobu had never paid such attention to her, Su Cen.
In her impression, Lan Xiaobu rarely came to the library. He was too smart and knew many things at once. So every time when others had to review for exams, his textbooks were still brand new, and there were not even
I have opened it several times. As for review, it does not exist at all. The strange thing is that every time he takes the exam, he is still the first in the class, and the scholarship for the first place is customized for him.
But the less she thought about it, the clearer the shadow of Lan Xiaobu became. She saw herself taking the initiative to find Lan Xiaobu and marrying Lan Xiaobu...
Su Cen scratched her hair hard. Why? She had no love for Lan Xiaobu at all. She was just an ordinary classmate. Even if Lan Xiaobu published a paper on medicine, she would not be able to fall in love with Lan Xiaobu.
Bu, let alone taking the initiative to find Lan Xiaobu to marry him. This idea is too strange and incomprehensible. She, Su Cen, is not a person with random thoughts.
Su Cen lay on the table, feeling a little dizzy.
In the dark room, Su Cen seemed to hear the door creaking. This old wooden door told Su Cen that it was Lan Xiaobu who was back.
Su Cen tried her best to open her eyes. She saw the tired Lan Xiaobu walking into the room. He came to her side immediately, then grabbed her wrist, as if feeling her pulse.
"Xiao Bu, you're back." Su Cen felt that every word he said was a little difficult.
"Well, Cen Cen. I performed ten operations today, and one of them was an official with a good background. It seems that the bonus at the end of this month will not be too low. Wait, I brought you medicine back..."
While Lan Xiaobu was talking, he walked to the hot water bottle and poured a cup of hot water. Then he walked to the bed with the hot water and sat down. He took out a box from his pocket and carefully took out a light golden coin.
The pill was brought to Su Cen's mouth, "Cen Cen, come and take the medicine first."
Su Cen didn't take the medicine. She stretched out her thin hand and grabbed Lan Xiaobu's hand. "Xiaobu, this medicine is too expensive. My disease can't be cured at all. Let's give up..."
"No, Cen Cen, I can definitely cure you. Just hold on for a while. I recently studied Chinese medicine with a very good senior in medicine, and I already have some understanding of your disease. Believe me, one day I will
It can cure your disease..."
Su Cen stretched out her hand to touch Lan Xiaobu's hair, but her hands were weak and she couldn't reach up at all. Lan Xiaobu squatted down a little, and Su Cen's hand finally reached Lan Xiaobu's hair.
"Your hair has turned white. You are only less than forty, but you are already old..." Su Cen's voice became more and more ethereal, "Xiao Bu, remember if there is an afterlife, don't marry me again. You are as selfish as me.
Some, find someone who loves you...I'm sorry, Xiaobu, I'm so tired of breathing..."
"No, if there is an afterlife, I will marry you even more." Lan Xiaobu held Su Cen's hand, and there was no room for doubt in his tone.
"Why? I..." Su Cen didn't say it. She knew that Lan Xiaobu understood what she meant. From the time she got married to now, even if she was bedridden, she had never fallen in love with Lan Xiaobu. She felt
I'm sorry, Lan Xiaobu, but there is a kind of love that cannot be given just because you want to.
Lan Xiaobu's eyes were full of tenderness, "Cen Cen, I'm worried that no one will take care of you. I'm worried that you won't sleep well, and I'm even more worried that when you secretly cry alone at night, no one will wipe your face.
For so long, I haven't said thank you to you. Thank you for marrying me, marrying an ordinary person like me. I only hate that I can't cure your disease and make you live a happier life.
"
"Xiao Bu..." Su Cen couldn't help but burst into tears. She closed her eyes. Deep down in her heart, she had made up her mind to never drag down Lan Xiao Bu or her husband again.
Su Cen didn't know how she got up. She rushed out of the protective wall...
What does the protective wall protect? Su Cen felt a little headache.
But she soon heard Lan Xiaobu yelling, "Why, why didn't you stop her?"
She knew that Lan Xiaobu was angry at the soldiers guarding the exit of the protective wall. If the soldiers could block it, she would not be able to break out of the protective wall. But she knew better that the soldiers could not block her. A burden like her would die.
