She came back after a while, immediately snuggled into my arms, and at the same time reached out her hand to gently touch my skin.
If life can be like this, what else can I ask for?
To be honest, I'm very happy because now Zhuang Qing no longer worries about Song Mei's death. Regarding Song Mei's death, I always feel that Zhuang Qing is too over the top. That matter should obviously be related to Lin Yi
, but she has been troubled for so many years because of Song Mei's words.
I think Zhuang Qing may have been brainwashed by Song Mei. Because I discovered a long time ago that she simply regarded Song Mei's words as an edict. But later I discovered that her character is bold and rebellious.
, so I think she is very conflicted.
Anyway, now she finally comes out.
But now, I have to think about a question in my heart: If I want to consider marriage again, is she suitable?
Suitable! Now in my heart she is the most suitable woman to be my wife. Because we have the most real and sincere emotions between us, and we have experienced so many things together.
And the more important thing is: she and I both had the same, unbearable experience. But after everything we went through, we still have true feelings for each other. This is the most important thing.
Nowadays, the word love is too extravagant for both of us, but I believe that with true love, we can grow old together and live out our lives lovingly together.
But I know very well that I have to wait for this matter because she has just come out of the entanglements in the past.
Thinking of this, I immediately felt a sense of relief in my heart. However, I had to start thinking about another question, Zhuang Qing, will she agree to marry me?
Yes, she will definitely do it. I said to myself in my heart. But I know: I don't want to think about the possibility that she won't agree.
But I still firmly believe that she and I, as two people with numerous emotional and physical traumas, floating around like duckweeds and catkins, it should be a matter of course that we finally get together.
Wait, what I need now is to wait. It would be best for me to talk to her about this matter after her mood has completely returned to peace and she has almost forgotten everything in the past.
Maybe it only takes a month.
At present, I still have to do one thing as soon as possible for Yu Min and her children. I always feel that I should do something for them, otherwise my heart will continue to be uneasy.
Therefore, I still feel that I should call Tang Zi shamelessly. I always believe that she does not hate me personally, even if she hates me, it is because she has feelings for me. So I still believe that sentence: Sincerely
When the time comes, gold and stone will open.
But this time I didn't call her again, but sent her a text message directly: At seven o'clock tonight, I will wait for you at the seafood restaurant we went to.
She didn't reply.
But I won't care about it, because I feel that she will come, and even if she doesn't come, I will go there alone. If she doesn't come today, I will send her a text message whenever I have time and go there to wait for her.
I went there after get off work.[
I chose the table we had sat at before because I had already called in advance to reserve a seat.
This is a close seat, and you can see the river view outside from the large floor-to-ceiling glass. In the past, Tang Zi and I used to eat seafood in this place while watching the lights emitted by the ships on the river in the night.
The bright night view across the river.
We were so romantic and tender at that time, and her beautiful face smiling at me is still in my mind.
At that time, she told me that she wanted to eat seafood, so I took her here. And later, she suddenly appeared here and slapped me...
So I thought maybe she would come here alone occasionally because she missed the time we spent together.
I ordered the dishes, which were all Tang Zi's favorites in my memory. In addition, I also ordered a bottle of red wine.
Then I asked for a pot of West Lake Longjing. I really can't get used to drinking the top-quality Tieguanyin that Secretary Luo likes. What kind of tea taste is there? It's just water boiled from leaves.
The time at this time was 6:30 in the afternoon. After I asked the waiter to serve the food later, I began to wait quietly.
The setting sun has quietly fallen to the bottom of the bridge in the distance. The sunset on the horizon is extremely beautiful. Then, the sun quickly jumps tiredly below the horizon, putting away its long rays of light on the river.
line, the sunset glow also slowly changes from dark to light, from light to shallow... The river flows eastward, and the water on the river ripples under the colorful sunset. There are boats going back and forth on the river, plowing out pear blossoms.
The splashing water waves will disappear in the middle of the undulating water surface in an instant. It is difficult to find the scars on the river water. What is left are only the waves surging with the tide. The short but gorgeous sunset on the horizon has gradually faded with the setting sun.
