I know I will never love you again this time, but I still wish you the best.
---"Diary of a Goddess"
Kim Taeyeon's body is shaking.
He grabbed Zhang Xiaoxian's clothes and squeezed hard, his joints turning white and dry, and he squeezed out a broken smile: "I gave you a shot, and I myself became blind. Is this retribution? But what did I do wrong? Everything about me has been destroyed.
You are ruined. Why do you treat me like this, why do you betray me? Zhang Xiaoxian, answer me, answer me." Kim Taeyeon screamed almost madly and was no longer calm, and his expression was no longer complete and flawless.
"Taeyeon, Taeyeon... if you have any grievances or anger, just vent it to me. How can I make up for it so that it doesn't make you sad? What do you want me to do? As long as you tell me, I will definitely satisfy you. That's it.
If you want my life, I will give it to you without hesitation." Zhang Xiaoxian hugged Kim Taeyeon tightly in his arms and whispered bitterly. Seeing the pain of his beloved, he felt even more pain a hundred times a thousand times. We hugged each other and gave together.
The other side hurts each other, and they lick each other's wounds.
"It's not that I don't want to kill you, it's that I don't want your life. Did you hear me clearly? It's that I don't want it. I'm not an emotionless piece of wood, I can get hurt too." It was because she fell in love with Zhang Xiaoxian that she opened the door at that time.
After the gun, she took the ring and ran away in panic. She even foolishly tried to wear a wedding ring that didn't belong to her, knowing that not being able to wear it would only make herself more miserable. The ring was stuck in the finger bone joint, causing Kim Taeyeon the coldness and pain.
I can still recall it now.
Kim Taeyeon screamed hoarsely and struggled hard in the arms of youth. Water splashed everywhere. Zhang Xiaoxian, who was pulled into the water, was soaked all over. His suit was crinkled and clinging to his body. Because he stopped Kim Taeyeon's rampage, his clothes were even more messy.
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Suddenly, Zhang Xiaoxian clasped Jin Taeyeon's wrists with one hand, pressed the back of his head with the other hand, and pulled him close to her embrace, lowering his head and kissing that hurtful mouth.
Kim Taeyeon suddenly froze. The almost forgotten touch was now ravaging his lips, and her flexible tongue was swirling in his mouth, passionately trying to take away all his breath. Kim Taeyeon forgot to struggle.
Dazedly, Zhang Xiaoxian kissed him heartily. All his thoughts and complaints disappeared because of this kiss. Zhang Xiaoxian's slender fingers caressed Jin Taeyeon's hair and gently relieved his irritable mood.
It wasn't until she felt a hand reaching under her body that Jin Taeyeon suddenly came back to her senses with cold eyes and bit down on Zhang Xiaoxian's lips. Zhang Xiaoxian's body tensed up but she didn't let him go.
Instead, the kiss deepened, and the exchange of body fluids filled both of their mouths with the smell of blood. Tasting the strong blood, Kim Taeyeon was shocked to realize how hard the bite she had just made was. There was pain around the chest, why was she still hurt?
Don't let him go.
For a long time, Zhang Xiaoxian lowered his eyes and saw Jin Taeyeon's red face due to lack of oxygen before he reluctantly let go of her and let her lean against his chest.
"When I asked Brother Niu for your address, I told him that if you tell me in person that you don't love me anymore, I will leave. It seems that I overestimated myself. Taeyeon, I can't let you go. Even if you are now
Tell me you don't love me anymore, and I won't leave. Even if I have money and status, I still have nothing without you." Zhang Xiaoxian was very nervous when he said this, he was afraid that Kim Taeyeon would be right in the next second.
He said she didn't love him anymore.
"When you were my bodyguard, you always regarded yourself as my shield, but you didn't know that it was your recklessness that made me jump with fear whenever there was any disturbance around me. You didn't tell me that you were in danger. You were injured.
I want to protect you but I can't do anything because you always reject me at a distance. At that time, Yuli sent someone to attack you, right?" Zhang Xiaoxian asked softly and then saw Kim Taeyeon bite
He tightened his lower lip.
Zhang Xiaoxian smiled bitterly and continued: "You were afraid that I would find out, so you didn't allow me to leave the hospital, and then you were injured in a place I didn't know about. Do you think I wouldn't be anxious or uncomfortable? How could I bear to see you with your wounds around me?"
The number increases again and again. There is mafia support behind Yuli. If I want to find them all, I must get close to her. But will you allow me to do this? Even if I tell you the plan, you will only make your own decisions.
I lied to you to go to Japan because I thought you would at least be safe there. I wanted to take you back after the matter was resolved. But you knew that in advance and didn’t even give me any chance to explain.
Let them tell me that you are dead. If you blame me, it is my fault. Because I did lie to you and hide it from you. But you were so cruel and gave me a death verdict. Do you know that I really almost lost my life?
The courage to go down." When their misunderstanding began, Zhang Xiaoxian felt that he had to explain it to Kim Taeyeon, otherwise Kim Taeyeon would think that she had betrayed him and would continue to suffer. Zhang Xiaoxian wanted Jin Taeyeon to know that she did not betray him. Not at all.
"You and her... got married... all because of me?" After listening to Zhang Xiaoxian's words, Jin Taeyeon's face completely lost all color, and she opened her mouth with great difficulty before squeezing out these words. Her body was shaking like a thunderbolt. Her vision was blurred.
