The happiest thing for a woman is to meet a man who loves her more than she loves him.
----"Diary of a Goddess"
Kim Taeyeon banged on the door and roared.
Zhang Xiaoxian didn't want this either. He didn't know how much impact it would have on their relationship.
But he was even more unwilling to see Kim Taeyeon sacrifice herself for it, and he was also afraid of losing her in his heart.
"No matter what I say, you haven't heard it... You know that I am most afraid of losing you, but you always do dangerous things. Don't blame me for locking you up in such a ruthless way." Zhang Xiaoxian said to Jin Tai at the door.
Yan said softly, his hand covering the door panel, trying to feel Kim Taeyeon's temperature inside through the thick wooden board. His eyes showed pain and reluctance that Kim Taeyeon couldn't see. Why did the other party never feel his pain?
Never seen it?
Kim Taeyeon, who was eager to get out but couldn't open the door, roared angrily: "Do you think you can lock me up like this?"
I didn't expect that Jin Taeyeon still didn't understand his heart and could say such cruel words to hurt herself. Putting down her hand, Zhang Xiaoxian lowered her dim eyes. When she raised her head again, the hesitation and emotion in her eyes were gone. He stared at her.
Looking at the door with his sharp gaze, it seemed as if he wanted to penetrate the door panel, and said to Kim Taeyeon word for word in a cold voice: "I know this can't lock you in, but when you come out, you will never have to stay by my side!"
Jin Taeyeon, who heard clearly, understood Zhang Xiaoxian's seriousness. Her eyes widened in horror: "No... Zhang Xiaoxian, Zhang Xiaoxian." Her screams and her efforts to stay still didn't make Zhang Xiaoxian stop and turn around to leave.
"Don't leave me. Zhang Xiaoxian..." Although I knew in my heart that no matter how much I shouted, it would be useless. Maybe Zhang Xiaoxian had left the house long ago and her shouting would not be heard at all. But if you don't do this
Kim Taeyeon didn't know how to vent her anger and anxiety. Where will Zhang Xiaoxian go next, what will she do, and whether she will encounter danger? These questions are constantly attacking Kim Taeyeon's brain.
As long as she wants to do this, Kim Taeyeon can easily open this door, but Kim Taeyeon is very afraid that after opening this door, Zhang Xiaoxian will close the door to her. Do she really have to compromise? Then what can she do every day?
Just wait for Zhang Xiaoxian to come back in fear, and then watch her leave in pain every day? What is Zhang Xiaoxian thinking? Is this love? Isn't it the shackles of love given to the other person?
When Zhang Xiaoxian came back at night, the house was completely dark and even the lights were not turned on. Kim Taeyeon was obviously at home. But it was pitch dark as if no one was waiting for her to come back. She opened the door and went upstairs quickly, and even Zhang Xiaoxian didn't notice her.
Her footsteps were messy and her breathing was short. She took out the key and opened the bedroom door. She opened it suddenly and looked at the figure lying on the bed with his back to her. Zhang Xiaoxian breathed a sigh of relief. She had stayed in the room honestly... It was so late, she should have
Was asleep.
Zhang Xiaoxian walked over lightly and prepared to help Kim Taeyeon take off her clothes, but as soon as her hand touched Kim Taeyeon's shoulder, it was opened with a "snap". The painful hand stopped in mid-air, and her eyes were filled with surprise.
Her eyes met with the indifferent eyes that turned around. Kim Taeyeon's dark pupils were shining brightly in the dark room. She looked indifferently at Zhang Xiaoxian, whose expression suddenly turned cold. The two of them seemed to have become strangers in an instant.
Looking at each other, their entangled eyes brought more entanglement.
Zhang Xiaoxian looked like a bomb that could explode at any time and injure the people next to her. Kim Taeyeon immediately decided that if she dared to cause pain to her, she would definitely cause internal injuries. It was a pity that the two of them were silent for a long time in the terrible atmosphere. Zhang Xiaoxian sighed first.
He sat by the bed and untied his clothes: "Take off your clothes before going to sleep."
Staring at Zhang Xiaoxian's back, Kim Taeyeon asked: "Aren't you going to do it?"
Zhang Xiaoxian untied his tie and turned around quickly. Kim Taeyeon was lying lazily on the bed. Her soft black hair was spread out on the bed. She couldn't guess what Kim Taeyeon meant by this sentence.
"No, I don't have the energy, and your health is not good either." Zhang Xiaoxian put on her pajamas and lay down. Within a few seconds, she turned over and turned her back to Kim Taeyeon. She no longer cared about the glaring gaze from behind that was almost touching her back.
Back stabbing. The conversation in such a flat tone and the indifferent attitude of the two people are like a couple who have been together for many years and their relationship has become dispensable and boring. Kim Taeyeon fell on the bed sadly, although her eyes were open.
Stop talking when the other person is asleep.
"I'm going to the company." Zhang Xiaoxian, who was already getting ready for work in the morning, stood beside the bed and said to the back on the bed.
The person on the bed ignored her, and Zhang Xiaoxian continued: "I will send your food back on time."
"Don't you think it's troublesome?" Kim Taeyeon finally spoke.
"No trouble."
Jin Taeyeon chuckled, her voice filled with helplessness and bitterness. She raised her hand to indicate that she understood and she could leave. Zhang Xiaoxian really turned around and left without any hesitation.