Faded, ushering in the silence before nightfall. Slowly the city entered the night. On both sides of the river separated by the water, the night was dark and the lights were on. The beautiful scenery was irresistible, and the rivers reflected each other on a bright moonlit night. Night,
Arrive quietly. Say goodbye to the afterglow and say goodbye to the sunset. Night has arrived, and the dark night has also quietly arrived. If the riverside is a night of light, perhaps listening is better than seeing the outline of this beautiful riverbank in front of you. Night, is
Here it comes. The lights on both sides of the river have also come, illuminating the clear face of the river in front of her. It laughs and happily flows eastward under the fluorescent light. The lights are waving to her, seeming to want her to take a rest.
She enjoys the beauty on both sides of the Taiwan Strait, but she has always only admired it. Running down from the source of the snow-capped mountains, there are buffers, waves, gentleness, and surging waves; she has experienced mountains, ridges, canyons, plains, and sandbanks.
In the quiet and dark night, there are lights like tonight, and the beautiful scenery is panoramic, but she never stops, riding the footsteps of the ship into the sea, and completing the moment of integration as soon as possible. The lights on both sides of the strait are still there. Looking from a distance, the lights are connected like a river.
Long dragons are flying by the river; looking up close, the lights are as bright as day. The lights of ships sailing in the river are like meteors passing by, flying across the Milky Way, and the floating lights that flicker on and off create a beautiful and safe scenery in the river.
During such a long wait, only by knowing how to appreciate all the beautiful scenery in front of you can you stop being irritable and make yourself less aware of the length of time.
A lonely man must learn to wait and be good at waiting. Now I am already used to this.
When I just looked outside quietly, watching the sky slowly dimming, watching the lights on the river bank gradually becoming brighter as the night came, I suddenly felt something strange about my body. Huo Ran
Head tilted...
I was suddenly pleasantly surprised because I found Tang Zi looking at me not far from where I was sitting.
At this moment, I completely believed that eyes had power, because I had clearly felt the strangeness her eyes brought to me just now.
The sudden surprise made me stand up immediately, "Tang Zi, come on, come and sit down."
Then I asked the waiter to serve the food immediately, then I dragged her chair back a little and asked her to sit down. This was not to show my gentlemanly demeanor, but to please her.
There was always a cold look on her face, but fortunately she didn't refuse.
I didn't look at the time, but I knew in my heart that it must have been past seven o'clock. But the time was no longer important to me. What was important was that she was here, and she was already sitting here, opposite me.
"Thank you for coming." I said to her sincerely, ignoring the frosty look on her face. I knew that it was just her appearance. And I also knew that there must be mixed feelings in her heart at this moment.
.
When she came, she already explained how it should be.
She doesn't speak.
The waiter was serving the food, and I asked him to open the red wine for us. At this time, Tang Zi suddenly said, "I don't drink."
I immediately said to the waiter: "Okay, please help us return this red wine."
But Tang Zi then said again, "I drink white wine."
I was startled and immediately said to the waiter: "Replace this red wine with Maotai."
Tang Zi said boldly again, "Jiangnan Daqu will do."
The waiter was almost driven crazy by the two of us, "We don't have Jiangnan Daqu here. What kind of wine do you want?"
I hurriedly said: "Jiangnan special music, the best kind."
But Tang Zi pursed his lips and said, "It's better to ask for Wuliangye."
I immediately glared at the waiter, "Wuliangye. Did you hear that?"
The waiter agreed repeatedly and went. At this moment, he should have been able to tell: This woman is having trouble with me.
At this time, I went to look at her and found that her face turned red and there were crystal tears flowing out of her eyes. She wiped her tears quickly and then looked at me. After sighing, she said softly: "Feng
Laugh, the more you act like this, the more I hate you in my heart."
I hurriedly said: "I know you hate me. This is all my fault."
She glanced at me and said, "What's wrong with you? It's very good. The more you become an official, the more money you make, and the women around you never stop. What's wrong with you?"