Even better, at least her survival resources don't need to be given inside the protective wall.
"Haha, why should we block her?" a soldier said coldly.
"Let me out." Lan Xiaobu calmed down and his tone was extremely calm.
"I'm sorry, Doctor Lan, you can't go out." The guarding soldier said in a cold tone.
Su Cen can go out, because people like Su Cen are just wasting resources if they stay in the protective wall. But Lan Xiaobu can't go out. Lan Xiaobu is a doctor, and an extremely outstanding doctor. In this polluted era, a doctor has
Everyone knows how important it is.
Su Cen was horrified when he heard Lan Xiaobu's words, "Xiaobu, you must not come out, you must not..."
Lan Xiaobu let his tears flow down, grabbed the railing at the exit, and looked at Su Cen outside the protective wall with almost desperate eyes, "Cen Cen, do you think I can survive alone without you?"
, I no longer know why I’m alive.”
"Xiao Bu, I'm sorry, I have to leave first..." Su Cen suddenly regretted her decision and rushed out of the protective wall. The despair in Lan Xiaobu's eyes made her soul tremble. At this moment, she felt something new in her heart.
Throbbing, is this love?
Why does she always feel that she has not fallen in love with Lan Xiaobu? Is it because she had no choice but to marry Lan Xiaobu out of anger? Maybe when she married Lan Xiaobu, she had not fallen in love with Lan Xiaobu. But.
Now, she was about to lose Lan Xiaobu, but her soul was in pain, and she was worried that Lan Xiaobu would rush out.
"Xiao Bu..." Su Cen wanted to say something more, but her eyelids became heavy, her hand slowly fell, and her consciousness seemed to fall into permanent darkness. She only vaguely regretted it before she died.
She didn't tell Lan Xiaobu what was deep in her heart. She said she was sorry not because she didn't fall in love with him, but because she couldn't stay with him.
After two decades of mutual support, it is no longer a habit, it is love.
…
"Su Cen, Su Cen..." The violent shaking made Su Cen open his eyes.
She raised her head and saw a familiar face, and subconsciously said, "Meixun, what's wrong?"
"Su Cen, why are you crying while you are sleeping..." Zhang Meixun looked blankly at the tears on Su Cen's face and said in a daze.
"Ah..." Su Cen woke up. This was the library. It was just her lying on the table and falling asleep. It was just a scene in her dream. Su Cen quickly took out a handkerchief and wiped his face.
Zhang Meixun also woke up and said, "Su Cen, you are so real, even in your dreams."
"Meixun, has Lan Xiaobu been caught?" Su Cen suddenly wanted to see Lan Xiaobu. Why was he the only one in his dreams recently?
Zhang Meixun didn't pay attention. Lan Xiaobu was their classmate, so it was normal for Su Cen to ask.
"I haven't caught him. I really can't tell. Lan Xiaobu actually has such a fierce side. He is usually very shy and honest, and he is the youngest..." Zhang Meixun sighed and said.
"Maybe there is a special reason." Su Cen subconsciously defended Lan Xiaobu.
Zhang Meixun shook her head, "No matter what the reason is, you shouldn't do such a cruel thing."
Su Cen fell silent, she didn't know what to say.
Zhang Meixun said, "By the way, Senior Jin Ning invited us to dinner just now, and I came here specifically to call you. It's at Tianhai Restaurant, let's go there together."
It is known to everyone that Senior Jin Ning likes Su Cen. Moreover, Su Cen also has a good impression of Senior Jin Ning. This time she invited Su Cen to help Senior Jin Ning.
Su Cen forced a smile and said, "I won't go. I have some matters and I'm afraid I have to leave Haiyang."
At this moment, Su Cen wanted to go to Huzhou. She wanted to go to Kunhu Hospital to inquire about it. Missing Lan Xiaobu made her feel a little uneasy.
Since the last time I met Lan Xiaobu, so many dreams and subconscious scenes, are they just imaginary? She doesn't have much contact with Lan Xiaobu, so how can she imagine these scenes?
(That’s it for today’s update, good night my friends! Please give me a try)