Until now, Jin Taeyeon hated her eyes for not being able to see clearly. He wanted to see Zhang Xiaoxian's expression clearly, and wanted to look into his eyes to confirm whether what he said was true. His mind was in confusion. He could no longer tell what was.
What is true is false.
"Marrying her is just a plan. She hurt you, I crushed her to ashes and couldn't understand why I could marry her."
Thinking about it now, Zhang Xiaoxian still feels furious. It was so easy for that woman to die in an accident.
Kim Taeyeon's brain was swollen and the veins on her forehead were throbbing. Is this what happened? Did he misunderstand? Zhang Xiaoxian was not planning to marry Yuli but was planning a revenge plan?
"Taeyeon? What's wrong with you?" Zhang Xiaoxian grabbed him anxiously and asked. Kim Taeyeon's unbelievable expression as if she had endured great pain was a bit scary.
At this time, Kim Taeyeon couldn't hear what Zhang Xiaoxian was saying at all. She was completely trapped in the panic she had created. If what Zhang Xiaoxian said was true, if everything was just an unexplained misunderstanding, then what did she do?
...I shot Zhang Xiaoxian and fled abroad for two years. I thought I was deceived and betrayed. I spent every day full of resentment. It turned out that it was all just a misunderstanding... No one was sorry for me. It was him who didn't give me anything.
Zhang Xiaoxian's opportunity to explain.
"Taeyeon." Zhang Xiaoxian, who noticed that Kim Taeyeon was starting to get nervous, shouted in horror, trying to regain his consciousness.
"How can I face you? You are the one who is hurt the most. I am the bastard."
"Taeyeon, Taeyeon, don't do this." Zhang Xiaoxian rubbed Kim Taeyeon's body in panic, hoping that he would relax his tight and stiff muscles.
"I shot you..."
"I don't blame you, really, I don't blame you at all. Please, don't scare me."
"It was my willfulness that almost killed you."
"But I'm still alive, Taeyeon, I'm still alive, I'm right in front of you."
"What should I do? I don't know what to do anymore..."
Faced with Kim Taeyeon who was talking to herself and not listening to herself, Zhang Xiaoxian was as anxious as ants on a hot pot. Suddenly, as if he had thought of something, he roughly tore open his shirt, grabbed Kim Taeyeon's hand and placed it on the heartbeat.
Location.
"Taeyeon, do you feel it? My heartbeat, my heart is beating for you. Is it beating very strongly? Because I love you, I love you." Zhang Xiaoxian shouted loudly in Kim Taeyeon's ear.
His eyes were full of tears, and the hand on Zhang Xiaoxian's chest was shaking violently. He remained silent, but Zhang Xiaoxian could feel that Jin Taeyeon had gradually calmed down. He moved Jin Taeyeon's hand carefully, and Zhang Xiaoxian let him touch it hanging on his neck.
There was a metal pendant on it. Kim Taeyeon's eyes suddenly opened wide.
"This is……"
"This is the bullet you left two years ago. I have been wearing it on my body. It is not a sin. I know it is proof that you love me. I will not feel the pain at all because you shot me.
, because you love me like this. So you don’t have to blame yourself. If you want to blame it, it’s because we weren’t honest enough at the time. We thought that hiding things from each other so as not to make the other person worry is a sign of love. If you feel that this is a sin.
It's a burden, let's bear it together, okay?
"Even if my personality is so bad, do you still like me? Like, more than just like. If you don't believe it, I will tell you every day until you get tired of hearing it." Zhang Xiaoxian's affectionate confession made Kim Taeyeon feel a surge in her chest.
The sweetness of the pain. How could I be bored by hearing this? He would not be the one who would be bored. "I will... order you to say it many times every day." The hand on Zhang Xiaoxian's chest was slightly turned into a fist, because he was not used to this.
Kim Taeyeon's expression looked tangled in the way she spoke.
It was also the first time that Zhang Xiaoxian heard Kim Taeyeon speak like this. When he suddenly heard it, Zhang Xiaoxian froze stupidly and his eyes were dull, but soon he laughed heartily and hugged Kim Taeyeon's lips to his burning ear.
He murmured in a hoarse voice: "I am extremely happy." Zhang Xiaoxian's laughter seemed to be infected by Kim Taeyeon, and she inadvertently raised the corners of her lips to reveal a gentle and peaceful smile that shocked Zhang Xiaoxian deeply. "You laughed..." Surprised
Zhang Xiaoxian's tone of voice brushed the corners of Kim Taeyeon's lips with her wet fingers, leaving moist traces and a hot touch. "What's so surprising?
"Kim Taeyeon didn't understand. A human being can laugh. Why would Zhang Xiaoxian ask herself in such disbelief? "Don't tell me again that you are not my Kim Taeyeon. Taeyeon, you are mine and can only be mine."
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As if to let Kim Taeyeon remember who he belonged to, Zhang Xiaoxian spoke to Kim Taeyeon in a serious tone that did not allow anyone to question or refute him. He wanted to engrav these words into Kim Taeyeon's heart one stroke at a time.
"Zhang Xiaoxian, it hurts. You scratched me and it hurts." Jin Taeyeon's face wrinkled together, and Zhang Xiaoxian was about to crush the bones on her shoulder. She was fine just now, but why did she suddenly become agitated?