I felt ashamed in my heart, "Tang Zi, please stop saying that, okay? I know I'm very sorry for you, and even more sorry for Yu Min and the children. But you didn't know some of the situation at that time. In this way, please listen to me slowly
Let’s finish talking and talk about it later, okay?”
She pursed her lips and said, "Okay. I'd like to hear how you plan to talk sweetly."
I immediately said: "I promise it's not just rhetoric, I promise it's all the truth."
A cold snort came from her nose.
I didn't care about her attitude and emotions at this time, because I knew that the most important thing was to tell her the whole story. So I started talking about it when Yu Min gave birth to the baby...
The matter is actually not complicated, so I didn’t talk for a long time. Of course, when I told it, I concealed the true identities of Principal Wu, Director Song and Kang Demao. Finally, I said to her: "Tang Zi, I said
They are all true. If there is anything I did wrong in this matter, it is that I should not have treated Yu Min like that at the beginning. Now I also feel that my tolerance was too narrow at that time. I can sit down and talk to her.
However, I treated her with that attitude. No matter what, she had done something for me. Now I often think about it: How did I say such cruel words at that time? Oh!"
She kept pouting while listening at first, but then she slowly began to be stunned. At this moment, after I finished speaking, she suddenly asked me softly, "Is this really the case?"
Of?"
I nodded, "That's true. If I was lying to you, I would die badly."
She hurriedly said: "Feng Xiao, who made you swear like this?"
I felt relieved immediately, because her expression and words at this moment showed that she had basically forgiven me. I continued: "Yu Min hates me because she doesn't know what happened next.
So she thought I was deliberately shirking responsibility like that. Tang Zi, I know you misunderstood me because of this. In fact, I only found out the truth recently. If I hadn’t seen that child look so much like me, I wouldn’t have known it until now.
I will not doubt the past. In fact, many things in this world are caused by such misunderstandings."
She said: "I'm hungry. Let's eat."
I hurriedly gave her some food. She said, "You can eat too. Oh, now I realize that life is really boring."
She will definitely be emotional, because she has experienced so much in such a short period of time. I said, "Yes. But don't we have to live day by day?"
She shook her head, "Now I often wonder, if my uncle didn't have to be the dean, would something like that happen later?"
I hurriedly said: "That's not the case. There are no what-ifs in this world, and aren't each of us thinking about the best thing at all times? So his thoughts at that time are understandable. For example, who knows what will happen in the future for me?
Will something unexpected happen? So, I think we should live each day well and do everything we should do well..."
Originally, I was going to ask her immediately about Yu Min and the child, but at this time she immediately interrupted, "No. I think this world is actually fair. Don't go there if you don't deserve it."
Get it, or you will get retribution.”
Although I think she seems to be too pessimistic and superstitious, I still understand her very well, because everything she has experienced is really difficult for a woman to bear.
I asked her softly: "Tang Zi, are you still speculating in real estate?"
She nodded, "I have been investing in this area. However, I opened a beauty shop myself. It just opened not long ago and the business is still there."
I said: "That's good. Investing in real estate is never a lifetime thing. There will come a time when the market price of this industry will no longer be the same."
She said: "Yeah. I think the beauty shop I opened is good. I can chat with my customers every day and exchange some money-making information with each other. In fact, my current purpose is not entirely to make money, the main thing is to do something
Things you like to do.”
I was very happy for her, "Yes, the most important thing is that a person can do what he likes to do."
She raised her glass to me, "Come on. Drink. I know what you want to do with me. It's about Yu Min and the child, right?"
I nodded.
She sighed softly and said: "Yu Min has her own husband, so I think you'd better not disturb her and the child. This is the greatest favor you can do to her and the child. Yu Min's husband always thought that the child was
My own, that’s why I’m so kind to Yu Min and the child. Even if the child doesn’t know who his biological father is when he grows up, it won’t hurt him. Many things are like this, a person doesn’t know anything,
On the contrary, you will live a happier life. Isn’t that what the people of our country were like a few decades ago? At that time, everyone really believed that they lived in the best country in the world. In fact, people at that time felt that they were better than people today.