After hearing the sound of the door being locked, Kim Taeyeon sat up and glanced at the time before falling back on the bed and thinking: It's still very early. From today on, I don't have to get up early!
Kim Taeyeon sat up suddenly, grabbed the pillow on the bed and threw it angrily on the floor, curling up her legs and leaning on her head to sit there.
Just like Zhang Xiaoxian said, whenever it is time to eat, she will appear, put the food in the room and leave, until nightfall comes back to rest with the last dinner of the day. This is no longer a home for two people.
Zhang Xiaoxian's temporary resting place. There was a huge hole in their relationship. And it was still spreading. Zhang Xiaoxian had discovered this change long ago, and Kim Taeyeon also knew it well. It was they who allowed this relationship to change with silence.
It gets worse.
I don’t know when Zhang Xiaoxian opened the door again. When Jin Taeyeon was no longer sitting on the edge of the bed staring at her with indifferent eyes, she was leaning on the window sill and looking outside. Not even looking at her. The sun shone on Jin Taeyeon.
On Yan's profile, she looked even thinner than before even though she was eating well. She couldn't remember how long it had been since the two of them had talked. They didn't even have the last word of greeting. It was scarier than a relationship between strangers.
Zhang Xiaoxian was actually very afraid of the way Kim Taeyeon looked outside. Every time she opened the door and saw Kim Taeyeon sitting motionless on the window sill, she wanted to go up and pull her down. Zhang Xiaoxian thought that there was the freedom that Kim Taeyeon longed for outside.
She was afraid that one day when she opened the door, Kim Taeyeon sitting on the window sill would disappear. She cruelly imprisoned a proud wolf in a cage and obliterated her nature. Maybe one day Kim Taeyeon would scratch her like crazy.
She broke through this cage.
The window sill is in a good position. You can clearly see the situation at the gate, and you can even clearly see where the car is temporarily parked. Sitting here watching the car leave clearly and watching her drive back at night has become Kim Taeyeon's daily routine.
Task, just like Zhang Xiaoxian left without saying a word, Jin Taeyeon looked at the figure that appeared at the window, stretched out her hand to touch it gently and whispered the name she loved and hated. Kim Taeyeon didn't jump until the shadow that briefly appeared disappeared.
He walked down from the window sill to the table where the food was placed, picked it up and ate it. He put it to his mouth silently, bit it down and chewed it slowly. The spacious room was so silent that it made people sad. This house became a prison for Taeyeon's deposit.
Zhang Xiaoxian doesn't know that Jin Taeyeon is willing to be locked up here because she doesn't want to leave Zhang Xiaoxian. She cares that she will be fired once she walks out of here, so she gave up her freedom, her persistence, and her pride.
, would rather wait for the door to open with worry. But no matter how much she tries to comfort herself, Kim Taeyeon's silence has already expressed her true inner thoughts. She is unconsciously expressing her resistance to being imprisoned in form.
mood.
In the decaying time, I became less and less like myself. How many times did I want to hug Zhang Xiaoxian and say don’t leave, but I was afraid that doing so would be too clingy. I couldn’t ask why Zhang Xiaoxian came back so late. I couldn’t ask her.
Whose aroma is mixed with the smell of alcohol on her body? Kim Taeyeon knows that Zhang Xiaoxian is busy, because now is a special period for the company, and he must be around all kinds of people. Kim Taeyeon tells herself that Zhang Xiaoxian will never
He would betray her. But every time he saw Zhang Xiaoxian and Kim Taeyeon falling asleep drunk after returning from a late night party, they felt that their suppressed feelings were on the verge of breaking out. Obviously the only chance for them to get along was at night, but
They did nothing except Kim Taeyeon watching Zhang Xiaoxian sleep.
It started to rain one night. Zhang Xiaoxian had already come back at this time. However, when Jin Taeyeon was sitting by the window and looked outside, she still didn't see Zhang Xiaoxian's car. The big raindrops hitting the window made Jin Taeyeon's vision blurred.
Got to be blurry.
A thunderous thunder startled Kim Taeyeon. The phone that had not rang for many days after the thunder suddenly rang harshly. On the screen was a phone number that she had never seen before. Kim Taeyeon answered the phone and put it to her ear.
Lightning pierced the night sky, tearing her usually perfect expression into something ferocious.
"Yuli"
"You can actually call me by my name accurately. It seems that I have never told you my name, right?" After being surprised, the other party asked with a smile.
"Wouldn't it be stupid to not even know the name of your love rival?" He was in such a bad mood that he even hung up the phone without wanting to hear her voice again, as if he could guess how much he hated what he heard next.
"Ah, I just want to tell you, don't wait for Zhang Xiaoxian to go back, she won't go today."
"No."
"I heard that you were locked up by her. It seems to be true. I was also wondering that you didn't show up to cause trouble when we were together recently."
Yuli's relaxed tone seemed to be mocking Kim Taeyeon's eagerness when waiting. She retorted in disbelief. Yuli smiled even more happily, holding the phone and listening to the laughter that penetrated her eardrums. Kim Taeyeon's mood was like the storm outside.
Same. Why, why? I am not willing to wait for you at home just to make it convenient for you to go out and find women.