I'm much happier. That's the truth. What do you think?"
Although I thought what she said seemed reasonable, I still felt that something was not quite right. I said, "But..."
She glanced at me and said, "Feng Xiao, in fact, you are too selfish, because you only consider your own personal feelings, or you always analyze other people's possible feelings from your own perspective. But you
Have you ever thought about it? If you were Yu Min and you were your child, how would you think about this matter? Isn’t this a very simple truth? If you really want to be nice to them, it’s best not to
Go and interfere with their current lives. Unless they encounter difficulties that they cannot overcome in the future, then you can help them. In fact, Yu Min is really good to you. If it were me, I wouldn't bother to care about you, and I wouldn't tell your child.
This is your matter. Do you know? She did this entirely to consider your feelings, and to let you know that you still have a son in this world. Why don't you understand her thoughts? "
Her words suddenly woke me up, and I suddenly felt a shock in my heart.
What Tang Zi said is right. All I consider is just thinking about other people's feelings from my own personal perspective. That's it, I don't really look at the problem from the perspective of Tang Zi and the children.
Tang Zi was right to criticize me. In fact, I was selfish. Even if I summoned Tang Zi today and tried to ask her how to help Yu Min and her daughter, in the final analysis, it was for my own peace of mind.
At this moment, I truly realized that what Tang Zi said was right. Now, for me, not disturbing the lives of Yu Min, mother and son is the greatest help to them.
There was a brief silence between us because I was feeling guilty.
After a while, she suddenly asked me: "Feng Xiao, how many women have you slept with since you broke up with us?"
Her words came out of the blue, catching me off guard and making me feel extremely embarrassed.
I said awkwardly: "I am a single man, so it should be normal to date women, right?"
She pursed her lips and said: "Yes, you are a single man, and it is normal for you to date women. But is it normal for you to date multiple women at the same time? Now that I am also a single woman, if I date multiple women at the same time,
What will others think of me if I date a man?"
I was speechless for a moment, and then I said, "When I was with you three women, why didn't you talk about me then?"
I regretted this sentence as soon as I said it, because I suddenly realized that I had made the most inappropriate mistake, which is the principle of never being serious with a woman at any time.
Well, women are very emotional when it comes to things like this. For example, the woman in front of me, why didn’t she criticize me like this at the beginning? It’s just because she’s not with me now, so she thinks I’m like this
That's just wrong.
However, I shouldn't defend myself against such a thing, and it would be useless to defend myself, because I can't find any excuses in terms of right and wrong.
However, my words had already been spoken, so I had to apologize to her immediately, "I'm sorry, Tang Zi. Let's not talk about such things today, okay? You know that since Chen Yuan left, I
I have no plans to get married anymore because I have long been discouraged. Of course, there are also my own moral issues... But Tang Zi, I really don’t want to talk about such things today. We have been together for a long time.
We are no longer together. Today we finally managed to sit down together to eat and talk. Why can’t we talk about something happy? "
She sighed softly and said: "Actually, how can I say such unpleasant things? I am worried about you. My own life was too chaotic before, and I actually came with a few sisters to do that to you...
...Now that I think about it, I feel so stupid and ashamed. I know in my heart that everything that happened to me later was actually retribution. Feng Xiao, do you know? I suddenly thought of this thing again just now,
So I'm worried about you..."
I was very moved. Of course, I don’t believe in the theory of retribution, but judging from the laws of development of things, her words still make some sense. After all, if there are too many things like that, some unexpected consequences may occur.
Question. This is actually a cause and effect.
I looked at her and said to her softly: "Tang Zi, thank you for worrying about me, but there are some things that I don't want to say more about. I have said it before. The reason is of course my own character, because I
My self-control is too poor and I indulge myself too much. But besides that, there are other reasons. In short, there is one sentence: people cannot help themselves when they are in the world."
She raised her glass to me, "Oh, I understand. But I really hope to be a man in my next life. As long as I don't get married, there will be no problem with any number of women. Hehe! Feng Xiao, I actually envy you."
I was embarrassed again.
Although I knew she was joking with me, I was still embarrassed.
I hurriedly said: "Tang Zi, let's not talk about this, okay? I'm embarrassed by what you said."
She couldn't stop laughing immediately, "I didn't expect you, Feng Xiao, to be embarrassed sometimes."
I put down my chopsticks and looked at her, "Tang Zi, have you always thought I was cold and cold?"
She was avoiding my gaze, "No."
I felt very uncomfortable because I didn’t expect that she would still look at me like this after I explained so much to her. I sighed and said, "Tang Zi, do whatever you want. I have always understood myself relatively well."
Yes, although I am very sentimental and erotic in life, I have never been cold-blooded. I know why you think that, because I chose to escape after Liu Meng and your uncle had an incident. But Tang Zi, you
Think about it, what else could I have done in that situation? What would I have done if it were you? Stand up and take on everything? But can I take it on? And you know,
In all the things, I personally did not have any financial problems. On the contrary, I have been investing in you. Let’s not talk about this. Let’s talk about other situations at that time. Maybe you overestimated my energy and thought that
I can deal with everything, right? But you know what? I was once secretly double-regulated once, but I really don’t have any problems. But it’s not wrong to say that I don’t have any problems at all.
It's possible, for example, I am dealing with women's issues. But such things cannot be exposed. If exposed, it will have a great impact on me, and it will also be bad for you. Do you think this is the case? "
She sighed and said, "Stop talking. Drink."
I also wished for this, "Okay, let's drink. Tangzi, do you drink a lot on weekdays?"
She nodded, "When I was at home alone, sometimes I would come here and drink alone. Feng Xiao, what do you think is wrong with this person? When I had no money, I would think about it every day.
How great would it be if I had a lot of money? I could buy nice clothes, buy high-end cosmetics, go for regular beauty treatments, travel all over the country and even abroad... But now, when I really
After having so much money, I don’t want to do anything anymore. Now I hope I can find a true relationship and live with a man I like for the rest of my life. It doesn’t matter if the other person has more money or less.”
I smiled and said, "People are like this. Once they get it, they feel it is no longer so important. And after getting it, they realize that what they really want is not such a thing. This is actually a kind of mentality that people have.
"
But she shook her head, "No, I don't think that's the case. Although it is the mentality of many people to look forward to Shu, including myself, but I think what a person really pursues in his heart is actually very simple, and that is true love. Including you
Feng Xiao, although you have had many women, there are very few that can really touch your heart. It seems that you have not met one yet, otherwise why have you never gotten married?"
I immediately looked at her in surprise, because I found that she had changed, and the change was so great. Now she seemed to have seen through her own life.
He also saw through me.
I have to admit that what she said is right, because although I am absurd and excessive in my private life, my heart has always been pursuing the true love.
I can't restrain myself from pursuing something like that. Maybe it's because I haven't found the true love that I need so far, so I've been waiting.
But there is one person who is different, and that is Zhuang Qing.
The true love I need is not only what the other person can give me, but I also need to treat her the same way.
The author's digression:
"The No. 1 Guard in Zhongnanhai: Urban Royal Beauty"
Author: Master Mo Jian
Introduction: Li Qinglong, the number one master of the Central Security Bureau, has many daughters and is invincible. He accidentally provoked Tang Ruochu, the daughter of the chief, who was known as the "Extinct Master", and turned from life and death enemies into a beloved couple. Li Qinglong wanted to be a good man, but encountered the father-in-law of the chief.
They beat the mandarin ducks with a stick and forced him to retire from Zhongnanhai and return to the city by taking out his salary from under the cauldron.
In the network of urban fame and fortune intertwined with officialdom, shopping malls, underworld and entertainment venues, Li Qinglong flexed his muscles and flourished, conquering all the fair and rich girls with his superb skills in picking up girls. He woke up in the middle of the night but couldn't stop.
I lived in a state of sadness, with three thousand beauties, no favorite, no bliss. In the end, a miracle happened
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